Never Beating These Caretaker Allegations

i think it’s good to have a friend who gets mad at you and takes you aside to call you out when you do something harmful.

the person i married is the same person i met when i was 5 years old in kindergarten.

btw dating sucks as a concept.

it’s crazy how much an inflated ego can truly effect you especially if you have an intense internal locus of control.

i freaked out over the texture of my chicken earlier, burritos i had meal planned for the next week and the texture of my chicken isn’t right because i got chicken thighs instead of breasts. i didn’t like them.

in reality, i had spent 3 hours preparing these just to be disappointed by the outcome, and its just one of those things that happen and thats okay.

but instead, i blame myself for getting the wrong type of chicken without realizing it- my disappointment with all of this effort i put in, and im bullying myself over and over expecting a different result. my ego is bruised- all because of a small mistake that anybody could have easily overlooked.

i have 10 burritos that i don’t like, and that’s okay- logically. emotionally it’s not and it’s a wild experience realizing life never truly dealt with learning how to feel disappointment without self deprecation.

i’m going to lose my mind if my coworker acts any more manager-y. go fuck yourself Sara.

destructive urges just to make a change

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my experience: dating a trans man

i used to identify as a lesbian pretty stubbornly. when my parter came out as trans, ftm, i didnt think it would effect everything. my philosophy up until that point has been that i loved him more than i cared about my label. i decided to call myself queer, and everything else was between myself and my partner.

at one point, i truly did love him, but i didnt realize i loved the feminine version of him. the version who thought of me, and loved me femininely, and looked at me femininely. as far as i knew, i loved him for how he loved me.

he started testosterone a while after we were together. at first i noticed changes, but i figured their would be. i guess i just didnt realize how intense those changes would be for his personality.

he used to look at me a certain way. now he looks at me like a cis man would look at me. he still loved me, but i felt his previous admiration and idolization of me turn into something more sexual, desire. i dont think he has even noticed the shift either. as far as he knows, this is how he's always loved me.

i remember the first time i thought i didnt want a relationship with him forever. i remember the first realization i had that breaking up is an option, and its okay. i remember reading somewhere that if you think about breaking up, then your relationship is doomed to fail. while i think breaking up should be a last resort, that advice was right. the second i considered, or even acknowledged that this wasn't what i wanted, i knew my relationship was doomed.

dating a trans man made me realize that i crave a feminine love, and its been so long since i've properly taken care of myself. i need to let him go soon but i still care about him. i don't want to hurt him but i have to.

i care about him, but i don't love him anymore. its almost time i accept that and proceed to move forward into the next step for me. i will never regret the time we shared, but i do regret not realizing how i felt sooner, and acting sooner.

fr.

every time i remember max wearing chloe's necklace in the last episode my heart shatters into 89,000 pieces all over again

gon tell my therapist i actually didn’t do my homework and open up on why i didn’t lets see if i did good in therapy i’ll update

update: therapy was fine but she told me to do my homework smh how dare she