suicide ideation is so familiar to me that i find it really weird that it's meant to be go away just with a medicine. i fed it and let it roots grew and settle in my brain. it is more than a chemical deficiency to me. this actually became my personality and i don't want to let go
there are monsters nearby
it's almost 2am and im thinking about how akemi's sex scenes reflect her character so well. she sees people as steps to reach her goals. so, she reads them to learn their desires and uses this information to talk herself into their mind. she ends up achieving what she wants and also doesn't let them realize they are 'steps'. she will be great the same way she has sex
(crawls on all fours with blood drenched on me) I have to do arts and crafts
"An inseparable piece of everything i admired about you"
The Unburnt
no one is ever going to want me
and i don't necessarily believe any of this i'm just saying words recreationally