How The Fuck

summer and winter

when i was a kid i always fantasized about grabbing romeo on the shoulders and asking him do you mean it? do you really feel it? is it sincere? is it? are you an act? are you feeling?

he desperately wanted kenny to hug him even though he hates him even though his clothes are filthy and he smells gross and he merely treats him like a person, levi still wanted to feel warm in someone's arm again like he did when kuchel hold him; he knew it won't be the same but he still wanted and waited, his arms itched his body felt cold and he kept waiting but for a very, very long time, no one touched him like his mother did. his hair got long and he considered going to a barber to feel someone's touch even at the tip of his hair. at some nights he felt his mother's lingering touch on himself and tried to remember how it felt to be touched without feeling threatened, when his hands are covered with blood he tried to remember how the same blood makes people warm in their veins and how it felt to be touched, touched, touched

touch starved

art takes so long and its so tiring but if i dont make art for the rest of my life ill die

the mindscape swings

i will use the word weird and say im weirded out about a lot of things but in fact nothing in this world is weird to me

11-25-2023, 10 PM

i'm shopping for puzzles and just as i scroll i see an ugly ai generated picture turned into some. no haha i don't pierce my claws onto the screen or scoop my eyes out or vomit all over, i just silently keep scrolling. yeaahhh

fuck it I’m gonna do it no matter how much and how long it takes

just watched interview with the vampire and left with a weird attraction towards freaky vampires with beautiful blonde hair and an undeniable desire to suck my blood till my heart stops