Unanottexxx - Una

i have so many things. i don't know what are they but at some nights i feel like my arms are full.

i had a dream where i grab people on their naked shoulders, leaving bloody crescent marks, shaking them whilst i shake myself and ask are we going mad yet? how could so many people live and not go crazy? why are we so chill about the concept of death and living and being bloody fleshy machines that interact with each other???????????? how can we not go crazy. i have so much hours to live and i couldn't figure out how i didn't go crazy and how i won't

I need you all to understand how insane it is that Mizu literally almost dying and being overpowered by hundreds of men is placed adjacent to when she let herself be intimate with the man who would eventually betray her. The way those scenes were cut was intentional in the way that yeah, Mizu was just reminiscing of her old life in how she became the ‘monster’ she thinks she is, but it’s also how it implies that IT FELT THE SAME TO HER. Being vulnerable has ALWAYS led to life or death ultimatums, so much so that now she associates them all together. Revenge or love, what’s the difference? Are they not the same? She doesn’t have the luxury of allowing herself that intimacy, because the love has always been tainted by betrayal and that betrayal has always led to bloodshed; her or them.

Oliver failed. Oliver failed. He failed. Venetia lost interest, Farleigh came back, Felix found out his lie. He is not a brilliant mastermind who plotted the whole theft from day on, he popped a boy's tire so he could get close to him, to bask in the nearness to his warmth, and that was enough until it wasn't.

He isn't a genius, he's attentive and greedy and lucky and he can't help himself. He was pretty enough and Elspeth was broken enough that it worked in his favor after nearly 20 years. He tells himself he orchestrated the whole thing from the start, that it was "just work," and that he didn't gradually want more and more and more, and if you believe him, you failed too.

The Green Ray (1986) dir. Éric Rohmer

suicide ideation is so familiar to me that i find it really weird that it's meant to be go away just with a medicine. i fed it and let it roots grew and settle in my brain. it is more than a chemical deficiency to me. this actually became my personality and i don't want to let go

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ARCANE | Tarot & Playing Card Designs | Victor Maury

haikyuu is soooooo…… everything. it’s so good it makes you want to do stuff and motivates you enough to realize that you have to begin somewhere and that everything is worth a try and maybe you’re lonely now but something better is coming, or maybe you’re not the best at that one thing you’re doing but it doesn’t mean you shouldn’t enjoy it, or maybe you feel like you’re behind everyone else but your path is yours to walk and it’s different from the path of those you compare yourself to, and maybe you think you’re never going to make it but you’re going to bloom after trials and tribulations, and maybe you won’t shine the way you expected to but shining isn’t limited to grand gestures and grand jobs and grand dreams and