The Impulsive Urge To Hurt Myself

I don’t know if this is relatable or not, but do you ever watch a tv show or read a book or engage with some type of media, then have a very very difficult time determining what is from the media and what is actually real. I’ll think I’m a character from the media, that my loved ones are characters from the media, that I’m in the place where the media takes place. I’ll have a difficult time telling if my dog just died or if that happened in the media, if I just won a competition or if that was the media. Anyone else? Just me?

ARCANE RP FINDER

I just watched Arcane for the fourth time, and I’m looking for somebody to play Vi against my Caitlyn or Jayce against my Viktor.

I roleplay on Discord, am a literate writer, and use third person. NSFW is welcome, and I prefer to write as switches.

I love all kinds of themes including dead dove. We can discuss triggers and plot something together.

Please contact me or like this post if you’re interested! Thanks :)

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Hello, folks. I’m writing another RP finder as I have a never-ending suspire for more.

About me: Fluent English, literate/advanced literate, 18+, and I write on Discord. I am down for any kind of plot, this includes controversial topics.

What I’m looking for: I prefer to play MxM or FxF. The characters I play are written in purple:

Genshin: Razor x Bennett, Gorou x Heizou, Xingqiu x Chongyun, Kazuha x Scaramouche, Tighnari x Cyno

Arcane: Caitlyn x Vi, Viktor x Jayce, Jinx x Ekko, Jinx x Vi (platonic), Jinx x Isha (platonic)

Yuri on Ice: Yuri P x Otabek

Wednesday: Wednesday x Enid

Sk8 the Infinity: Langa x Reki

Haikyuu: Kenma x Kuroo

Overwatch: Hanzo x Cassidy, Hanzo x Genji

AIB: Chishiya x Arisu, Chishiya x Niragi

Please either like this post or DM me and we can plot something together. I love head-cannoning, sharing fanart, and becoming friends OOC. Please consider! Thanks ˶ˆ꒳ˆ˵

seems like a good fucking day to 0d, do drvgs, or cvt

fuck it, why not all at once???

Energy: Rambling #11

18th April 2022, 02:12

Do you know what is really annoying? The random surges of energy that I can get. But, do you know when it is? It is always during the middle of the fucking night when I can’t do anything. Bake food? I don’t know how to work the new oven. Clean? The hoover would be too loud. Dance? My footsteps are heavy. Try on new clothes? My wardrobe door sounds like I’m dropping a nuclear bomb. I wish I had this kind of energy when I woke up and throughout the day, but when I wake up, I feel like I have been beaten up and had my head held underwater.

~ 化け猫 (Bakeneko)

girl i am so deeply unhappy

Cube cat

my mom: you have to find different coping skills than cutting

me: so how about not eating

Sleep: Rambling #6

17th April 2022, 02:23

I never seem to sleep anymore, and when I do sleep, I wake up every hour. I have nightmare after nightmare - they’re usually about my sister. I also seem to hallucinate a lot around the time I’m supposed to sleep/wake up (that’s probably just because I’m sleep deprived, though I would like to not see tarantulas crawling up my wall for once). I’m taking 20mg of Amitriptyline, but it feels like I’m taking sugar pills. They’re supposed to help my Fibromyalgia and help me fall asleep, but I’m still in pain and I’m still wide awake. I wonder what it is like to get good quality sleep. I feel like I would be able to get so much done. I have so many ambitions and dreams, but I can barely get out of bed without collapsing. My body is giving up on me. My brain is giving up on me. Life is giving up on me. I don’t know what to try anymore. If anybody would like to knock me out with a baseball bat, please go ahead.

~ 化け猫 (Bakeneko)