This Is For The Best
This is for the Best
So, if you've read the last few posts. I'm sure you've already guessed what this post is about.
I've decided to give my former best friend a pseudo name. I'm sure it's kinda hard keeping up with my previous posts without a name. I think I'll call him Leonard as he actually reminds me of Leonard from Big Bang Theory...
I guess that things have been okay since I posted last. It's just that I'm pretty much just trying to keep up with things at college. Which is good. It's given me the distraction I need. I need to be constantly distracted these days. It's weird. I mean I feel fine, but as soon as I see him, my mood drops and I feel like I don't know how to act or react anymore...
Leonard seemed fine today though. A little psycho and a little on edge, but fine. He started talking to a few people today. People, not me, other people. He doesn't bother himself to even greet me anymore. I said psycho because well, he came to college without shoes today. So that's new. It was kinda weird, but maybe it's part of him finding himself. I mean, I'm in place to judge. I went to college in high waisted shorts and black sneakers with "Love" written in a ribbon...
I still found it kinda weird. The whole "no shoes" thing. I mean college is no place to be walking around with no shoes. I've seen people spill way too many things on the floor. I know it's not clean. But hey. It's his choice. It's all been his choice. I realised today that I don't deserve to have to beg to be in his life. At the end of the day. He chose to kick me out. In a way, maybe I should've seen this coming, I mean considering everything that happened last year, I was thinking of cutting him out of my life, so why would it be surprising that he cut me out of his?
I realised that this might be a good thing. I mean, he gets whatever he wants, space from me or whatever he shouted last time I wanted to talk. I, however, get something greater. I get a new identity. Before, people just knew me as "the girl that always hangs out with Leonard". Now I get to be my own person, form my own identity before I leave college. This is good for me. I don't only have an identity based on him. I get to have friends that aren't just friends of his. I finally have friends of my own. Some of those friends have also given up on him... Just like I have.
I feel like this is what's best. That instead of seeing this as losing someone close to me, I finally see it as an opportunity to find myself again and be the person I want to be. Not who everyone expected me to be as his best friend...
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Advanced English Adjectives
Garrulous - excessively talkative
Sententious - given to moralizing in a pompous or affected manner
Pertinacious - holding firmly to an opinion or a course of action
Propitious - giving or indicating a good chance of succeess, favorable
Captious - (of a person) tending to find fault or raise petty objections
Exiguous - very small in size or amount
Contumacious - (especially of a defendant’s behavior) stubbornly or willfully disobedient to authority
Perspicacious - having a ready insight into an understanding of things.
Scurrilous - making or spreading scandalous claims about someone with intention of damaging their reputation
Sumptuous - splendid and expensive-looking
Pervicacious - very obstinate or stubborn
Temerarious - reckless, rash
Sagacious - having or showing keen mental discernment and good judgement
Magnanimous - generous or forgiving, especially to a rival or less powerful person
For frustrated WWE Fans...
Indy wrestling is IMO the best it’s been in years, and there’s plenty of great promotions that offer quality matches and story telling. Some of these links are paid subscription services but I believe they’re worth the investment or at the very least, a trial. Also some of the YouTube pages are unavailable outside of the US but a proxy should work.
PROGRESS: https://demandprogress.pivotshare.com/ + https://www.youtube.com/user/progresswrestling
What Culture Pro Wrestling: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCAl6NLC0tnubiCMzYXawG3g
Ring Of Honour: https://www.youtube.com/user/ringofhonor + http://www.rohwrestling.com/membership
New Japan: http://njpwworld.com/ + https://www.youtube.com/user/NJPW
Lucha Underground: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCaVwpbqM8dkhQvbL8XileAA
Shimmer: http://shimmerwrestling.blogspot.co.nz/p/dvds.html
PWG: http://www.prowrestlingguerrilla.com/merch/
World Wresting Network (streams Evolve, Shine, Dragon Gate): http://wwnlive.com/
There is more to wrestling than WWE, and I wanted to share some alternatives as I know being a WWE fan can be so frustrating. Give indy wrestling a chance in 2017.
Please feel free to add to this.
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Rugrats was deep.
Being a woman is hard af.
No boobs? Damn. Grow some. Boobs? Cover yourself. You’re so vulgar. No ass? Everyone will laugh at you for it. Ass? Well, better cover yourself cause you don’t wanna draw attention to that booty, right? Short? You need to wear those heels. Tall? Damn. You cannot be taller than men. Also, never wear heels. Skinny? Gotta gain weigh cause no one likes bones. Chubby? Eat healthy!!!! Nobody likes fat bitches. You like makeup? Hell no. Taking you swimming on the first date. No makeup? Please, take care of yourself. Don’t be so lazy.
We, women, are constantly shamed for everything so we, as well, might do whatever we want.
I just love Wrestling, Design, Art and Animals. I post about how I think and feel and what is happening in my life right now...
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