Theghostinabadbook - Bsd Altered My Brain Chemistry

I don't think Akutagawa has lost his memories, neither do I think he's faking it, or doing it as a way to get Atsushi to react and get back on his feet.

In chapter 117, when Bram saves Aya from the airport wreckage, he says that he transferred his consciousness into Akutagawa's body when Fyodor's ability took over his own body, and that his ability would also die with him, his consciousness disappearing as a consequence. . The question is: we don't know what happens to a vampire who turns back into a human, nor whether all vampires were transformed back, or just Akutagawa, because Bram took his body. I don't believe that all vampires have become human, as Fyodor mentions that as long as he has Bram's body, the echoes of his ability would still exist, and he can still control everyone who has been turned into a vampire around the world, so it is likely that only Akutagawa was transformed into a human again (vampirism having disappeared along with Bram's consciousness), even if remnants of his transformation are still present in his body, like a vampire's durability. It is these vampiric remnants and characteristics that make me think that Akutagawa's sudden amnesia was caused by traces of Bram's soul/consciousness in his body.

When Bram dies, we see Akutagawa accepting his mission to protect Aya. Everything in the manga suggested that this was Akutagawa's own decision, and to a certain extent, it is, but it is quite likely that Bram's traits and characteristics remained in Akutagawa's body even after his death. This whole role of a "noble knight" was a striking characteristic of Bram, who always saw the current world as if it were still his time, and used terms from that same time to refer to everyone. Part of Bram's consciousness may have remained in Akutagawa's body along with the vampire characteristics, causing his consciousness to mix with Bram's consciousness, or be overwhelmed by it, which perhaps could have been the cause of his lack of consciousness, and memory. Something I found curious is that Akutagawa not only has protecting Aya (or the princess) as his mission, but also the commoners, something that was not included in Bram's order/request.

So where did the part about protecting the commoners come from? Is it something caused by Bram's influence? A part of Akutagawa's new (and probably temporary) knight persona? Or a wish of his own? His own desire to protect people?

Well, I don't know, but if that's the case, I can see a lot of ways this memory loss could really add something to Akutagawa's character arc. We know that he is someone who is truly true to his promises, and when Bram's consciousness and influence begin to dissipate from his mind, he will probably still remind that he promised to protect Aya, and will commit to fulfilling his promise. Being placed in the role of protecting someone, for Akutagawa, would be something really good, it would help him understand that he doesn't need to kill for his life to have meaning, that there is also value in protecting other people, that this is not necessarily linked to a failure (the last time he protected someone, they all got killed), and that there is something good about protecting and helping people. Finding a new reason to live would also help him get rid of the idea that the value of his life is linked to Dazai's approval of him. It's clear how he was using rashomon in a much more effective way in the last chapter compared to his other fights, so much that even Atsushi seems surprised. I believe this comes from the fact that Akutagawa learned (due to his life both on the slums and in the mafia) to use rashomon as a weapon, not as an extension of his own body, as a part of himself, in addition to that he does not need to use rashomon to fortify his body, which allows him to use rashomon more freely.

Other things that I think could have caused Akutagawa's amnesia are his transformation back into a human (dying, being turned into a vampire, and then back into a human again could definitely do some damage to anyone's brain), and Bram's promise to Aya to protect her, as we know that in Bsd promises can be kept even after someone has turned into a vampire (as we see with Akutagawa and his promise not to kill anyone). Bram's promise to Aya surpassed Dostoevsky's ability, causing Fyodor to create a great will to protect Aya, so it is not so impossible that it also surpassed Bram's death.

Fun fact! Did you know ch117 didn’t happen?

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I'm thinking about Atsushi representing the saint and I'm thinking about Akutagawa representing the sinner. I'm thinking about Akutagawa being the outcast, the damned, the God forsaken. I'm thinking about Akutagawa being forbidden the access to heaven before he was even born. I'm thinking about Akutagawa's life being but a prelude to hell itself. I'm thinking about Atsushi as this Moses-like figure, saved next to a river. Atsushi as the one God decided to spare. Atsushi as the one who was given a second chance to be loved. Atsushi who's life is full of light and warmth.

I'm thinking about the saint loving the sinner despite. I'm thinking about going against God's judgement even when it doesn't favour him. I'm thinking about embracing a life of damnation if it's to love the sinner. I'm thinking about not fearing his soul to be stained. I'm thinking about going against God's will as the most loving act of them all. I'm thinking

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How many times do you think atsushi wished he could’ve done this in the original battle? How long do you think he probably ran the scenario over and over in his head on how he could have saved Akutagawa and now he finally got the chance

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Given his past, I imagine Chuuya's relationship with his birthday must be a bit unusual. To him, his birthday is a sign of his own humanity, a sign that he is a human born like everyone else, and not just a clone created in a lab. He also only found out about his birthday because of the flags, so this is also a symbol of his friendship with them, and how much they cared for him, being able to go against Mori's orders just to give Chuuya the knowledge about his own origin, the thing he desired the most