Thebeautifuldaydreamer - Veirdre

Random thoughts 13NOV24

I feel relieved but also upset at the same time. The realtors office that I rent my apartment through scared the shit out of me by forgetting that I paid rent a couple months in advance. I was afraid that I had to pay over a grand of money that I don’t have. I missed my therapy appointment because I was just irresponsible. I slept in instead of going, when I need it. I’m conflicted about my only guy friend doing something horrible to my other friend. I still have not confronted him about it because I’ve just been dealing with depression lately.

some good things are that:

I’m going to visit my family for winter break in a few weeks. I possibly have an exciting journey I’m going on next summer. I’m finally starting to unpack. I got a library card in the new town I live in and it has the most adorable little tulip fields on the front of the card.

I’m 25 and I feel like I’m not doing enough to prepare myself for the future and to further my medical transition. Plus with Trump being the new president I’m uncertain that things will get better. I just want to escape to a different reality occasionally, I want to feel understood in a deeper level and feel safe around people that I choose to trust. It’s hard, however I keep reminding myself that I am more content than I’ve ever been. I feel free, it’s just seems like a dark cloud is always looming above me.

tumblr flagged a post of a girl eating berries so fruit is for whores now reblog if youre a fruit eating whore

tiny brain: brooklyn nine nine isnt cop propaganda

average brain: brooklyn nine nine IS cop propaganda and that means u cant watch it

giant brain: brooklyn nine nine is absolutely cop propaganda and 1 episode about the treatment of black people by cops in no way fixes that, however i still watch and enjoy it because i am a mature person with critical thinking skills who understands that boycotting every problematic piece of media is a fruitless endeavor. especially because boycotting b99 specifically would mean sacrificing the many other great things it brings to tv, including its humor, its diversity, its strong & well-rounded female characters, its presentation of healthy friendships & relationships, its subversion of harmful stereotypes, and its constant social commentary on political issues such as transphobia, gun control, flaws in the prison system etc which other shows wouldnt DARE touch

idgaf if my parents are disappointed in me I'm not impressed by them either

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Mary Oliver, "Blue Iris." Devotions

when people ask where you see yourself in 10 years