As Promised, Here's Another Depressing Crosshair Edit

I am a dreamer and I always will be. I've been told that dreaming won't get me anywhere but while my childhood ends, my dreams do not. Now that I'm graduating soon I can't help but dream of my ever so near future. I dream of getting into that college. Of graduating with flying colors and making it into med school. I dream of getting that big time job that so many dream of. I dream of the big time life and living comfortably. I dream of being the best. I dream of showing just how good I can be. I dream of showing them that yes that potential they saw is there and I have embraced it. in fact, I've overcome it and am more than they ever thought I'd be. I dream most of making my parents proud. I dream my hardest that I do enough. To prove to them that their baby girl can do it. That I can manage in this crazy world and can strive above the normal. That I can make my dreams and their dreams come true. And yet despite this, I dream like the little girl I am. Truly I dream not of the high life, not of becoming the doctor I always said I would be, but of becoming a mother. I dream of becoming a wife. I dream about coming home to a loving husband, a loving pair of arms to curl into when the world knocks me down again and again. I do not dream of a big house with a big pool and piles of money, but instead a love that I can not measure. Though I will admit a nice house and land would bring me some sense of happiness, I would simply be better off with a man to call home instead. A strong pair of arms to fall into and a smile to match the warmth I would feel when I am near him. I dream of the ups and downs because I know it will happen and I do not fear because I know it would be meant to be. I would know we would fight for each other and be there no matter what. And more than ever I dream to be a mother. I dream of coming home to small voices and even smaller footsteps. I dream of the moment I find out and the fear and excitement that will race through me. I dream of every moment, no matter how big, small, exciting, or scary because it will only happen once. I do not fear birth because what truly is more beautiful than bringing a life into this world? I do not fear it because if I have truly found my husband he would be there. He would help me through the pains and struggles and oh how I would love him. I may not know it all but I know how just enough to make me waiver in fear. I know it would be hard and I know I may not feel like I could do it but oh how it would be worth it. To have my own child to love and care for. Oh how I would give my world for my baby. I want nothing more to be a mother. To give the love that I have always gotten from my mother. I dream of the moment when I would take my sweet little bundle home and I would cry. I dream of the many milestones and more. I dream of the temper tantrums and the long nights. I dream of the little giggles and the loud cries. I dream of being woken up at night by my child like I had done to my own mother. I dream of a love so large it's almost overwhelming. And I know life wouldn't be perfect. I know I will struggle and I know I may fail. Yet if I had just a glimpse of this life I would be okay. And I fear of speaking this dream aloud because in this world I'm supposed to want to strive above and beyond. I'm supposed to be strong and independent. Yet these are the dreams I dream of as I near my last few months of my childhood. I will strive for one path yet yearn for another. I will strive to be the best and strive to prove myself and make them proud. I will do this because I know a dream is a dream. I know I may not get what I want so I will go on. For what truly is the dreams of a seventeen year old girl than just that. A dream.

Are u?

reblog this if just the thought of autumn makes you happy 

what's wrong babe you've barely touched your potential even though all your elementary teachers really liked you and said you were gifted and that you were going to do great things

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🎵 Last song you listened to?

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🦋 Describe yourself in three words.

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💎 What’s your most prized possession?

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🐸 Describe your aesthetic.

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💙 Relationship status?

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🌸 Best compliment you ever received?

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happy new year everyone!!!! 🪩🎉

Tfa Prowl x Cybertonian Femme Reader

Authors Note: ok so yeah there's not really Prowl x reader yet but if i do continue this there will be? Also thank yall for your support!! It means so much to me! and just a warning that this was originally written forever ago and i did enough editing to this so it's atleast readable so yeah. Oh and this didn't take me nearly as long as i thought it would so i'm actually pretty happy about that. lmk if i should write more to this cause i've somewhat got an idea of where this was going.

Reader is female and cybertronian

Reader works as a sparkling caretaker

Her built-in power is that she can make holograms and can basically live in them (she can let others too) and they act like they can touch, taste, etc so like another body... until she removes them

There’s a reference to tfp lol

lots of timeskips

(Y/H) - your height

(Y/H/C) - your hair color

(Y/E/C) - your eye color

Setting:    While prowl was gone (before the protoforms were destroyed) he was required to bring back sparklings who were on a ship, which had broken down in space, with a bot he trained with. Oh and there are space pirates now

( ) = comms 

[3rd POV]

Aboard a ship in deep space all was quiet except for one room. Eleven sparklings surrounded two bots who were each sharing their experience during their ninja bot training. 

Y/n placed Twilight, the youngest sparkling, on her hip and whispered to Prowl that she was putting the femme to bed. Quietly humming to herself, she gently swayed towards her berthroom. Twilight was too young to share a room with the other rambunctious sparklings, so she offered to keep her in her room. Slowly, Twilight was placed on her railed berth while she sang her to sleep. Seeing the young child sleeping, she walked over to her own berth and started recharging. 

Alarms rang out through the ship as Y/n jumped off her berth. Alarmed, she grabbed the sparkling and quickly ran towards the control room. 

“Prowl! What’s happening!?” 

“We’re being ambushed by pirates! Take the sparklings and put them in emergency stasis! I’ll try to shake them!” He answered. 

The sparklings were huddled in a corner shaking when she burst in the room, “Everyone follow me! Keep up now!” Quickly they rushed to the lower deck. After doing a head check she found that one was missing. 

Y/n turned towards the oldest of the group and asked them to watch the others. Swiftly, she raced throughout the ship calling the young mech’s name while trying to calm down Twilight. Upon not finding Axel, the missing sparkling, she disappointedly sprinted into the control room to find that he was in the room helping Prowl. 

“Axel! Don’t leave the group like that! Prowl do you need anymore help?” She took a deep breath. ”If not, I’m taking you,” she looks towards Axel, “to the others. Ok?”

Prowl looks over towards her. “You can take him down with the others.” 

She frowned then grabbed Axel with her free hand and rushed out of the room. 

(Is everything ok?) She asked Prowl over the comms. 

(Not so much. They’re hot on our trail.) He hesitated, (I need you up here when you are done.) 

(Ok, I’ll be there in a bit.) She bit her derma. This was not a good sign. 

Silently, they stumbled to the lower deck. While passing the escape pods a huge boom sounded out through the ship as they were flung into a pod. Suddenly the doors slammed shut and they were ejected into space. 

Eclipse stared wide optic as they witnessed what was happening; the ship had been shot and was hurtling towards a large asteroid. She turned around and gazed at Axel and Twilight. Their terrified eyes met hers. 

    Silently Axel spoke,” What are we going to do? Our power will go out soon and we have no energon.”

“Well we will go into stasis until someone finds us. There is really is no other choice.” She explained. “But we will be fine.”

She took one look at the younglings before putting them into stasis pods then herself.

                      [was planning on making this ch.2 but its not long enough so another time skip]

    ( )= comm.      

   [Y/n’s POV]

Alarms ring out through the small pod as I online. Pain shoots out through my body as I stand. Looking at the surroundings through the windows, I find that we crashed on a planet. Who knows how long its been since we were shot off of the ship!

As I start to open the door I realize that Axel and Twilight are still stuck in stasis pods! 

I find that the stasis’ door control is broken and I sigh. Why do these things happen to me?

I quickly grab a piece of the metal sticking out of the ship and examine the pod for a way to break the glass without hurting the kids. 

I decided to not break the glass but instead to ply open the door. I wedge the metal in between the door and

“What are we going to do now?” Axel asked. 

“We’ll I’ll learn about what lives here and try to fit in... I guess?”

           [timeskip]

“Ok. I found out about some stuff and found us disguises.... well I can disguise us as a family if that’s ok with you two.” I looked at Axel and Twilight. They both nodded even though Twilight probably thought that she was gonna be fed. It was going to be a struggle to keep us safe and fed. 

Frowning I scanned through some photos of people and chose a lady who was about (Y/H) with (Y/H/C) hair and (Y/E/C). 

Then for Axel chose a young boy who had dirty-blond hair and brown eyes. He seemed around the age eight or nine. 

I smiled, Twilight was next, I’m going to have fun with this. For her I chose a young girl with auburn hair and eyes that were blue on the outside and brown closer to the pupil. 

Now onto the hard part: a believable backstory. 

               [biiiiiggg timeskip]

As we walked in our apartment I dropped off our stuff at the door and explore the rooms. There was two bedrooms, a kitchen+living room, and one bathroom. I sit in a bedroom and grab my new phone and look for a job. To my surprise found a job as a building supervisor for a business called Sumdac Systems. It is in a city called Detroit, Michigan. As I quickly look up where that is I realized that it’s like reeeealy far away...... and I’m in......... Jasper, Nevada. I was required to be there to do the job so I quickly schedule a interview on zoom since I was so far away. If I got the job then we will leave if not then we stay. 

    [Three days later]

  As I start to log on to the meeting/interview I look towards the kids’ room. We had each chosen different names; Axel’s is Austin, Twilight’s is Cassie, and mine is Y/n Smith. I was a “single mother” of Austin and Cassie. We ‘came’ from Nevada, looking for a new start. My “husband” had died in a plane crash.

I sigh. What am I going to do? It’s taking a lot out of me to keep up the disguises. Hopefully we can find other bots. 

   As I face the screen I realized that Mr. Sumdac was looking at me. “Oh! Hi Mr. Sumdac! I’m Y/n Smith… well you probably know that but I’m here for the interview.” I nervously smile. I am NOT good at this stuff hence why I work with children. They don’t judge nearly as much as adults.

  He laughes. “Yes. Now I assume you have experience with robots?” Oh the irony

                [After the interview]

   I throw myself onto my bed. That was way too stressful. However I think I made a good impression..... maybe. He said that he would message me in about a day or two to tell me if I made it or not so I can start the moving process as soon as possible.

   Austin ran into my room. “Tw-Cassie is crying and keeps throwing her toys at me.” He complained while rubbing his forehead.

   “Oh no. Are you ok?” I slide off of my bed and stand up. Sighing, I pick him up and set him on my hip. 

    He nods, ”Y-yes. But my helm hurts.” He looks at me with teary eyes. 

    “Aww I’m sorry I’ll fix that ok? And remember it’s head not helm kiddo.”

I walk towards their room, wondering what’s wrong with my wonderful, dear child Cassie. Once again I am reminded how hard it is to be a single mom. Now all I need- actually I’m not going to jinx myself so we’ll leave it there.

Listen...

Y'all I watched the episodes again today and... I have some thoughts regarding the elephant in the room.

Right off the bat, no, I still don't think Tech is dead. If you go to the reaction post I made right after I watched the episodes the first time, you'll see I'm not worried about him being dead at all (which explains the enthusiastic tone of it).

I wondered whether all the 'Tech's not dead' theories I've read here aren't clouding my judgement this time but I don't think that's the case.

In fact, I watched the episodes with my parents and the moment they showed the final scene with Omega on Tantiss, the one where she's looking around the lab and it's clear she's about to see someone she knows, my dad was like 'oh, Tech must be here'. So even from a casual viewer's pov, it doesn't look like our favorite genius is dead at all.

The very tone of the episode didn't suggest it either, it was just a bit too… rushed. Even if they gave his sacrifice the right respect in the moment, it doesn't feel like a character death moment with how things progress around it.

And here's the thing: I did have to hold back tears at some points but it wasn't where I thought it would be. I thought I'd fall apart when they lost Tech but it was in fact after that, when the team is trying to pick up the pieces after Omega wakes up.

So these episodes are meant to be emotional but the emotional impact, the moment you're given time to breathe, are when you sympathize with the people who're currently mourning Tech, not when you're supposed to mourn him.

We see closeups of their reactions, we see their feelings. We see Echo look at Tech's seat instead of getting a simple solo closeup of it. We see Hunter pick up his goggles, not a sad little lingering shot of them on the ground next to a battered body. All of it feels like the show is telling us yes, sympathize with these people, feel their pain, this is real for them... but not necessarily true overall.

The episode does a great job of conveying how the batch feels in those moments and you may argue that's a good way of making the audience grieve, a good way of conveying the gravity of the situation. But to me a character death is supposed to be a little bit more private. We're supposed to experience it for ourselves if it's meant to have any proper lasting impact. And yes, I know a lot of us are still shaken from it but remember: we're very attached to these characters and the show.

People like my dad however aren't as invested and for him, that didn't register as a character death. At all.

So if the writers play their cards right, they get our emotional response to what seems like a very plausible and dramatic character death while also not committing to it by giving any concrete evidence whatsoever.

As a result, those of us who sympathize with the batch or are invested in Tech's character will have the emotional response they're looking for (and our engagement on social media will boost the show's popularity, which is exactly what happened) while more casual viewers, like my dad, are presented with the mystery of 'hey what happened to Tech? oh, look it's Tantiss. is he on Tantiss? oh, not yet. wow I can't wait to find out'.

So honestly if this was the writers' plan all along... well played is all I can say.

For your ask ! 🖤🌝🫐

Thank you for the ask @4sat0ruu 🩵😄

🖤- hmm it's in between reading and working out? personally working out makes me feel better about myself plus imagine how cool it is just casually being like yeah i've got abs or just one day lifting something really heavy and being like oh yeah i forgot to tell you i'm absolutely jacked 🤣

🌝- ok so i'd recommend The Princess Bride - this is my comfort movie tbh and i love it so much! it's fantasy and it has some romance and action and it's funny too

🫐- Sweden, Norway, Switzerland, Greece, Italy, and the Philippines! traveling is so much fun and there's so many places i'd love to see!!

does anyone have any suggestions on how to maybe get out of writers block/ help with it? im struggling so bad right now ugh. i have ideas but as soon as i go to type i have no clue what to do lol

OMG BUT I JUST THOUGHT OF SOMETHING REALLY GOOD SO I MIGHT BE ABLE TO STRUGGLE THROUGH IT AND POST SOMETHING FOR ONCE