Only Gee Could Watch The Towers Fall And Still Serve

do y'all even know how much i hate being an "elder queer" at 40? a whole goddamn generation before me was wiped out by a plague that politicians deemed not their problem bc it was killing the "right" people. like. this was OPENLY STATED. i spent a large chunk of my childhood going to funerals. nevermind the fact that killing queer people for being queer wasn't codified into law as a hate crime until i was a junior in high school.

i should NOT be an elder queer, i should be middle at most. i am a middle aged queer. most of the elder queers died.

when i was growing up i didn't go to pride parades, i went to pride marches. because that's 100% what they were in the 80s and 90s.

from the absolute bottom of my heart, LEARN OUR FUCKING HISTORY. a generation was nearly wiped out so you young queers could be here. don't let that have been in vain, please.

Does your therapist follow your blog?

imagine how good it must feel to press a gun to your temple after a bad day and just hold it there with your eyes closed for a few minutes before sighing and putting it away

It hit last night, the realization

The fact that this isn't some cruel joke

A nightmare I can wake up from

The Hitler salutes, stealing from his playbook

Being on the receiving end is our reality now

I'm terrified now, how could you not?

Last time a major country pulled this it ended in millions

Only a world war could stop them

Will it take that again?

They rip themselves apart, I tell myself

It's true on a long enough timeline

They either kill themselves or each other

But will I live that long?

I don't know

And that's the scariest part

“I want to decompose in a bog” well you clearly don’t know the first thing about bogs. Clout chaser

Me: mods can we ban this person?

The angel and devil on my shoulders: and we're supposed to do this how???

me: chat what do we think

the angel and devil on my shoulders: can you not call us that please

Sometimes I wonder if there's something to performers in difference to all other art. I wonder why there's that urge to spill all your emotions to a crowd. It's beautiful to see and, as someone who's done it, beautiful to do. But no other art is like that. Sure there's the exhibition to show visual arts or in the intricacies in craft arts but it's such a quiet emotion whose scream is a passive one. I wonder a lot about what drives us to be so public and communal about our messages and stories.

I wonder if we're a type. I grew up with dance girls and I can only remember one trait that united us all, we're all emotional. Not in the cry about every little thing way but we all had this urge to get all our emotions out and to others, maybe this is why gossip is so rampant in our circles. Even the stoic dancers were stoic in spite of their emotions, they even danced with this careful exhale of feeling. I remember us cloggers were definitely a type, we were all energetic and headstrong. I mean, reasons a dance style that's loud, fast, and rural would attract us.

I've been around a lot of theater kids growing up and I think a very similar thing is true. I can't speak as one of them but to a person the ones who performed had this hemorrhaging emotional quality. It was channeled differently and definitely had a different vibe but that feeling was there. I think band kids did this too, again with a completely different feel.

Maybe I'm just witnessing an all artist thing and understanding it as a performer thing but I think visual artists, writers, and other non performance arts don't have. That's not to denigrate those art forms, they do some things way better than us, but I think there's this special quality to us performers that unites us and informs how we are.

Tragic: Trans Girl Forced to Put On Shirt to Go Downstairs And Get Food

Definitely one of the Top Images of all time I gotta say

Any artist who wants to be/ is a parent know the FEAR of your kids finding *that* work