Sunny-downpour - Books, Bands And Bad Decissions

~✧°+* 32/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

04.09.2023

I went to the doctor's today to get some new meds because the ones I've been taking weren't doing the job. So now I'm on antibiotics and I really hope that'll finally do the trick.

Because I'm still not feeling too great I took it slow again today. I got some more paperwork done in the morning and made a to-do list of what I have to get done within the next week or so. Sometimes I feel bad if all I do in a day is planning, but I always try to remember that planning your tasks takes a huge mental load off of you. Taking a whole day to plan things out is still productive.

The second half of my day has been taken up by great media again. I played some more Lakeburg Legacies and I'm loving it (even though I think I'm failing at it pretty hard). I also managed to get some pages of Swimming in the Dark in. I'm nearly done, only got like 25 pages left. I wanted that book to be my summer read but I had such a dip in energy in late August I just didn't get around to it. But I guess finishing it in early Seprember might still count as a summer read. I wraped the day up by watching New Moon. Probably my least favourite movie from the Twilight-saga, but what can I say? It's the season for Twilight. Also the soundtracks of these movies are so good it's criminal.

Despite having been sick the past couple of days it still feels like I'm managing to be myself more again. I'm very relieved about that. It's weird to explain, but I'm way more interested in doing things I love again, especially writing. Maybe I'll try to do some of that tomorrow. This might also be the perfect opportunity to give my diary some love again. I started it at the beginning of the year but only used it a couple of times...

Positive things I did today:

got paper work done

went to the doctor's office and got new meds

planned tasks

did things I love

Hours slept:  ~9hrs 30mins Screentime: ~4hrs Steps taken: ~600

~✧°+* 34/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

06.09.2023

(this post was written several days in retrospect)

This is the day birthday preperations really kicked in, so a lot of cleaning was done.

I also attempted to be productive in the morning and looked for internships. I have to do one mandatory, 8 week long internship as part of my undergrad programm and it's the main thing holding me back from finishing my BA. I innitially wanted to do the internship around this time but wasn't able to find a spot, so I'm pushing it (and writing my thesis) back a whole semester.

Positive things I did today:

helped clean

looked for internships

Hours slept:  ~8hrs 30mins Screentime: ~9hrs 15mins Steps taken: ~700

"i cant watch shows about fantasy kingdoms without thinking about how they should be abolishing the monarchy" that my friend sounds like a skill issue

~✧°+* 20/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

19.08.2023

I had a few things planned but got assassinated by cramps while doing the dishes in the morning. So I took it easy instead, ran some errands, ate some things, played Sims.

I also watched All Quiet on the Western Front and I have a lot of thoughts and feelings about this movie. I think I'll make a post talking about my feelings towards the movie as well as the book at some point next week.

Positive Things I did today:

ran errands

did the dishes

watched All Quiet on the Western Front

went on a late night walk

called a friend

Hours slept: ~6hrs 40mins Screentime: ~2hrs 40mins Steps taken: ~16.700

You didn't love her. You just didn't want to be alone. Or maybe she was good for your ego. Or maybe she made you feel better about your miserable life. But you didn't love her. Because you don’t destroy people you love.

Grey’s Anatomy

VIVA LAS VENGEANCE (2022) Panic! At The Disco

~✧°+* 26/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

(first and last screenshot from: 虎狼来 (Kororon) - Eve Music Video)

29.08.2023

Feeling a lot better today! Meds helped a bunch, but they made me quite sleepy during the first half of the day. Because of that, I only really managed to be productive towards the evening. Regardless, I got a decent amount of work done. My Hamilton essay is due on Thursday. I'm planning on wrapping up my literature review tomorrow and then writing it all (minus the introduction, I got that done already) on Thursday!

Positive Things I did today:

continued working on the Hamilton essay

cooked lunch for my family

spent quality time with my siblings

Hours slept:  ~9hrs Screentime: ~4hrs Steps taken: ~500 (note for self: go on a walk tomorrow)

~✧°+* 5/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

02.08.2023

And, just like this, we are back in the groove.

After a slow start to the day i managed to get some important tasks done. No progress on essays I need to write, but I've made plans to meet up with a friend at the library tomorrow, so I hope I'll make some progress then.

I edited an essay for my professor and nearly went crazy over it. I enjoy editing a lot and I am very grateful I get to take part in a project, even if it's just in a really small way. But got damn, that one was not pleasant to work through. It used a citation style I am not very familiar with and then didn't even use that one consistently. I had to ask the other student assistant for help. He's been doing the job for a while and he's being very patient and nice, but it was quite anxiety inducing. I am very grateful for his help, tho, and I hope I'm not causing him too much of a hassle.

Besides that today was just more of the usual. Watched Peaky Blinders and am currently getting some reading in before bed.

Positive things I did today:

kept the duolingo spanish streak going

cooked a meal

got some admin work done

did edeting

watched Peaky Blinders with a friend

continued reading All Quiet on the Western Front

Hours slept: ~9hrs Screentime: 7hrs Steps taken: ~100 (very rainy, no walk for me :(( )