{Words By José Olivarez From Citizen Illegal /@fatimaamerbilal , From Even Flesh Eaters Don't Want Me.}

before i go to sleep,

languages include sign languages. Personally, I'm multilingual with 2-3 mother tongues of equal ability and usage and my dreams have no language beyond facial expressions and gestures.

28 March 1914, Aleksandr Blok (1880-1921), Selected Poems

~✧°+* 33/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

05.09.2023

(this post is written several days in retrospect)

Whenever I visit my family for longer periods of time it's usually around bigger events. Christmas, Easter, birthdays. This time around it's my sibling's birthday and an air of planning, organizing and setting things up in advance controls my day. In all actuality, it has more of an indirect effect on me. I think what I'm experiencing is called waiting mode? This state your in when you have something planned later in the day and can't do anything in the morning because of it. That's what I'm going through at the moment, just that what I'm wating for is days ahead.

Positive things I did today:

put some things up on ebay

did the laundry

Hours slept:  ~9hrs Screentime: ~6hrs 30mins Steps taken: ~700

~✧°+* 14/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

13.08.2023

It was another inside day, so I can't offer you pretty pictures this time. Instead, enjoy these screenshots of the massive basement farm I've been building in minecraft for the past couple of weeks :')

Monday I absolutely have to get into the groove again. Essay deadlines are staring me down and I wanna make progress before the anxiety kicks in.

Positive things I did today:

did the dishes first thing in the morning

cleaned the bathroom

whiped the floors

washed the sheets

played minecraft with a friend

Hours slept: ~10hrs 30mins Screentime: 4hrs Steps taken: ~700

~✧°+* 26/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

(first and last screenshot from: 虎狼来 (Kororon) - Eve Music Video)

29.08.2023

Feeling a lot better today! Meds helped a bunch, but they made me quite sleepy during the first half of the day. Because of that, I only really managed to be productive towards the evening. Regardless, I got a decent amount of work done. My Hamilton essay is due on Thursday. I'm planning on wrapping up my literature review tomorrow and then writing it all (minus the introduction, I got that done already) on Thursday!

Positive Things I did today:

continued working on the Hamilton essay

cooked lunch for my family

spent quality time with my siblings

Hours slept:  ~9hrs Screentime: ~4hrs Steps taken: ~500 (note for self: go on a walk tomorrow)

We don't hesitate to maybe overcompensate

~✧°+* 12/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

11.08.2023

Today was chore day. I got a lot done, just nothing for school, sadly.

I also rearranged one of my book shelves! (As you can see above) Space is always a problem in this apartment so I'm preemtively rearranging for future books

Positive things I did today:

kept the duolingo Spanish streak going

cooked a warm meal

cleaned the kitchen

changed the sheets

did the laundry

packed my siblings' birthday presents

Hours slept: ~7hrs 45mins Screentime: 4hrs Steps taken: ~500

~✧°+* 8/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

06.08.2023

Managed to have a really, really good Sunday!

It was a nice combination of productivity and leasure. Went out to get coffee with a friend in the afternoon and managed to get some work for my essay done. Very, very minor things, but I managed to come up with a working thesis for now. More research will show if I can use it.

We also found these Sailor Moon sodas! Our little weeb heart jumped at that.

My friend also introduced me to notion. I'm still a bit overwhelmed by it but managed to set up one page and it's a lot of fun! Maybe I'll show it off once I have more to show

Positive things I did today:

kept the duolingo Spanish streak going

went out for coffee with a friend

made progress on essay research

cooked a warm meal

set up a notion page

Hours slept: ~9hrs 30mins Screentime: 4hrs 30mins Steps taken: ~4.100

~✧°+* 100 days of doing better *+°✧~

I have seen various versions of these 100-day-challenges floating around and decided I wanted to try it out as well!

Instead of just doing "100 days of productivity" or "100 days of studying", however, I decided on coming up with a version of this challenge that better fits my life and caters towards my personal goals more effectively.

100 days of doing better combines efforts to improve academically (through studying and working on assignments), to improve my daily life (through keeping on top of chores and managing my living spaces), my social life (through taking breaks and spending time with friends) as well as efforts ot improve my mental health (through doing things I like, indulging in hobbies and taking a step back if I need it).

Some specific goals I would like to achieve/do in these 100 days:

start studying Spanish more seriously

read at least 2-5 books for fun

cut down on social media/phone time

start the first draft for a story I have been meaning to write

try new recipes and cook a meal once a day

start research on possible BA thesis topics

get out of the house once a day

find an internship for the next semester break

meet up with friends from school at least once

declutter my closet

If you like this version of the challange feel free to join me!

Either way, I hope we'll spend the coming 100 days making the best of out lives <3