Today A Fascist Won An Election For The First Time Since 1933. Here, In Germany.

My theory about why we so enthusiastically celebrate the Ides of March here on this tumblr dot com is thus:

This site is full of literary and history nerds.

This site loves to be morbid as fuck.

This site is full of people who are very displeased with current politics and would like to achieve a certain catharsis.

That last one I think is the most important, because I remember the days when celebrating the stabbing of Caesar was just nerd shit, but it picked up more and more steam over the years, and I noticed a sudden massive boom in enthusiasm beginning in 2021, undoubtedly on account of the everything that has happened in the past few years.

I just finished reading All Quiet on the Western Front and I have so many thoughts and feelings, I don't know where to put them, what to do with them, how to deal with them.

~✧°+* 18/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

17.08.2023

I am still lost in the sauce but the sauce is more like a clear broth now, so I think we are getting somewhere.

I had to escape to the city library today in order not to melt. I wouldn't want an AC in my home, but thank god public buildings have them.

Pogress is being made with my essay. Slow, slow progress, but once I get out of the mental haze that is the planning phase I think I'll manage to wrap this one up quite smoothly. It#s only supposed to be 8-10 pages, probably around 2.5k words, anyways.

Also, damn, I really gotta start putting more effort into taking pictures for these posts again. Sorry about that.

Positive Things I did today:

worked on my Hamilton essay

went grocery shopping

cooked dinner for my me and my friend

continued reading Swimming in the Dark

Hours slept: ~7hrs Screentime: ~5hrs 30mins Steps taken: ~4.100

~✧°+* 8/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

06.08.2023

Managed to have a really, really good Sunday!

It was a nice combination of productivity and leasure. Went out to get coffee with a friend in the afternoon and managed to get some work for my essay done. Very, very minor things, but I managed to come up with a working thesis for now. More research will show if I can use it.

We also found these Sailor Moon sodas! Our little weeb heart jumped at that.

My friend also introduced me to notion. I'm still a bit overwhelmed by it but managed to set up one page and it's a lot of fun! Maybe I'll show it off once I have more to show

Positive things I did today:

kept the duolingo Spanish streak going

went out for coffee with a friend

made progress on essay research

cooked a warm meal

set up a notion page

Hours slept: ~9hrs 30mins Screentime: 4hrs 30mins Steps taken: ~4.100

They never want to stop

Are you trapped on tumblr right now?

Is there something you planned to do before you got trapped in the endless tumblr scroll?

Are you yelling at yourself to get up and do the thing, but you can’t, because you’re trapped in the endless tumblr scroll?

Consider this your save point.

Put tumblr down, stand up, stretch, and go do the thing you planned to do. Future you will be incredibly grateful.

my whole life has been a play of obsessions and distractions. to be obsessed with something so it distracts me from the reality, to find another distraction cuz the obsession is destroying me.