I Love How Moths Look And Fly And Theyre So Beautiful But They Lowkey Terrify Me And Sometimes I Find

"Sister, it might be...", Eghishe Charenc (translated by metamorphesque)

⁺˚⋆｡ °✩₊ 28/01/24

dear diary,

okay, first diary entry here

today has been somewhat.. odd? i'm focusing on myself more than ever right now but it still feels as if i'm stuck at phase 1,, i dont like the feeling of being stuck but i know that in reality ive made a lot of progress ?? i guess i just have to keep on telling myself that i have moved forward. i think taking care of myself after an awful breakup is the best thing ive ever done, that person made me realise that i have a whole lot of healing to do but of course i dont like or resonate myself with the way they said it or how they treated me through out the time we were together, however dwelling on that thought and how they hurt me just isn't healthy at all, so i have nothing to do but accept the outcome as it is and work on myself that.

is it odd that i dont class it as a relationship? it's been months. it was hardly what lovers would do and in my mind what i would do or would want to do as a lover. i move on with the seasons so it isn't any of my concern anymore. i can't waste my energy on things that do not serve me, i am a being of light and should be treated as such.

i just want to love myself whole and stay in peace and solace, i need this right now ! all the focus is on me ♡ i'm now looking forward to new begginings, i know they'll serve me greatly

one of my friends sent me a few tiktok videos talking sbout how thankful she was to have me in her life and i think thats so beautiful, shes amazing and i love her too !! shes been nothing but amazing to me, i'll be sure to pay her back tenfold.

i've been getting a lot of loving messages from people around me these days and honestly it makes me feel so valued, i take it to heart a lot more than i used to you know? one of them also said they'd let smoke with them next time they got some more bud and i honestly think thats so nice

both me and my bestfriend are single and we've both felt more gratitude and gratefulness with each other more now than ever and we made this whole little plan for places to visit and i love it so much, shes taking me to a japanese restraunt on valentines ♡ i can't wait, shes truly my soulmate.

i guess im torn between searching for new love or loving myself. i think the best thing to do is to love myself until the person that fits my worth comes by.

i have a lot of assignments to catch up on but im not too stressed about them right now,, i know i'll be able to get the work done. as of right now i stay unbothered and want to stay unbothered for a long time lol, i stay vulnerable and small within my own circle.

Peace within yourself always translates to peace within your surroundings. Whenever you take yourself as a starting point for growth (your mindset, your attitude, the way you talk to yourself), you’ll feel more grounded as you’re branching out.

''photographing british girlhood''

photography by elaine constantine for the face magazine, september 2021

butterfly preservation

‫دل کو مزید کھولو، تم قیدی نہیں ہو، تم خوابوں کی تلاش میں آسمان پر اڑتا ہوا پرندہ ہو‬

‏‫Open your heart more, you are not a prisoner, you are a bird flying in the sky in search of dreams."‬

‏Haruki Murakmi

i know that every time i take a step forward out of love for myself, the light that makes me whole shines even brighter. daily reminder that you are such a beautiful being of light too ♡