I Feel Terrible For Chris...but I Love The Plot!

Prologue

Chris

" Avaia, I told you to put your shoes on five minutes ago. What are you doing?"

" Daddy , I don't want to move. Who's gonna play with grandma?"

I could never stay mad at a face like that. She melts my heart everytime she talks. She's the reason I'm doing all of this.

"Grandma will be fine. At our new house, you'll have your own room & grandma can come anytime you want her to."

"Like a sleep over?"

"Yes Avaia , now put your shoes on."

She gets her pink sandals and I grab our last box. Damn it's been a crazy year , from Avaia's mom dying from an overdose to me getting shot trying to get this paper. Things are finally looking up for me & Avaia.

I want to do right by her, I need to become a better father. My mother and I are the only two people she has. I quit fucking with the drug game to set a better example.

I have a little money saved up to get Avaia and I out the hood. I found a nice condo far away from here, so we can start fresh.

As Avaia and I walked out the door, I began loading boxes into the back of my car.

“Avaia stay close to the porch, don’t run out into the street.” I told her.

Avaia is a very busy body, she’s always moving around.

As I loaded the boxes up, Avaia ran around in circles blowing bubbles.

“Daddy come play with me please!”

“Not right now. Daddy has to finish loading up the car.”

“Aw okay.” shes said as she continued to play.

I chuckled as I shook my head.

I love my daughter.

After loading up the car, I noticed a very familiar car coming my direction.

The fuck is he doing here? I’m done with the drugs and shit. He has no reason to come around me and my daughter.

I pulled out my gun, before walking down the street closer to the car.

“Avaia go in the house and find grandma.”

“Whats wrong daddy?”

“Avaia go-”

Before I could finish my sentence, shots were being fired.

All I could feel is pain as I hit the ground. Everything began to turn black.

***

I woke up feeling like shit.

“Oh thank god!” my mother cried while she kissed all over me.

As I tried to sit up, I felt a sharp pain in my chest.

“Aw shit. Momma what happened. Where’s Avaia?” I asked her.

She looked at me while tears filled up in her eyes.

“Christopher you were shot 3 days ago and-” Her cries began to take over, she couldn’t finish her sentence.

“And what?  Where’s my baby girl?  Is she okay?”

I began to worry, this can’t be happening.

“Christopher, Avaia didn’t make it.”

My baby girl didn’t make it? My love, my everything? The only person in this world that made me want to live is gone?

Me and my mother shared a moment of grief. I couldn't believe it, it's like I'm in a nightmare & I'll wake up & see her smiling face again.

“Christopher it’s not safe out here for you. I told you to leave this drug thing alone a long time ago before it got too deep. Now look at what has happened.”

I know she’s not telling that all this shit has happened because of me.

“Momma you know I would never put Avaia in danger! I-”

“Lower your voice when you’re talking to me, I’m still your mother. I’m not questioning your parenting skills. All I’m saying is if you would have never got involved we would not be here.”

I had nothing to say, because I know she is right. My ma has been telling me for years to leave this shit alone, but I was in too deep, now it has come back to haunt me. I knew it wasn’t going to be easy getting out of the game, but I didn’t think my daughter would be the sacrifice. Those motherfuckers really tried to kill me. I'm already thinking of ways to get these niggas back.

“I want you to go live with you father in California.” My mom said interrupting my thoughts.

The fuck?

“Hell na, momma I don’t want to see that nigga-”

“Boy watch your mouth. This is not up for discussion Chris. You’re leaving tomorrow and thats the end of it.”

“But momma I-”

She gave me this look, meaning I should shut up and not argue back.

I sighed before closing my eyes to think about Avaia.

My whole world has came crashing down. How am I suppose to live with myself knowing my actions caused the death of my daughter? Then momma wants me to live on the other side of the country.

The west coast is not for me, I’m an east coast nigga. VA born and raised, what I look like going to Cali with a bunch of lame niggas?

I started to get drowsy from these meds they got me on

" Chris get some rest, I'm going to take you see Avaia tomorrow before you leave."

****

Pulling up to the graveyard, I already felt my heart getting heavy. All this shit is so surreal, earlier I went to the condo seeing her room and the mural I painted with her name on it. It almost felt like she was still there.

I walked up to the tombstone. It was covered in stuffed animals, flowers & candles. I kneeled down and laid an engraved necklace Avaia , my baby girl

I felt the tears running down my face . I can't take this, it should be me instead of her.

"I'm so sorry Avaia." I say over & over

"Chris I’m sorry, but it’s time to go. We're going to miss your flight."

Leaving  is so hard but I know it's for the best... Cali here I come.

That was a good chapter, whens the next one?

Todayy :) 2 Chapters!!

Super excited for this :)

Me too! Thanks so much !

BTW, I'm the writer for Nothing's But A Bitch, this is just my main blog. I didn't want you to think I didn't read it.

Okay!

I shed a tear for little Avaia. She didn't deserve to die like that, all Chris wanted to do was give her a better life. I loved it, I really did I can't wait for more :)

Thanks so much for reading 😊😊 Chapter One is coming soon

Finally a fanfic with Nazanin :) Thank the lord 😂🙏🙌

Yasss she's so gorggggg. I never see any fanfics with her so we decided to use her as the main. 

I sent my feedback twice because Tumblr be on some other.

Lmao okay. 

I'm loving this already, got a new reader. Great start :)

Thanks so much for the support 😊😊

I am really loving this!

Thanks so much 

Omg. How can you do this to me? That tugged on my heartstrings. I almost shed some tears no lie. Being a drug dealer there's never an easy way out now look what happened. I can't believe how stupid the guy was to shoot open fire while his daughter was outside. Ugh! I hope moving with his father would help him change his life around. I mean he already loss his girlfriend and now his daughter. This should def be a wake up call. I like it so far babe :)

Yeah hopefully Chris will change for good when he moves to Cali. Thanks soooo much for reading boo!