Do You Ever Feel Like Maybe Thriving Is Impossible?

Genuine question: why do I startle people constantly?

Like I feel like I’m living my life, being polite, but also scaring people all the time for some reason.

Examples:

I’m pretty sure it’s polite to wait for someone to finish talking to interject, so I wait off to the side till there’s a break, but whenever I interject they startle.

I will go to say good morning to someone who is sitting, go to do smth, then come and actually say hi and they jump

People will be chatting or taking wayyyyy to long to look at smth and I wanna see smth nearby so I stay in eye/ear-shot but go look at smth else but when I return it is somehow surprising and startling

….

Y’all I don’t get it. I vocally stim like all the time, so I don’t feel like I’m a particularly quiet person, but I just don’t interrupt people? And somehow I startle like 5 people on a daily basis. Help me

How it went trying to teach mini autistic me how to write:

Dad: that’s good, but you need to have space between the words.

Me: *confusedly starts adding stars to my sentences*

Dad: aha, no, not that kind of space

Me: the space needle?

Dad: no, like you need to put nothing between the words

Me: that’s what I’m doing!

Dad: *sweating* ah, but not that kind of nothing..

Sometimes hope feels like a hearth in your chest

It’s startling, an unexpected warmth

But when you turn to it,

Feel the glow on your face,

You may find it reflected in your heart

Colored in an old sketch I did

That’s such a cold place to wake up for the first time…

Me: I am comfy with being called a girl since I have history with it and am used to being referred to she/her.

Also me: *internal gremlin cackling when smol child can’t figure out my gender*

Are you ever lounging and suddenly you astral project sideways for a sec

It’s a beautiful day, and you are a horrible goose loose in the library

Excuse me these are some very good rocks thank you

Hyrule citizens: Link, you need to go find Zelda!

Link: *pointing at the giant royal-family colored dragon in the sky* HAVE. Have found.

Later…

*Link is sitting on the Light Dragon braiding silent princesses into her mane*

“Then they acted like that creepy, Yiga-like, no good ghost girl was you!”

*collapses with a huff*