Spectrespeaks - 🥀

i hate snapchat memories lol. just saw some pics from 5 years ago of me and my friends on call when we started online school during the pandemic and it fucking stung way more than i anticipated. these people don't talk to me anymore. they've all moved on with their lives and im still drowning in the past by myself, wishing they'd come back to get me. they have partners and new friends in our old city, and i got forcefully pulled away to a whole new province without my permission. i get to start all over again with friendships and family i don't want in my life.

i miss my friends.

it's pathetic how much i fucking hate you. i can't fucking stand it. i hate that you're out with your fucking friends and ignoring me. you know i want you to be happy but why can't you see how much of my happiness you're responsible for. why the fuck did you get me addicted to you like this and then just fuck off.

is anyone else's mother a passive aggressive cunt for no reason or is it just mine

hello tumblr people in my phone im back and worse than ever

no I don't have a resting sad face I'm just constantly fucking sad

would you rather be taxidermied or be a wet specimen wait dont leave

chat should i actually block every single one of my friends from my hometown and completely isolate myself in another province

i try to be cute online but in reality i’m just a stupid ugly bitch

Tell you what, being constantly misunderstood your whoooole life really makes it hard not to just be the awful, angry person they already assume you are.