The Thing Is, No One Cares How Hard You’re Trying. They Just Want You To Pass Their Expectations. Anything

okokok so

its been almost 2 weeks????? since me and my fp last had an actual conversation. i tried reaching out but they just ignored it and keep sending me fuckin memes and instagram posts and ignoring my message 🙃

i feel like i've already gone through the fucking 7 stages of grief with this mf and now i don't know if i care what they choose to do, so now im just wondering:

do i attempt to reach out again somehow and if so what the fuck do i say? OR do i just abandon ship and give up the entire friendship and see what happens-

I am rotting away for the sake of those who claim to love me

Hey so um do you want to have a really fucked up dynamic with me or not

it is 11:40pm. i logically know that my friends are asleep and not deliberately ignoring me. does that stop the mean angry gnome in my brain from telling me they despise my existence in their lives? absolutely not

and the worst part is that the only person i have to talk to, is said mean angry brain gnome. 🙃

because everyone else is asleep. 🙃

sorry for obsessively refreshing your blog every chance i get for any new posts or information retaining to you, it will happen tomorrow and the day after that and maybe even for a few weeks or months and for forever just as long as i can keep watching you like this…

Grahhh fuck!! I have this stupid desire for human connection!!!!

would you rather be taxidermied or be a wet specimen wait dont leave

I hate that there's no way to be disabled that people will accept.

If you show joy, or acceptance in your disability, you're not really disabled and no one will take you seriously when you do complain and well it can't be that bad and oh I'm sure you're used to it.

But if you're miserable then you're whiny and annoying and people hate that it's "all you talk about" and its always ugh you're always tired and can we please stop talking about this it's making me depressed and oh I'd kill myself if that happen to me.

If you're happy you have everything figured out and don't need help anyway but if you're miserable you're a whiny bitch that can't just suck it up. There's no winning

why does sleeping all day and waking up to not a single message hurt? Why do i care so much that no one cares about me?

tumblr let me post my pics from my walk last night challenge