That’s Enough Emotions For A Whole Year. Ciao

"everything that has a beginning, has to have an ending". FUCK ME. as someone who so very recently lost someone, that line made me cry BUT it did bring me some comfort for now. Thanks Tobias.

"You'll never be a man" Uh last time I checked I was a) featherless and b) a biped sooo

and not to keep going on about this but I had a mate give me a suggestion of something I could take to make it easier and calm my anxiety and of course I didn't say it to his face or deliberately be a dick or anything but how do I explain that it's not just anxiety, it's everything. it's the loud noises, it's constant hot then cold then hot then cold, it's the fact that carrying baggage just drains me, the fact I feel restricted by the multiple layers I have on to save bag space, the fact that I always feel scared something's gonna go wrong, it's the feeling in my head and body when actually getting up into the air and landing. it's everything. and I know a lot of this could be solved if I just took better precautions or whatever but it right now in this moment it makes me want to burst into tears and throw up and will continue like that until I'm home. I just hate flying.

I am once again reminded why I loathe flying with basically my entire being. it's such an awful experience and I struggle with it so so much. it doesn't help that the last time I flew, it was one of the most awful experiences flying I've had and has left me with lingering memories and flashes that always make me want to burst into tears every time I remember. there's no real point to this, just that I hate flying, it absolutely fucking sucks and I can't wait til I get home so I can burst into tears, hug my family, pet my cat, eat a homecooked meal and pass out for the following 72 hrs. fuck flying. :(((

the monster high girl to creepypasta nico di angelo mcr teen to metalhead goth horror guy is so real guys 🙏

being genderfluid is so fun. u cannot misgender me in a way that matters lol

The idea of the devil representing ‘evil’ as opposed to ‘good’ does not… it clashes with my idea of the devil. Because the devil for me represents rock and roll, film, freedom, humor - essentially, my life and my background because it’s so coloured with so many “blasphemous” expressions. I think that’s one of the most common misconceptions that makes it so hard for people to fathom - that there’s obviously the biblical devil, and then you have the pop-cultural devil. The pop-cultural devil being very much a representative of freedom, intellectualism and liberation from the chains of handicapping worship of the three Abrahamic religions - because that’s what [these religions] are about, they’re about control. Satan represents, in the pop cultural sense, the opposite of that. In the Bible it represents evil, but I know very, very few things in the history of the world that have been perpetrated in the name of the devil that have been to the non-benefit of mankind, whereas… I mean, just look at the amount of abuse and human despair that has been caused in the name of ‘good.’

— Tobias Forge on what Satan means to him

u ever in such a bad mood u feel urself turning evil?

#can he breathe in there #or is this an omen of what's to come for Copia #i hope he can breathe tbh

This was the only reason I got this bag, and he fit perfectly.

There's a play I love called Pronoun by Evan Placey that my drama teacher assigned me back in school that I think so wonderfully captures this. I remember reading it for the first time and feeling so strongly understood and heartbroken at the same time, because it felt so real. it felt so much like I was watching a real person take those beginning steps away from miserable. it has stuck with me to this day. I will always remember how it felt reading it and how I felt so seen. I still have the copy my drama teacher gave me. it's one of my most cherished possessions (which is saying something cause I cherish everything that people I love and care about have given me lol). (and that drama teacher was a godsend too, he was fantastic)

I think that the real essence of a 'trans' story isn't actually about gender at all, so much as it's about going through a transition from one state where you're miserable and unhappy and wish for death or feel like you're already dead to another radically different state where...you're content. You're just content. You had something chronically wrong with you, like a painful screeching that just becomes the background noise of your existence and then...it's gone. You are, in some ineffable cosmic sense, where you belong.

this is really making me want someone (I would if I could, I'm not an artist lol) to create a version of The Desperate Man by Gustave Courbet with Armand. like I think it would just scratch a brain itch

do you find me boring?