i’m falling for another girl. i’ve been comfortable with my sexuality for about a year, but NOW my internalized homophobia wants to kick in.
i just wanna tell everyone who struggles with this
your feelings are valid
loving someone is NEVER wrong, it’s beautiful
the guilt is temporary
you are not bad. you are human.
“i definitely miss you more than any one person in particular.”
purposely dressing dramatically gay all month. today i wore a rainbow crocheted bucket hat and my nails r painted for bi pride :)
the way he offered love
felt incompatible to how i wished to receive it
he wouldn’t communicate even if it meant saving me
but he would drop anything to touch me
- at least if i’m sexualized he’s paying attention to me
“we’re gonna have to say goodbye eventually,” he sighed as i begged him to stay.
“why?”
i want to punch you
and punch you
and punch you
until i’m too tired
to do anything
but collapse into your arms
my darling, where do you go when you disappear?
anyone else too mentally ill for love?
i will never be okay again. i can’t imagine a future where i’m stable and happy. i can never run far enough away from myself.
i don’t think he’s ever been properly loved.
my darling,
you are like a firefly.
always flitting just out of reach
your glow impossible to grasp.
- so why do i keep chasing