Si11ykitty23 - Hi :3

i wish i had EVEN MORE TANGLES !!! even though i have like 15 already x0

so beautiful! i wonder what they smell like?

happy autism awareness day to all the girls who had “ friends” growing up who were actually bullying them . to the girls who always sat alone in the grass and wondered why nobody wanted to talk . to the girls who spoke to animals like they were listening . to the girls who created a little world in their room . to the girls who always felt ashamed for how deeply they love things and how passionately they enjoyed media . to the girls who covered their ears when they were overwhelmed by everything . to the girls who carrying a special thing around to feel safe . to the girls who never understood what they did wrong to feel so lonely . to the girls who were diagnosed later in life because they weren’t little boys who liked trains. you are so special and beautiful and you’re not worse for it, you love deeply and that is so wonderful please never try to push that down . I LOVE YOU !!!!!

… you absolutely cannot support disabled people and support the police at the same time. the police routinely abuse and murder disabled people and are not only exonerated, they are celebrated for it. the police as an institution is antithetical to disabled liberation. there is no version of reality where a police state and disabled safety can coexist.

He really likes the hat now

why did nobody tell me that GERD was a chronic illness? i was diagnosed with GERD a while ago when i was very stressed out from high school, it flared up and i had to restrict things i was eating. it still flares up when im stressed out and my whole family has gastrointestinal problems-but i was never told that this is a chronic illness. i guess i never realized that this is a life time issue. when i’m feeling okay, i don’t need to restrict what things i eat as much but then ill have stomach issues that i just deal with bc i like eating my favorite foods and drinking my favorite drinks. idk just a ramble.

i was thinking about how the other day i didn’t know what “sybau” meant (it’s a new slang term that means ‘shut your bitch ass up’) so i asked my online friends and they said it means encouragement or something good. so i just went about my day until i asked what it meant to my gf bc she showed me a meme that said it in a different context that didn’t make sense as encouragement. and she explained the real meaning. i wish i wasn’t so gullible and stupid all the time! i just assume everyone is being truthful.

speaking on what i posted earlier, i’ve been working on allowing myself to verbally shut down/freeze up when something bad happens because when i overreact it hurts my head, makes me cry, brings a lot of stress, and makes me feel anxious. i recently found out what AAC devices are and SGDs are! i use weave chat on my ipad when i verbally shut down and wow it has helped so much!

i listen to a lot of true crime/psychology/crime stories because it’s been a long term interest of mine. something that always bothers me is when there is disabled victims specifically victimized by their parents/primary caregivers. when you have sex to get pregnant and have a child, you are signing up for a disabled child whether you like it or not! “it won’t happen to me” but it could! and you could also become disabled. it boggles my mind why some people who hate their disabled child then decide to keep and take care of a person who needs help or is dependent on them and then in turn decide to ABUSE THEM.

i love tangles !! i have so many tangle fidgets. i like to match them with my outfits.