I Mostly Try And Stay Off Of Tumblr Too Much When I'm Age Regressed Cause I Never Know What I'll See

Well the notes might work.

But the headmates probably won't as we (ShaySubpack) don't ever leave front so that isn't our memory issue. And while some of the others front, they usually do so more when we aren't around those we aren't "out to" as plural (and it wouldn't probably be safe to be out). So they usually don't have as many of the "important" memories, lol.

But again the notes idea is definitely helpful so thanks!!

- Shay 🐾

Do any beings have any advice/tips for disabled beings who struggle with motivation and memory? The main things that we know (keyword is know) are relevant here are that we are autistic, ADHD, and have depression.

Also normal reminders on our phone don't tend to work as we just get rid of them when they show up without even looking at what they are for. So way(s) to get around that would also be helpful.

Basically, we are just asking for tips/advice for disabled beings.

- Shay.🐾

:3c

- Shay 🐾

rb to have a super gay 2023

I'm a bit bored, I should probably work on English class work, but my brain says no, and I have no real control, lol.

Anyways, fictionkin shit, this is gonna be talking about my biological parents as Zuki, so there will be trigger warnings. All of this is just to do with my life as Zuki, I have problems with my parents here, but not as bad.

Tw: hinted at sexual assult not said by name but still, physical abuse, emotional abuse, verbal abuse, child abuse, bullying, scars, burning/fire, and maybe more? Idk if there's anything to add, let me know.

My bio father as Zuki was a horrible abusive asshole. He was not the first guy to get my bio mother pregnant [as my old sibling is my half-sibling from my mom]. He told my mother that if she just had one kid with him, then he would be "happy" (not his actual words but whatever). So I was the kid that came from this "agreement".

But when I actually got the first part[s] of my quirk at the age of 4, which included wings (which came from my sib's bio father pretty much, it's hard to explain exactly), he was fucking pissed but couldn't do anything cause my mother did what he wanted, she had one kid with him (just not the kid he wanted).

At the age of 7, the other part of my quirk came in. Which is/was essentially the ability to "drop" my body and become a "spirit," I guess you could say. It freaked people out, causing a lot of bullying and shit. Anyways, that just made my bio father [I hate calling him that, but whatever] hate me more.

He was always "aggressive" and abusive, I mean, he didn't get physical to me until I was around 5 or so. I also couldn't actually speak until I was at least 7, and then it was about at a like 2 year old level, basically. Anyways, he got physically abusive towards me when I was like 5, but he was always verbally and emotionally abusive towards me.

When I was like 11, my bio father got put into jail cause my old sib got into UA and told Aizawa about him and shit. I was happy that I was "free" from abuse [I wasn't really, but I was at least free from him].

My bio mother had an alcohol problem and would drink a whole lot. She wasn't really ever physically abusive when I was younger. But after my bio father got put in jail, it actually seemed to get worse with her towards me. Idk why exactly, but I believe it had to do with me kinda looking like my bio father and also my bio mother (she definitely had problems with self image and took it out on me).

My old sib didn't see the abusive side of our mother at all. They were the favorite child, they didn't look as much like our mother, I guess. They had seen only the loving side of our mother, which I knew existed but rarely saw when I was alone with her.

I always had a hard time admitting that my mother was abusive and shit. To me, it was deserved cause I was an unwanted pup that she was forced to have and care for. She still wasn't typically physically abusive.

When I was like 12 or 13, my bio mother left me alone in the house. She had slapped me to the ground before fully leaving as I was quietly "screaming" for her to not leave me. My older sib never knew this. As far as they knew, our mother was just really busy with hero work [I forgot to mention that both of my bio parents were heroes]. The only time our mother would be at the house is if I had called or texted her about my old sibling wanting to see her and shit. Then she would come home and act like everything was fine and that she still lived there and took care of me.

That went on until I was like 15, it was my second year in high school [another reminder that UA is a college and I was 18 in my canon]. My bio mother had been in a bad villain attack and was at the hospital and would never do hero work again and would have to be in the hospital for a while (years). After that happened, my old sib ended up becoming my legal guardian and shit.

My old sib was pretty busy with hero work since they were pretty much just starting out with their hero career. They asked Izuku's mom [Auntie Inko as I called her] to look out for me a lot, as she already was, and because me and Izuku were childhood friends who were re-becoming friends again.

Pretty sure if Auntie Inko had the full ability to support another child legally and shit, she would've adopted me. I was not an easy pup to deal with, though. I was very suspicious of her kindness and would fight her [I bit her a few times cause of being fearful and shit, I really regret that and shit]. I was sure that she would abandon me as well one day, of course this never happened [think of the moment in the movie Bolt where Mittens is talking about how "Penny is fake" that was kind of how I was with Izuku and his mom at first].

Anyways, Auntie Inko ended up basically being my parent until I got adopted by Dadzawa and Papamic.

I'm gonna go into a bit more detail, but not too much detail about my bio father's abuse now.

His quirk gave him wolf claws [not necessarily always out, but he kept them out almost all the time] that were able to use some of the elements (fire, water, etc. I guess) to hurt. It's kinda hard to explain rn, but basically, he could have his claws on fire [I use that example cause it was his favorite].

He would use his "fire claws" on me a lot when he wanted to hurt me. He burned me a lot with them, I had so many scars from him doing this a lot. I had one scar across my face that I got from one of those times that I hid with makeup for a long time. Eventually, I gave up hiding it, and when my friends asked about it, I would say it was old, and I just used to cover it up.

His abuse in this way made me very cautious around fire and shit [so yes I was very cautious and scared when Todoroki first started using his fire but I of course never said anything cause I was not about to discourage his use of his fire]. Fur and feathers don't really go with fire anyway, so yeah.

Idk if there's anything else I want to say but at least for right now, this is good. Sorry for 2 vent(?) posts back to back.

- Zuki Shay Lupo (They/hx/it)

We are kinda dumb rn.

What do you mean?

- Shay 🐾

[If there are any mistakes in spelling and grammar, only correct us if you are doing it constructively, please].

Do any beings know how to go about making a tail and/or ears with brushed off fur from a dog? Or where to find information about that kind of thing? (We have a husky, and we want to use some of his fur to make at least a tail and maybe ears as well).

We are thinking about using the start of a yarn tail to add the fur to it (we also need fur safe dye cause our dog's fur is white and ours should be a kind of dark brown). Would this work?

We wanna make a tail cause we aren't really able to properly find an ethical tail seller [we are disabled, we aren't gonna go more into it], and we have heard that fake fur tails aren't really that great. We might just end up making just a yarn tail if we can't find a way to use our dog's fur for it. [Are yarn tails good for the environment and stuff?]

- Shay 🐾

We need to clean a room, do any beings have any tips? (We need tips that keep in mind that our issues are mainly from AuDHD and chronic pain rn).

- Shay 🐾

Thanks for answering!!

We haven't fully looked at the video yet but we wanted to respond a bit to the side note thing (also maybe the tags?).

Yeah google is very good for things, lol. We just mainly sent the ask cause we saw that you had said that you wanted some asks sent, lol.

We had some ASL classes (read: was in ASL 1 two times cause we aren't good with school and that includes college, lol). We would love to take more classes for ASL but we have a lot of difficulties with school and stuff so that seems like it might not happen.

While we might not be deaf (although we do have difficulties with hearing, lol), the reason we love ASL and learning it is that we have verbal shutdowns (others tend to refer to this kind of thing as "going nonverbal" but that's not really correct). So while ASL might not be our language or culture, to us it is more than just a "fun fact". [This was just us explaining, we aren't upset with you saying the thing about it being a fun fact].

Once again, thanks for answering our ask!

- Shay 🐾

Hello! We saw your "speak your language day" post.

We know a bit of ASL ourselves but would definitely love to learn more!

Do you know how to sign things like "plural" (as in the plurality community), "alterhuman", "nonhuman", and just stuff like that? We would love to learn if there are signs for some of our communities even though there probably isn't, lol.

If there aren't any signs for those, we would just love to learn different signs for (nonhuman) animals! Especially canines (wolves, dogs, jackals, etc.) and felines (cats, tigers, cheetahs, etc.)

- Shay 🐾

English:

I’m still a student so I’m not an ASL authority, remember that. But, for plural I would maybe sign like [listing things], or… depends on how many you feel, like [list 2] [list 3] [list 4] [list 5] personalities, or self, [multiple self]. Maybe, depends. For- I’ve seen human signed with the H handshape like [body] becomes [human] like [person] becomes [human]. So maybe with other signs added before, like [not human] or [other human]. Or [not human] [other human]. Like that. There’s not a lot of signs for specific identities like that. But for other animal signs, the sign for animal is [animal]. I don’t know a lot… like, I know dog, I know cat, but specific types…. Like, a lot is describing what it looks like. I don’t know if tiger sign exists already, it probably does, I would try signing it by explaining what it looks like. Like, orange cat, large with black stripes down it, like that. Yeah. I hope that helps. Bye!

(Side note: Not signed just adding something. If you’re curious about a sign, google is your friend. Lots of signs can be found online and signs can vary depending on the region. Some signs in the state I’m from are very different from signs elsewhere. Look online and if trying to communicate with deaf people in your area keep in mind that many signs can be localized! Just cause I sign something one way doesn’t mean a deaf person from your state is wrong for signing it another. Far from it! Understand the culture of your area, understand deaf culture, and remember, for you it may be a fun fact, for them it’s their language. Be aware and have fun signing!)

Ask game!

If you send an ask for this, please include the question(s) fully instead of just the symbol.

- Shay 🐾

Space themed System ask game based on common fakeclaim "criteria" because these things are valid and cool actually

🛰-Do you have a large headcount?

👾-Do any alters in your system have typing quirks?

🚀-Does your system have any Non-human alters?

☄️-Is your system neurodivergent?

🔭-Does your system use neo Pronouns?

🌠-Do any of the alters in your system have dyed hair?

🌙-Are there any nonverbal alters in your system?

🪐-Does your system have Angry or "dangerous" persecutors?

💫-Do your littles use 'little-speech?'

🌌-Does your system have little to no amnesia between switches?

🌟-Does your system have fairly clear communication?

🌘-Do you have a large or complex headspace?

🛸-Do any alters in your system have exo-memories?

👽Does your system have any tics?

☀️-is your system bad at masking?

✨️-Do any alters in your system have an accent?

🌎-Do any alters in your system speak in a different language?

☁️-Does your system use things like pluralkit and simply plural?

⭐️-are you out about being a system?

Misceverse stuff!!!

Shouldn't have any tw/cw this time, but let me know if I miss anything.

https://www.tumblr.com/misceverchive/759258743819091968/not-really-a-coining-question-so-i-hope-this-is?source=share (used the first link from this to figure out my identity btw)

Actual identity and stuff under the read more or whatever it says, lol. :3c

I am Tridynamic (Alpha, Beta, and Omega)

Typically referred to by myself and others as a Beta. I'll typically just say Beta when referring to my dynamic.

I have behaviors typical of Alphas and Omegas (as well as Betas, but the other two are brought up because of me being typically referred to as a Beta). Beta by itself might fit this description, but it doesn't feel 100% right. I can't explain it anymore than that currently.

Physically average (towards weaker side though), socially moderate, and a caree temperament. (PA SM TCE)

I'm not entirely sure of my scent, but anytime I really think of a scent for me, I think of fur, chocolate, and woods/forest (I hope this makes sense, lol).

I won't be talking about any nsfw stuff this time. Just know that my misce identity is not just nsfw. It is actually mainly sfw.

My behaviors are ofc based on canines (wolves and dogs mainly), cats, and some bird behavior (cause of being crow).

Some examples of behaviors I have are: nesting, purring, scenting (idk if this counts as a behavior but whatever), and other noises to do with the previously brought up behavior types.

I can't think of anything else to talk about here, so I guess that's it.

- Cyan Lupo (They/it) | cause this is mainly related to my RWBY kin

Little spoons but lots[?] of posts (kinda 3? Cause 2 reblogs are like as if we made comments but in reblogs. This would make 4).

Not sure what else to say.

- Shay 🐾

Looking through a few poems I made. Would anyone want me to post some of them? Some would probably need tw or cw, lol. I use poems to vent. They also wouldn't be that good.

Just curious if anyone would want to see my poems, lol.

- Zuki Shay Lupo (They/it/hx)