ACTUALLY It’s

when elena ferrante said “there are people who leave and people who know how to be left” and when richard siken said “someone has to leave first. this is a very old story. there is no other version of this story.” and when sally rooney wrote “if i told you where my car is right now, i don’t think i’d be able to leave, i think i would have to stay here just in case you changed your mind about everything” and when mikko harvey said “the number of hours we have together is actually not so large. please linger near the door uncomfortably instead of just leaving. please forget your scarf in my life and come back later for it.”and when karese burrows wrote “i have never seen a door that doesn’t look like you leaving. look at me writing this poem. even here i don’t mean anything i say. except that I still want you. that whatever is in me still loves you deeply. it is a light i can’t turn off. i clap my hands and nothing happens.” and when margarita karapanou said “i never expected you to actually finish anything. you were always leaving. i always picture you with a suitcase in your hand.”

‘heather’ by conan gray but it’s raining outside your bedroom. (headphones recommended) (youtube)

#making myself cry again today (╥﹏╥)

#kim seokjin#bts#BTS#jin#spotify#stream #epiphany

I crave warmth everywhere. In the morning sun or in sunsets or in music, art, places, just warm energy. When people recommend you songs or movies or tell you how much you mean to them, when people say I love you out of the blue, or a smile from random strangers, people going on walks with you or a picnic date with friends, when somebody talks about the person they love or the times when you are laughing uncontrollably with a group of people you love, I crave that warmth.

Nothing hits harder than the absolute yearning to be a part of a queer friend group. To have a bunch of people who you can truly be yourself with. To have what they had in Heartstopper and I Kissed Shara Wheeler.

seven by taylor swift, old friend by mitski, it’s nice to have a friend by taylor swift and 16/04/16 (jack’s song) by cavetown like if you agree

Passed down like folk songs

our love lasts so long

<3

if we were lovers i would write you the sweetest had written notes, my tender words written in cursive with my favorite pen, you feel my longing and endearment through the ink on the paper, essential oils and perfume on the paper so you remember my scent, a tea bag from my favorite tea, some pressed flowers on the inside on the envelope, the envelope sealed with a kiss before being shipped off to you, my darling

kao talking abt how we feel like we disappoint our families w our sexualities so we have to compensate for it by being good at other things in life. oof

Mary Oliver, “Late Spring,” in Felicity