Please Allow My Weak Jealuc Heart To ✨believe✨ That Diluc Is Implying His Concern Towards A Certain

second part of my casual gamer diaries, and it shows that i'm either obsessed with hyv games or i am showing gambling behaviour (so aventurine of me amirite). while gacha isn't technically gambling (or considered as such in many countries), the tendency to develop gambling behaviour is there so...hehe? 🥹

(on a more serious note, the experience of gambling and the emotions it can evoke can make it addictive so i guess if one wants to try, it's best to approach it with caution and a lot of wisdom.)

at the time of the release of cyno's second story quest, i still had chiori's and arlecchino's story quest to finish, but because i love sumeru and the men of sumeru (actually i can say i'm ✨biased✨ towards sumeru characters and the nation itself), i went straight to cyno's quest ofc (*•̀ᴗ•́*)و ̑̑

one thing that i like and amuses me about cyno is how he talks as if he's always going to be in a legendary battle of sorts or as if he's a protagonist in a shounen anime about duels and friendships u make along the way ✨ i think sethos mentioned his manner of speaking in one of his voicelines? i agree 100% with sethos.

he's one of my favourite characters in the game -- reliable, responsible, intelligent, and i do enjoy his sense of humour because mine is just as broken as his.

i'd like to write more about my thoughts on his second story quest, but i'll save that for another entry, and when my head is not as convoluted as it is atm.

also alhaitham is such a mood here. his lines always resonate with me as an introvert. i think i had a lot of screenshots from his story quest simply because most of his lines there are truly quotable.

i did finish chiori's story quest the day after i finished cyno's!

let me begin by saying that hyv did improve gradually in writing female characters, and chiori becomes an instant favourite because of her no nonsense approach to a lot of things. this is also one of those story quests that focused a lot on the character, which really helped in making me appreciate and understand why chiori is the way she is. my girl really made her dreams a reality! (TvT )

i will say her story quest falls easily as one of my favourites, but it hasn't beaten yoimiya's second story quest which currently sits at the top spot.

anyway, i loved her story quest and i'm glad i won the 50/50 on her banner (•́⌄•́๑)૭✧

the most recent patch had me going back to playing tcg just so i can secure a ✨kaveh tcg card✨ that i'll use as much as i'm using him in game as my dps (which is everyday except when fighting ridiculously strong bosses).

first of all!! he is so cute, handsome, and pretty at the same time. just look at him all proud about his tcg deck, and i love him for it 😌

i lost the first round and won the rematch with my inazumen deck (ayato, thoma, kazuha), so i got to see both endings. it's cute how he's trying not to goad about his win, but something in me hurt when i won the game. how ridiculous amirite, but such is the life of an ✨average kaveh enjoyer✨

kaveh being 2D is a sin!! why am i not a playable character in teyvat too??

it's time to fight his demons (himself) today.

his idle thought about the interior design of this place is so in character (ofc), and yk what, i agree with kaveh each time i invite another character to play tcg with me.

anyway, i love kaveh that my friends who are aware of it are probably tired of me having to talk about him in the most random moments. speaking of kaveh, i should upload the photos i took of him in-game for the kaveh goes around teyvat photosets i started.

i still haven't started arlecchino's or clorinde's story quests, but i went ahead and did the archon quest on the day of its release to keep myself from being spoiled ( ｡ • ᴖ • ｡)

i actually got shocked when caribert first appeared on screen, but let me just say: caribert is one of the most good-looking NPCs we've had in genshin.

i haven't really read or watched other people's opinions about it, but i'm okay with it. i'm not mad about it, and i actually liked that we got to sit down and talk with the twin. it made me tear up (hoyo has been doing well making me cry since focalors' appearance) especially when caribert managed to sneak out a memento of the twin's reunion (｡Ó᎔ ก̀๑)

i was also cheering atossa on, but ( ｡ • ᴖ • ｡) caribert u hurt me as well.

i was supposed to include my hsr diaries here (since i've been playing it more frequently to catch up with a lot of the missions), but i'll just put it on a separate entry instead.

when i have a clearer mind and in a better headspace, i'd probably spare some time writing about my thoughts about the game. like a reflection paper of some sort?

some of kemeroot’s outdoor baths by the beach featuring different kinds of baths and a couple showers, too! i kind of want to make another outdoor baths area in kemeroot that’s inspired by the visuals of watatsumi island (mermaid set is one of the prettiest furniture sets we have in acnh), but i’ll finish working on cleaning up my island from the influx of flowers last few days because it’s been raining nonstop (almost) in the game.

in the middle of running around kemeroot, i spotted these two chilling at the plaza, and it’s just so precious (TvT )

in my animal crossing era but genshin teapot edition

i really have no idea what came over me suddenly—maybe it’s the amount of serenitea teapot showcases i’ve been seeing at hoyolab every time i do my daily check-ins and companionship things, and my recent moving back to my parents’ hoouse that caused me to clean, organize, and rearrange me and my sister’s room—but last night and up until about half of today, i had the urge to start things over with my longforsaken teapot that i told myself i’ll turn to a husband realm of sorts. however, this time i decided to work on the interior of my mansion first.

i really wish hyv could also do something about the watermark of the game’s title when taking photographs just like they did with star rail’s remove the game logo option because it can look tacky at times. but i also need to work on my angles when taking photos in-game hehe. anyway, i have some cat furniture like this one positioned around the mansion for mr. pouncealot! ♡ॢ₍⸍⸌̣ʷ̣̫⸍̣⸌₎ but this’ll do for now for documentation. i do have a library behind the large cat bed, but i’ve yet to learn how to document it properly with the angles and all, so i’ll just place here a medium close shot of my favourite corner; those diona mini-soafs are really cute that it’s a pity we can’t sit on them. (~n~ )

the receiving area also holds the dining and drinking area (tea drinking for wriothesley my beloved, and okay for kaveh’s use, too). i was going to put thoma here originally, but because the teapot has a weird loading system (that i’m still trying to figure out myself since 2021), it won’t let me place him in there, though that’s another problem to solve for another teapot session.

(every time i see neuvillette’s handmade ladle, i can’t help but gush in the sheer cuteness of the ladle, and neuvillette, too. he’s the kind that can be both cute and badass, and i love him for it.)

besides the main hall in the first floor, i was also able to start working on the individual rooms of kaveh, thoma, and wriothesley (nothing is too tedious if it’s for my 2D husbands), but i’ll finish the entire room first before i take the photos. i know it’s also ridiculous that i’m thinking about their bathroom situation, but really: why do some game developers neglect this biological aspect? it’s probably not going to contribute anything major or even useful in the plot of the game or better gamer experience, but if we’re including furniture arrangement in games why is there neglect for bathrooms and bodily functions (i can’t allow my husbands to pee or poop in the wild even though nobody in the game does that actually, i know)? so anyway, i plan to make a makeshift washroom then since genshin won’t be doing that anytime soon or ever. at least they created baths when the inazuma teapot realm was released.

i did manage to start with the facade and the surrounding area of my mansion, as well as kaveh’s outdoor workshop and wriothesley’s outdoor pankration ring-slash-training ground, but i’ll do the documentation some other day, when i’ve figured out the angles to showcase the outdoor build.

someday i’ll join the ranks of those awesome teapot mains, but for now, i’ll finish redesigning and redecorating the first of my husband realms. ( ᵕ̤ ‧̫̮ ᵕ̤ )

anyway, have some adorably nerdy conversation screencaps with kaveh inside the teapot:

he is so cute gushing over architecture and design like the kshahrewar nerd that he is. ू(ʚ̴̶̷́ .̠ ʚ̴̶̷̥̀ ू) truly my best husband ( ๑॔˃ ॢ‧̫˂)ॢ♡̷˚๐

i try to be grateful for many things, but the most grateful i’ll always be is for my hands. as an artist, my hands are definitely something i can’t (and don’t want to) live without. my mind conjures, and my hand creates. it is with my hands that i’m able to keep dabbling and rekindling my love for art making.

(kind of a shameless plug about some of the things i’ve done, but who else should celebrate my works but myself, right? right! ♡ॢ₍⸍⸌̣ʷ̣̫⸍̣⸌₎)

another H that i am grateful for is my friend, whom i’ve kept in touch with regularly since i left one of my previous workplaces. not a lot of my friends have witnessed my most depressive state (and honestly, i wouldn’t be comfortable with most of my friends seeing me in that state since i know not all of them can fully grasp or even have the headspace to try to see things from my side just because of differences in our stages of life), but this friend has seen it, and still chose to remain a friend up until now that i’m beginning to heal from my previous season. i’ll always be grateful for her presence, support, and friendship, and i’m glad our paths ever crossed.

whenever our schedules aligned and we have time to meet up, we catch up over food, drinks, and art.

Daily Gratitude

September 25, 2024

What are you grateful for today?

Welcome to my gratitude support group! All are welcome to be a part of the gratitude crew. Re-blog, write a note or send an ask as often as makes sense for you (just once, every day, twice a year, a few times a month— doesn’t matter!)

I tag parts of the crew almost every day. If you’d like to be on the tag list let me know.

All posts will be tagged ‘resiliencewithin’s daily gratitude group’.

Prompt (if you want): Show gratitude for something that starts with the letter H.

i want to make this kaveh goes around teyvat thing a regular on this tumblog because i really, really adore kaveh, and there are so many well-rendered places in genshin hihihi.

here he is, somewhere underground in the vast desert of sumeru, where a door, speculated to be the door leading to khaenri’ah, sits deserted and sealed (for now).

i have many things i'd consider my roman empire and a genshin event with itto visiting the nation of wisdom and meeting the sumeru crew is one of them.

who would win: itto versus the sumeru crew?

I've added other types of blind box to the shop!! And the new ones are on sale for this weekend!!! we're so close guys, just €2000 more to go 🩷 thank you for your help reblogging and donating 🩷

i was in the middle of grinding for stellar jades so i can (finally) get argenti in the limited character banner when i didn’t expect to actually do and finish his companion quest, and all i can say is as much as argenti is indeed befitting of being a knight of beauty, he is so goofy i want him in my roster of characters and in my 2D husbands club.

i love beautiful and goofy characters a little too much hihihi.

this is my favourite argenti dialogue in the entire companion mission, btw. he’s such a mood.

march 7th’s a mood here, too.

june has been quiet and turbulent at the same time so for this month, i'd like to be intentional about being grateful for the presence of the people around me this month (this season) as i'm aware that in this state, i'm not the easiest to be with (T^T ).

Daily Gratitude

July 3, 2024

What are you grateful for today?

Welcome to my gratitude support group! All are welcome to be a part of the gratitude crew. Re-blog, write a note or send an ask as often as makes sense for you (just once, every day, twice a year, a few times a month— doesn’t matter!)

I tag parts of the crew almost every day. If you’d like to be on the tag list let me know.

All posts will be tagged ‘resiliencewithin’s daily gratitude group’.

Prompt (if you want): Set an intention of something you want to be grateful for tonight, tomorrow, next week, next month, or next year.

Or, check in on an intention you’ve set in the past.

in two days, i’ll be officially a month in, in my new workplace, and though this was supposed to be the last resort of all the last resorts (since i told myself i’d like to take a break in teaching), i’m glad that it turned out this way.

i’m proud of how i’m holding up so far considering i still have unprocessed emotions and trauma from my previous workplace (counselling sessions were put on a halt because i ran out of funds to pay my counsellor, and i have to find a definite time i could talk to her once more because i’m back to working again). perhaps it’s the reasonable workload that allows me to actually have a brief moment of centering myself and reassuring that i’m not in the same workplace anymore, and that my bosses are not my previous bosses anymore when i feel a trigger start. i’m also proud that i haven’t really super embarrassed myself, and i hope not to in the coming days, of course. moreover, i’m really proud of my students this term because i can see them do their best to perform as expected, but are also aware and open to receiving feedback. if only we can show the works of our students, but data privacy, ofc.

i still don’t know how to describe my relationship with teaching since i was burnt out for the most part, but i’m approaching all of this with an open mind, and open heart, and an open spirit. anyway, among the recurring themes in my life is restoration, so let’s see how things will go from here. o (◡‿◡✿)

Daily Gratitude

August 26, 2024

What are you grateful for today?

Welcome to my gratitude support group! All are welcome to be a part of the gratitude crew. Re-blog, write a note or send an ask as often as makes sense for you (just once, every day, twice a year, a few times a month— doesn’t matter!)

I tag parts of the crew almost every day. If you’d like to be on the tag list let me know.

All posts will be tagged ‘resiliencewithin’s daily gratitude group’.

Prompt (if you want): Something you are proud of (big or small).