There Is Love In Holding And There Is Love In Letting Go.

Have you screamed in the silence?

Six word story. #604 (via myfuture-mywriting-mylife)

luke out for the game tonight? playoffs are hughes-less. is this what we get for saying “raise hell” on easter sunday ://

it’s not just sunshine and roses i want to hear about. tell me about the monsters hidden under your bed and about the skeletons you keep in your closet. then i’ll know you mean it. then i’ll know it’s real.

(via ninasdrafts)

Do you know how much it sucks? Losing a best friend? Like actually losing your other and better half? Losing someone you talked to every day, all the time? Someone you looked forward to talking to regardless of what it was, even if it was a fight? Losing someone you gave everything to, to the point where I have nothing else to give anyone else, when the other person can’t even give you the time of day? Losing the person you’d spend every day with if you could? The one person that made you smile. The person that hurt you a million times, over and over, but you still forgave them and would do it all over again if given the chance. The person you do give anything just to see them more time.

Do you really know?

It comes and it goes, knowing I’m alive It hits me sometimes, like a lightning strike Just whilst I’m living, just while outside And the sun warms the skin of my face

‘I’m here,’ I think, and I am right, ‘I’m warm,’ I say, from my bed at night ‘I live,’ I wonder, with my toes in the grass, ‘how lovely,’ I sigh, as I watch the clouds pass

I’m simultaneously the most obsessive most detached girl in the world

Life Lately

 I turned 18 in October last year. I graduated high school this June and I’m starting college on September.

I didn’t get to apply to my dream school in the city. My parents think that I will prioritize going to rallies and mobs instead of focusing on my studies. They’re not confident that they would be able to support me too.

Two days before my high school graduation, I received emails from two universities. One from a private university in my mom’s home province, where I wanted to take legal management on, and one from a state university where I will be taking a course where I do not really see myself in.

Some of my friends are going to take the program they’re interested in. Some of them will move to different cities and pursue the program they want, start a new life. I want what they have. I wish I could be in better circumstances but I know I have no choice but deal with the cards I was given.

Lately, my life feels stagnant. I have been pressuring myself too much, which I know is not good, but I don’t know what to do. I feel like the world is moving too fast and I could not catch up. Like I’m falling behind.

I also have a lot of worries lately. I failed a test on a job I was applying for. I was looking forward to get in because it will help financially. I know that I’m incoming freshman but I want to start saving up for the future.

With everything I’m feeling, I should learn how to take it easy. I should not be worrying. I’m young, I have a lot of time. I know I shouldn’t use my present worrying too much about adulting and the future. But at some point, I feel like I’m too old to be wasting time. 

i hope every lover girl finds her super calm gentleman who is unashamedly and insanely obsessed with her

you still have so many years to meet so many people you never knew you could love so much

“I hope love finds you.” she said. “I hope it looks for you at 3am when you’ve had enough. I hope it whispers at you every time sadness creeps up in your ears. I hope it hugs you, every time fear tries to surround your whole being. I hope it kisses your tears away, not only those from your eyes, but also those cries from your heart.” she looked at him and smiled, then finally uttered, “I hope love won’t give up on you, even if you fall back on your knees, with bleeding hands refusing to hold onto.”

I hope you accept it, when it finally meets you. //ma.c.a