Season One Episode Twelve, “later” / Francis Forever By Mitski / Boot Theory By Richard Siken / Three

The Year of Blue Water, Yanyi.

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“I’ll have it. You have to give it to me. It’s gotta go somewhere.”

Fleabag | 2.04

this December i refuse to be sad this december i will wake up and read this rilke quote every morning because damn he’s right life has not forgotten me it holds me in its hand and will not let me fall

— Elena Ferrante, from “The Days of Abandonment.”

April 6, 1963

“I’ve seen a lot of beautiful things with a heavy heart.”

— Albert Camus

“The role of the artist is exactly the same role, I think, as the role of the lover. If you love somebody, you honor at least two necessities at once. One of them is to recognize something very dangerous, or very difficult. Many people cannot recognize it at all, that you may also be loved; love is like a mirror. In any case, if you do love somebody, you honor the necessity endlessly, and being at the mercy of that love, you try to correct the person whom you love. Now, that’s a two-way street. You’ve also got to be corrected. As I said, the people produce the artist, and it’s true. The artist also produces the people. And that’s a very violent and terrifying act of love. The role of the artist and the role of the lover. If I love you, I have to make you conscious of the things you don’t see. Insofar as that is true, in that effort, I become conscious of the things that I don’t see. And I will not see without you, and vice versa, you will not see without me. No one wants to see more than he sees. You have to be driven to see what you see. The only way you can get through it is to accept that two-way street which I call love. You can call it a poem, you can call it whatever you like. That’s how people grow up. An artist is here not to give you answers but to ask you questions.”

— James Baldwin, “The Black Scholar Interviews James Baldwin,” Conversations with James Baldwin (edited by Fred L. Standley and Louis H. Pratt)