Warnings: angst, mentions of depression and anxiety, panic attacks, suicidal thoughts?, mention of alcohol and drug use, fluff at the end
Pairing: Eddie Munson x female hopper!reader (reader is adopted)
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Loss.
You have experienced so much loss in your life. So much that it made you feel nothing and yet everything at once. Everything bad.
You wake up crying, every night. Drenched in sweat, gasping for air as you’re clutching your chest. It takes a few minutes for you to calm down but it really feels like hours. Hours of replaying your nightmares even though you’re trying to forget them, so desperately.
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i feel like robin would definitely take you stargazing. you both would be laying on a comfy blanket under a sparkling sky, just pointing out the brightest ones, and you would instinctively hold her hand. and the only thing grounding you to the earth is robin's thumb caressing the back of your hand.
i feel like people don't talk about tanner with his glasses enough.
the thin-brimmed glasses suit him so well!! i like to imagine him reading a novel to you at night, only by the light of a bedside lamp. but you can't focus on what he's saying because all you can do is stare at him, admiring the slight glare in the lenses from the soft lamp light.
i need to see more of t with his glasses on <3
“eddie should be back in s5!” i say into the mic. the crowd boos. i begin to walk off the stage in shame. “no, she’s right!” i hear a voice in the back say. the lights come on. it’s metallica.
Pairing: Billy Hargrove x fem!reader
Category: Hurt Comfort
Summary: When Billy saves you from your abusive ex, you slowly realize that he is much more than the arrogant bully you first took him to be.
Warning: toxic relationship, physical and verbal abuse sequence (if this bothers you at all please scroll on), sexual abuse insinuation, description of injuries, cannon typical swearing
“Hey, angel.”
You jumped as Billy banged his shoulder against the locker next to you, looking up from where you had been twisting in your code sequence.
“They tell me you’re best friends with the king,” he crossed his bare arms and looked you up and down. “May he rest in peace.”
“He’s still king,” you gave him a look before returning your attention to your locker. “Steve’s just had a change of priorities.”
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Can you do hcs on tgc boys with a vampire goth reader🌚
i love this req so much omg. i wear mostly dark clothing and makeup, so this is right up my alley. i hope this turned out fine <3
headcanons below cut
he admires your confidence to be true to yourself
he LOVES watching you do your makeup
even asked if he could do it one day
it was a little messy, but you were really proud of him
he loves your lipstick the most
he loves seeing the lipstick marks on his face when you kiss him
he buys you colors that he thinks would look gorgeous on you
he doesn't really get into dressing like a vamp goth himself, but he has no problem letting you do your own thing
if anything, he's proud to have you by his side as you walk down the street together
he lovesss your hair
if you don't have natural black hair, he insists on paying for you to get it professionally done
you tried to deny the money at first, but he wouldn't let you pay by yourself
he runs his hands through your hair all the time, loving how his fingers disappear into it
loves when you wear a headpiece that makes the hair pop
he always gets you roses so you have a real one in your outfit somewhere
but his favorite spot for the roses is in your hair <3
he LOVES your style so much
his favorite thing, though??
your accessories
your nails, jewelry, capes, headpieces...
he loves it all
he pays for you to get your nails done
one time you came home and found a black lace umbrella on your bed
he custom ordered it for you
okay, i won't lie, he was hesitant at first
he didn't really get it
but the more he was around you, the more appreciative he became of the art behind it
next thing you knew, he was buying you clothes
he would do extensive research of the highest-quality vamp goth clothing
he gave you a sweatshirt from his merch collection
you were perfectly fine wearing the normal one, but he thought it looked out of place
so he designed a custom piece of his merch with your favorite colors just so the sweatshirt would match your aesthetic
this man loves your shoes the most
whether you like your shoes to be bulkier or more delicate, he loves them
he loves the added height
he loves red and black on you so much
he ordered you red bottoms
literal red bottoms
you reprimanded him for spending so much money on you, but he didn't care
he just thought you were so gorgeous all the time
to him, you're worth everything he has
pairing: ellie williams x platonic!f!reader, joel miller x reader
summary: ellie calls you mom for the first time. (requested)
warnings: SO MUCH FLUFF! read if your heart was broken by tonight's episode. it will heal you. fr.
word count: 2.3k
a/n: hello! i wrote this immediately following the episode bc i needed to be happy!!!!!!! it is not proof read just fyi. please please please let me know what you think of it; and as always, my requests are open!
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Motherhood was something that you had never considered. Not even once. In fact, you don't think you had the capacity to nurture a human from birth. Lucky for you, there was zero societal pressure on you to do so since there were hoards of infected roaming the earth.
You were at peace with this.
Until Ellie came along.
She annoyed you at first. The type of annoyance that slipped under your skin and clawed you from the inside out. You could not stand her, often refusing to give her the time of day and instead turning to Joel.
Slowly but surely, she knocked down your walls; weaseling her way into your heart. After everything that you had gone through with her, how could you not care for the girl?
Ellie, Joel, and you had made your way back to Jackson after your journey; traumatized and exhausted. But at least you three were alive.
Maria and Tommy were able to put the three of you in a house that you hoped would become your home. You had no plans to leave the safe space and neither did Joel and Ellie.
It shocked you how quickly the three of you were able to fall into a domestic routine. Ellie went to school, Joel worked with Tommy wherever help was needed, and you helped in the garden.
You had not had a routine in years, instead focusing your energy on surviving each day with Joel. But you didn't mind the lack thereof, you lived for the thrill of waking up each day not knowing what was the come. It was the easiest way for you to cope with the way the world had changed over the past twenty years.
The past four months changed you though, for the better. You often looked back on your past self with disgust at how you could act the way you did. To not let people in and treat others with hatred. But Joel taught you how to sympathize with your younger self; how to look at them and let your heart ache. Given the circumstances of having to fight for your life each day, your hardness and lack of kindness made sense.
You had no other choice.
Ellie came back from school one day to you and Joel cuddled up on the couch, his head in your lap snoring softly.
You flashed her a smile and quietly asked about her day. She mumbled something about it being fine and took a step closer to you both. "Were family dinners a thing that people actually did back before-" she paused, taking a moment to think of the right phrasing. "Well, everything?"
Your eyebrows furrowed together in confusion. "Huh?"
"It's just that-" she started, taking a seat on the chair next to the couch. "We watched a film at school and they were eating all together at the table and I thought that was weird but when I said something about it, all the kids- they uh- they looked at me like I was crazy?" her voice trailed up at the end.
"Ah," you exhaled, fingers tangled in Joel's hair. Ellie didn't like not knowing everything, you and her were alike in that aspect.
"I don't know why I asked- it's stupid and like it doesn't matter-" Ellie rambled on, popping up from her seat on the couch causing Joel to stir in his sleep from the sudden noise.
"Ellie-" you interrupted gently. "Would you like for us all to have dinner together? Seated a table?"
Her shoulders lowered, the tension leaving her body in an instant. "Yeah," she sighed. "Would that be okay?"
Your cheeks pinched up with a smile, "Of course, babygirl. Anything for you."
A noise of excitement left her lips before she slapped her hand over her mouth, looking to Joel to see if he would wake. You kept as still as humanly possible, hoping that he wouldn't wake. A second passed and he didn't further stir as the both of you let out the air in your lungs. She mouthed a 'sorry' at you before bounding up the stairs to her room.
"Y/N?" Joel questioned, causing your heart to leap in fear.
"Jesus, Joel! I didn't know you were awake!" you clutched your pounding heart, praying that it wouldn't fall out of your chest. He snickered, rotating his body so he was looking up at you from your lap.
"Family dinner?"
"Yeah, now get up and help me get ready."
The two of you spent the next couple of hours preparing a meal for the three of you. This was the most carefree you had ever seen Joel before. Things felt, for lack of a better word, normal.
It was weird.
But amazing.
Joel laughed and spun you around the kitchen, attacking your sides when you tried to actually get something done. You would slap his hand away, giggling to yourself, begging him to stop. By the end, your cheeks ached from smiling.
Both of you were proud by the end of it, even going as far as to invite Maria, Tommy, and their new baby over to join you for the meal.
You greeted your guests at the door, enjoying playing hostess as you grabbed their coats, ushering them into the living room so you could all talk before sharing a meal.
"Ellie!" you called up to her as everyone took their seats. She came barreling down the stairs and practically jumped into the space next to you on the couch. You slung a lazy arm over her as she leaned into your side, soaking up the comfort of the situation.
Ellie felt as though she was in one of the films she had watched in class, curled up next to you laughing with the adults of the room as the baby cooed in Joel's arms.
"Hey!" you exclaimed towards Joel. "Don't be such a hog, the baby wants to see her aunt and cousin too!"
Ellie felt her heart stop.
Cousin?
She was considered the baby's cousin.
You removed your arms from Ellie's shoulders as you took the baby from Joel's arms, cradling her to your chest and rocking her gently. Her little eyes looked up to you as she made quiet noises, little hands reaching up to your face.
"Hi baby, hi."
Ellie watched over your shoulder, trying to make the funniest faces she could to get the baby's attention.
The conversation continued to roar while drinks were poured, but the little baby did not leave your arms and neither did Ellie leave your side.
Stomachs started to rumble when Joel suggested you move the party to the dining room table. Maria took the baby from your arms and popped upstairs to lay her down in a crib in one of the rooms. She very subtly (not) made sure to set the three of you up in a house with a crib in case you and Joel ever thought of having a child together.
Tommy, Maria, and Ellie took a seat at the table, Tommy quizzing Ellie on the things she was learning in school while you and Joel finished putting the final touches on everything.
You felt him come up to your back, lacing his hands around your body and pulling you into his chest. He buried his face into your hair, his breath hot on your skin.
"Hey," he mumbled, letting his eyes shut with contentment.
"Hey, cowboy."
"This is nice," he spoke, pulling his head up.
"Well," you spun around to face him, placing your hands on his chest. "Make sure you thank Ellie, this was her idea."
You could not deny the happy ache in your chest at his bright smile. He leaned forward and pressed his lips to your own. He tried to deepen it but you shoved him away with a laugh.
"We have guests!"
He gave you a wink before picking up the bowl of salad and making his way back out to the table.
You followed close behind carrying a tray. Ellie cheered as you set everything down at the table.
"It looks great, thanks guys," Maria spoke with a smile, starting to pass around the food as soon as you and Joel sat down.
"Make sure to thank Ellie, she was the one who suggested that we do this," you laughed, giving her a playful kick underneath the table.
"Well thank you, Ellie," Tommy announced, loading salad onto his plate.
The conversation flowed, covering each and every topic imaginable.
Ellie grew quiet as the dinner progressed, eyes growing heavy with tiredness from her day at school and the excitement of the night.
You sipped your drink, glancing over to her to check up on her lack of speech.
"Tired?" you questioned, letting Joel tell an embarrassing story of Tommy from when he was a kid to Maria.
Ellie looked up from her plate to meet your eyes. She shrugged in response.
"Want to go up to sleep?" you questioned, raising your eyebrow.
She shook her head vigorously, anxiety levels starting to rise at the thought of leaving. She wished this moment was written down, so she could read it and relive it over and over again. It was true perfection.
You narrowed your eyes, "Let's go up. They're probably going to head out in a couple."
Ellie frowned, crossing her hands over her chest in defiance.
You rolled your eyes, tapping Joel lightly on the shoulder to let him know you were going to take Ellie up to bed. She wearily bid them goodbye, trudging up the stairs with you following close behind. You followed her into her room and sat down on the bed, letting her excuse herself to the bathroom to get ready for bed.
You absentmindedly ran your hand over the blanket covering her bed, tracing light patterns into it. You heard the found of her soft feet on the floor padding over to the bed, where she took a seat next to you.
She let her head fall on your shoulders as the two of you sat in comfortable silence.
"Thank you," she whispered, breaking that silence.
You hummed in response, "Thank you for suggesting it."
She was quiet again, blinks becoming slower and longer. She lived for moments like this, moments where she didn't have to ask for you to stay while she fell asleep; moments where you just would.
Your fingers wracked through the strands of her hair. You could sense there was something on her mind. "What are you thinking about?"
Ellie sighed through her nose. "Did you mean it when you said I was the baby's cousin?"
"What?" you questioned, turning your head to look down at her.
She pushed her head further into your shoulder, not wanting to look up at you in case you said no. "You said you were the baby's aunt and I was a cousin."
"Yeah?" you questioned, hoping she would expand.
"Oh," she breathed, quieting again. You became nervous she was going to fall asleep on you so you guided her into her covers, making sure she was cozy. She made a noise of defiance but eventually surrendered realizing how warm it was. "Will you stay?"
"Always," you smiled, laying a gentle hand on her cheek before going to sit in the chair in her room. You watched, thinking she would drift off to sleep immediately, but she didn't.
That's when it hit you.
What she was getting at.
You said that she was a part of the family and she didn't know what to make of that.
If to believe it.
"Ellie?" you spoke up in the silence.
"Yeah?" she responded, her voice raspy from the beginning stages of sleep.
"You know-" you paused. "You know you're a part of this family, right? You are family to us."
Ellie felt her entire body still, tears immediately starting to swell in her eyes.
Holy fuck did it feel amazing to hear that.
"Yeah," she croaked, hoping that her voice wouldn't give away the happy tears streaming down her face.
You smiled to yourself as you watched her entire body relax, sending her almost straight into sleep.
"Goodnight, Ellie."
"Goodnight, mom."
Now you couldn't stop the tears from streaming down your face as she drifted off into a restful sleep. You stood up as soon as you heard her quiet snores and placed a gentle kiss on her forehead, "Sweet dreams, babygirl."
You shut off the light and closed the door gently, creeping down the stairs. Tears still seeping out of your eyes as you found Joel washing up in the kitchen. His face showed panic the second he saw your tears.
"What's wrong-"
"Ellie called me mom," you cut him off with a sob. He pulled you into your chest as you cried.
Cried for the happiness you felt.
Cried for the despair of what brought the three of you together.
Cried the first tears of motherhood.
Joel shushed you, holding you tight to his chest. Ignoring the swell of his own heart. Damn domesticity and the emotions that came with being safe. He held you til your eyes dried.
He pulled you away from his chest to look into your eyes. "Okay?" he questioned.
You nodded, wiping away the remaining tears. "Yeah."
His eyes narrowed, lips creeping up into a smile.
"Does this mean that I am daddy?"
You smack him in the chest.
"Shut up, Joel."
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summary: you are found (part I)
Joel Miller x daughter!reader, Tommy Miller x niece!reader
warnings: angst, reunion, violence, infected, happy ending :))
not sure if i like this as much as the first part but i hope yall do. i just want to thank you all for the response to my past few fics (especially your bear). its been unreal. i stopped writing for a while and these were my first ones back so this was an insane response to it! thank you so much for your love and appreciation it really does mean a lot!
also! i tagged basically everybody who left a comment asking for part 2 - sorry if thats annoying idk ive never done a taglist before. thanks for the comments tho :)
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22 Years Ago…
The world around you screamed for help. People ran around, skin on fire, missing massive chunks.
You wailed as they passed, hands tightened around your ears. You just wanted to find help. You wanted to save Sarah. This wasn’t what you expected.
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punching my pillow rn
Soooooo, aren't we gonna talk about this?
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