Also Me.

^w^

seeing as i want to move to finland with my partner, i definitely want to move from where i am

When people tell me to act rationally and think before doing anything… there’s a voice in the back of my head that’s like “if only they knew, how much it hurts to think, how much effort I put in to… think”, like let’s be honest, if you knew me in high school you’d be impressed by my intelligence… now if you ask a question I sit there and tilt my head to the side and eventually tell you to go ask a rock or a tree or something.

The puppybrain has taken over, there’s one brain cell on a treadmill keeping the lights on and then doing nothing else, head empty… I pretty much only think with my body, does it feel nice or get you things that feel nice? Do it, does it feel bad or get you things that feel bad? Don’t do it.

I have simple brain with simple needs, the needs are pretty much just praise and affection, if I fail to get enough of these I shut down, from stress or depression or otherwise.

It’s almost like I’m puppy… except unlike the things that are born with fur and a tail and 4 legs, I’m expected to think and not let my emotions control me… even if it’s a detriment to my mental and therefore physical health.

Idk… maybe I’m too complacent with my own existence.

i just want it to end...

i'm starting to hate the world… everything happening is stressing me out, i can hardly eat, hardly sleep, i just wanna be happy… but every time i start to get to the point where my happiness is found another horrible things happens… at this point it's hard to imagine a world where i'd feel safe to be me and not what i was told to be, and where i could love who i want to… i'm never gonna stop being me, and i'm never gonna stop loving the people i love… but at this point there's a not so insignificant chance that my existence gets snuffed out, my body cast aside and left to rot, next to everyone else who just wanted to be themselves and not what people told them they had to be... and i know it'll get better, but i'm doubting any of us currently alive today will see the time where it is better for us, and if we do there's gonna be a new generation of people who are oppressed, whether they bleed red or green or black, whether they have skin or exoskeleton or sheet metal, and whether they experience emotions like we do or not... there will always be another weak minority to train hate on, another group of sentient beings who only want to exist as they see themselves and to not be labeled as undesirables for it... until the end of earth there will always be these struggles, and even after earth there still may, idk what could be out there in the vastness of space, but what i do know is eventually this rock we all exist on will be vaporized along with the death of our solar system... i just wish everyone understood that we live in orbit of a ticking timebomb and hate is a waste, we will cease existing and none of it will matter anyway because we will all just become spacedust in the end, and when the universe collapses we won't even be that.

Rosie ft. nihilism.

no, 12 year old me would however idolize my current body and wish they had it already

Would your 12 year old self recognize you?

last year... the dentist pressured me into doing it instead of a removal

Have you ever gotten a root canal?

it's all furry hentai xD

Is your phone photo library mostly reaction images, memes, pictures of fictional characters, etc.?

Call me dude and I’ll rip my balls off infront of you and force you to eat them

Do you view the word "dude" as gendered?

Yis

yes... at my great grandmas while i was 8, it was to call my parents to bring me home (she kept asking who i was and why i was there, it was scary to me and not long after that day she was put in an old folks home)

have you ever made a call from a rotary phone?