I Hate It Here - Taylor Swift

is this a safe space? i hate writing sex scenes.

that’s like the one thing i try my hardest to include very little of. but it’s hard bc i know some people enjoy reading those scenes when it comes to romance stories specifically, (which is completely fine! no judgement whatsoever!) i just hate writing them😭

i much prefer alluding to it or transitioning into a scene break/cut. but like i said, i know some readers enjoy reading those moments so i force myself to include some crumbs of it. which is fine, i guess. i’ll survive how awkward i feel, no big deal

happy one year anniversary to what has become my go to album as a mentally ill girly who has literally never gotten over anything ever: the tortured mental illness- i mean the tortured poets department🖤🤍

easily a top 3 taylor album for me!

and a special shoutout to my favorite songs on the album:

peter (HUGE fav, probably #1), who’s afraid of little old me? (another HUGE fav), so long london, the prophecy (SAD fav), my boy only breaks his favorite toys (UNDERRATED fav), the bolter, guilty as sin, fresh out the slammer, loml, down bad, cassandra, i hate it here, how did it end?, so high school, i can do it with a broken heart, the alchemy, chloe or sam or sophia or marcus, the smallest man who ever lived & i look in people’s windows

no i don’t think you guys are actually getting it… i look in people’s windows… in case you’re at their table… what if your eyes looked up and met. mine.. one… more…. time?

i love when i write out a scene idea (with plans to incorporate it into the storyline) and then i sit at my computer desk to do just that and my characters are just like:

“nah, we’ll take it from here tyvm.”

and i’m just like: oh ok! yes chef🫡

i can’t tell you how many “deleted scenes” i have in my notes app because my characters love to take the wheel from me🙄

and then you have to go back and rewrite some of what you’ve already written to accommodate what your character just came up with.. *insert eye twitch*

Writing is wild because you’ll plan a perfectly structured scene and then your character is like

“actually I’m gonna kiss this person now” or “what if I had a traumatic backstory I’ve never mentioned before”

and suddenly you’re spiraling because THEY’RE MAKING CHOICES and you’re just the poor little author with no control

like sir. ma’am. i gave you life. and now you’re rewriting your own plot??

Reblog this and tell me the most unhinged thing a character of yours did without permission.

I need solidarity. i need chaos. i need to know i’m not the only one getting bullied by their own cast.

I fuckin KNEW IT!

help i’m inching closer and closer towards cementing a plot point that’s been planned for sometime now and i’m *dreading* officially writing it so badly omg😭

but as it is written… it shall be done😪 (i’m already sobbing profusely)

currently only available on kindle unlimited through amazon 🦋🧡☀️

grumpy x sunshine, i hate everyone but you, four core female group, brother’s best friend, troubled girl x sunshine boy, secret relationships, poor girl x wealthy boy, small town romance, found family, childhood best friends to lovers, it’ll always be/it’ll never be you, dual/multiple pov, sapphic romance, slow burn romance, forbidden romance, one bed trope, fake dating… and more.

!!! music is one of my biggest inspirations when it comes to writing

Authors listen to music!

Listen to music while thinking of your characters and books and such!

Idk how many times i’ve been listening to music and think “oh this sounds like so and so” and I haven’t even started to get into their personality yet.

Same goes for characters and relationships with other characters. I just made a playlist for two of my characters that I had never even thought about being a couple at all…and one song and now i’ve got to come up with some way for them to meet and fall in love.

Side note: One is a prince/military leader and the other is a commoner. Though that may change since I haven’t even began to get into their personal lore.

Music is just too powerful to ever think about not using to enhance my writing/worldbuilding/ character designs.