Is It Sad That I Constantly Seek Out Love But When It Stares Me Straight In The Face, The Doubts And

Is it sad that I constantly seek out love but when it stares me straight in the face, the doubts and deeply buried insecurities tell me that I am a burden that shouldn't hinder others with my existence. Am I the only one that feels this way? I go to others to seek out praise and validation only to be told I'm so ****ing sexy and that I should send nudes. That I should become what they want me to. Do things I am not comfortable with. Is this all my value has succumbed to? My friends, family, and everyone I talk to tells me no but I find myself lacking the confidence to believe myself when my own mind is against me too. Sometimes I don't know who I am anymore. I dont like the person my thoughts make me or the way others words make me feel? Is it wrong to need validation from others? Is it wrong to just want some help, and coddling, and reassurance? I dont know why I am even looking for a daddy anymore? Why should I when if he wants to meet and get to know me he would be faced with all my problems? I wouldn't wish that on him or anyone. Maybe I am better off alone. I dont know if this is goodbye, or a very long see you later. I dont know if I'll post or if I'll ever come on here again. I really dont know.