Me When I Really Really Wanna Interact With My Mutuals But I Also Have Crippling Social Anxiety So I

how do people even make friends??

I CAN'T for my life, just approach someone irl or on the internet💀

Like I KNOW when I'm really interested in talking to a person I'm supposed to go and text them and stuff but like it feels weird??? I WANNA MAKE FRIENDS BUT HOW?

Tori Spring deserves everything in the world, by the way.

I am Myrtie, God of high school musical

ok i sound like a cool god

I am Arran, god of the most important thing

EDIT: if y'all don’t wanna use your name use your username

throwback to the time when i spent my entire new year's eve making heartstopper leaves and sticking them up on my wall because i had a realization that i was probably in love with my best friend and that was also the first time i fell in love with a girl so like I NEEDED to be dramatic about it

What a queer way to kick off the new year tho

I'm not even jealous anymore tbh because i stay in my room all day so I can't expect everyone to want to hang out with me😭

Why can’t it be me

that scene where charlie is on a call with nick and he's trying so hard to tell him how he's been and he puts the phone away for a while so he can budge up and tell him that nick was right IS THE SCENE FOR ME. It felt so personal tbh because there are times when you are not able to even speak even if you want to and you are trying so hard to not tear up and tell them what's really going on BUT IT'S SO HARD IN REALITY. The way nick feels bad because he can't figure out ways to fix charlie and his aunt telling him that maybe he can't feels so right for a lot of reasons. I JUST TEAR UP WATCHING THAT SCENE because it feels very personal on so many levels.

the way heartstopper talks about mental health is so so important to me. "love can't cure mental illness". charlie having to write down how he's feeling so he can talk about it. the pain of struggling & also the pain of loving someone who's struggling. having to wait so long to get in to see a doctor. the anger & shutting down.

i have so much love for the kindness & directness with which this show showcases mental health.

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that's so nice to hear omg

also yeah im aware everyone over analyzes stuff but they can act like they're over it whereas i cannot idk im just a bad pretender ig or i don't wanna hide how i feel

@potential-sapphic-friend

story time!!

found this in my camera roll dated 3 years

so back when i was 15, I had a friend who'd recently come out as bi to me. we were learning reproductive plants at the time and we'd learnt about sexual & asexual plants.

and we'd also recently learnt that hibiscus is a bisexual plant..as in with both female and male reproductive parts.

so guess what I started calling that friend lol for a good few weeks?

yes I'd started calling her hibiscus for a while after that lmao

me when i finally do something I've been dying to do for AGES and it doesn't turn out the way it was supposed to: