Tw Emotional Abuse, Eating Disorders, Self Harm, Cancer Cw

tw emotional abuse, eating disorders, self harm, cancer cw

Okay I hate to do this again but it’s my last resort

As some of you might know this year has been absolutely awful for me and my mother, she had to go through a complicated and lengthy treatment for brain cancer, luckily most of it was paid by the government owned oil company she works for, but still we had to spend a LOT of money on the stuff they didn’t cover, ever since her first cancer diagnosis about 4 years ago we had to move here to this little town in the south of mexico where my mom is from, so she could be close to her family, unfortunately we have not been able to leave, not after she went into remission the first time and not this time.

Money has always been tight for us, but things have not been this bad ever since my father left and took all our money leaving us homeless when I was 5, the state owned oil company my mom works for is being severely affected by the energetic reforms imposed by the current administration, temporary workers like my mom were being hired for about one month out of every 2, the last 6 months that went to a month long contract every 3 months and just today all temporary workers like my mom were notified that they will not be hired anymore until maybe summer of next year. Even though my mental illness makes it difficult for me to hold a job and esp now I started (long distance) college and i have the pressure to maintain a 80% average score on all my classes to keep my scholarship, I have tried time and time to find a job, even a minimum wage one to be able to save enough money to leave but i simply can’t find one, very few places are hiring and those very few like subway and local supermarkets simply don’t ever call me back.

To say out situation is desperate doesn’t begin to describe it, we had to leave our house cause even though last time i made a donation post i got enough to pay the late months eventually we couldn’t pay anymore, with absolutely no other choice we had to move into my aunt’s spare service room (bottom pic) that not only is barely 3 x 3 meters, but we have to endure cockroaches and rat plagues and the room flooding everytime it rains (which makes me really worried about my mom’s health since we sleep on the floor) but the worst of all, we have to endure our family’s emotional abuse.

I’ve posted a lot about it since there can’t be a day where they don’t do something awful, from little insidious comments about my mom’s physical health, like saying she deserved/earned cancer, or her age, telling her things like her life is over now that she’s 50 and that all she can aspire to now is living in this rat infested room from my aunt’s charity so she shouldn’t even try anything else, to the way they openly despise me and while they claim they don’t believe i’m mentally ill they often steal or hide my things to then deny i ever had them to make me believe i’m imagining things or they withhold food from us or lock us out of the house/inside of the room continuously, basically we just can’t stand a day more here, it’s literally destroying us, my mother has daily headaches, cries every night and can never sleep, i’ve basically fallen back into all my self destructive behaviors i was so proud of leaving behind like cutting, drinking and smoking and given the power these people have over our food my ed is completely out of control to the point im seriously concerned about my health because of all the dizziness and cold sweats i get.

Like i said, our situation is desperate, like never before. My mom’s current and last contract ends in nov 13, we absolutely need to get out of here, but it would be pointless to just move to another house/apartment if we don’t have a way to pay for it, which is why we need to move to Tijuana, where we lived before. Unlike this small town that lives only from the state owned oil company, Tijuana is a big and diverse city with a lot of job opportunities, esp for someone bilingual like me but even for someone my mom’s age, there’s also a lot of more affordable and flexible housing options like trailer parks, and public hospitals where me and my mom could get the medical care we need.

With all we’ve been saving we only need about 5000 (about 302 dollars with the current exchange) pesos to move there, mostly because tijuana is so far away we need to take a 10 hour bus ride and a 3 hours flight and that is pricey, but also to have some money for food until I get my first paycheck and in between the checks I get from my scholarship.

I know I’ve asked for help before, and I also know there’s people who are in even more desperate situations than us, but I truly wouldn’t do this if i had any other choice, but my father has refused to help me in any way and there’s no one else we can borrow money from cause well we owe a lot already (about 80k pesos), truly anything, 1 or 2 dollars help, if not to buy the tickets at least for a meal, there’s a donation button on my blog, and my paypal is cats.and.lollipops@gmail.com (don’t laugh) and please please, if this post annoys you or upset you just block it or block me but please do refrain from sending mean anons, thanks a lot.

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Where are those woke white people at!?

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9 years ago

hey be sure to block steven-universe-edits and stevens-alternate-universe and steven-did-nothing-wrong as they are all piss poor attempts at shitting on su characters by recoloring them white/thin as well as recoloring gemsonas

don’t interact with them, don’t feed them. they only want to get a rise out of you. it may be tempting, but reblogging their posts is only making it worse by encouraging them. i mean it. DO NOT INTERACT WITH THEM.

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9 years ago

We Need Your Help!!

Recently my job has been severely cutting hours. To the point where my partner and I have been working bare minimum and they refuse to let us take on more hours than scheduled. Which doesn’t sound like a big problem, but we barely afford everything when we work 40hrs+overtime.

With this recent cut, we can afford rent and very few bills.

Our rent is around 800$, plus car insurance, phone bills and my medical bills.

What we can NOT afford is food. We’re eating all that’s left in our cupboard right now, but that will run out soon. Even when we get paid next this week, it won’t be enough to feed us through the following week.

We get paid minimum wage. And we are about to starve.

So what can you do to help?

We’re not asking for much but every little bit helps.

You can commission me or simply donate to our paypal: soeki-pixie@live.com

My commission post is here, but you can see more examples of my art here.

Please consider helping us out. Both my partner and I would really appreciate it.

Please signal boost if you can, Thank you!!

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9 years ago

Anonymous Is Calling For A National “day Of Rage” In Response To Sandra Bland

Anonymous is calling for a national “day of rage” in response to Sandra Bland

In a video uploaded to YouTube by an account named AnonIntelGroup, which already has more than 1 million views, persons claiming to be affiliated with the enclave pointed to discrepancies in the official police story on Bland’s death. In the video description, the account owner makes demands action from every police chief in the country.

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9 years ago

BREAKING: Another Black Woman Dies While In Police Custody, The Third Black Woman To Die Under Questionable Circumstances in Less Than Two Weeks

Ralkina Jones is the third African-American woman to die under questionable circumstances while in police custody in less than two weeks.

An Ohio woman died while in police custody in the Cleveland Heights jail early on Sunday morning. Ralkina Jones, 37, was picked up after a domestic dispute in a parking lot with her ex-husband on Friday night.

According to the incident report, Jones drove to a local business and smashed the driver’s side window a Ford Expedition belonging to her ex-husband, Brandon Jones. She also attempted to smash the windshield of the vehicle. Police say that when her ex-husband came outside to the parking lot to try to stop her, Jones scratched his face and hit him with a tire iron, causing a 2- to 3-inch cut. Family members toldlocal media that the incident occurred at her ex-husband’s place of work.

After her ex-husband got the tire iron away from Jones and walked away from the fight with a friend, Jones got back in her car and tried to run over the two men. Jones’s 12-year-old daughter, Kayla, was in the backseat of her car during the incident.

An independent witness at the scene corroborated Brandon Jones’s version of the dispute. However, according to the incident report, Jones told police that he didn’t want to press charges against his ex-wife.

Ralkina Jones was arrested and charged with felonious assault, domestic violence, and child endangerment. She was then taken to Cleveland Heights jail.

According to a press release issued by the Cleveland Heights police on Monday, Jones was placed in a cell at approximately 10:25 p.m. on Friday night. She had blood on her but no serious injuries, according to police.

At around 7:15 p.m. the next day, Jones appeared “lethargic” in her cell and was transported to the Cleveland hospital, HealthSpan. Four hours later, she was transported back to the jail.

After this the police information starts to become unclear. According to the police, a little over an hour after she arrived back at the jail, the paramedics were called a second time for Jones for an unspecified reason. The police say the paramedics “determined her vitals to be normal” at that time and Jones was thereafter given routine checks throughout the night.

Jones died some time early Sunday morning. The police did not say how many times she was checked during the night or what time she died.

The Cuyahoga County Medical Examiner completed Jones’s autopsy on Monday and it revealed no suspicious injuries. The exact cause of death is yet to be determined.

BuzzFeed News reached out to Cleveland Heights Police Chief Jeffrey Robertson to ask why Jones was held for over a day after her ex-husband declined to press charges, why the paramedics were called a second time for Jones, why she was not taken to the hospital, how many times she was checked during the night, and what time she died, but he has not yet responded.

Jones’s is the third high-profile death of an African-American woman while in police custody in two weeks. On July 13, 28-year-old Sandra Bland died while in custody in Texas, and then one day later 18-year-old Kindra Chapman died in Alabama. Both women allegedly hanged themselves in their cells, and their deaths have been ruled suicides by officials.

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9 years ago

‘I Don’t Want To Die In Your Cell,’ Woman Told Police Shortly Before Dying In Jail

‘I Don’t Want To Die In Your Cell,’ Woman Told Police Shortly Before Dying In Jail

A recently released video shows Ralkina Jones discussing her multiple health issues with police.

Find out exactly what transpired here.

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9 years ago

“Defensive Architecture” Aimed At The Homeless As A Deliberate, Considered Kind Of Cruelty.

“Defensive architecture” aimed at the homeless as a deliberate, considered kind of cruelty.

By Lisa Wade, PhD

I encourage everyone to go read this very smart and very sad essay from Alex Andreuo at The Guardian. It’s a condemnation of defensive architecture, a euphemism for strategies that make the urban landscape inhospitable to the homeless.

They include benches with dividers that make it impossible to lie down, spikes and protrusions on window ledges and in front of store windows, forests of pointed cement structures under bridges and freeways, emissions of high pitched sounds, and sprinklers that intermittently go off on sidewalks to prevent camping overnight. There is also perpetually sticky anti-climb paint and corner urination guards, plus “viewing gardens” that take up space that might be attractive to homeless people:

The examples above and below are from a collection at Dismal Garden. Here’s a picture of anti-encampment spikes featured at The Guardian:

This is to discourage urination:

This is to take up space so people can’t camp on the sidewalk:

Andreuo writes of the psychological effect of these structures. They tell homeless people quite clearly that they are not wanted and that others not only don’t care, but are actively antagonistic to their comfort and well being. He says:

Defensive architecture is revealing on a number of levels, because it is not the product of accident or thoughtlessness, but a thought process. It is a sort of unkindness that is considered, designed, approved, funded and made real with the explicit motive to exclude and harass. It reveals how corporate hygiene has overridden human considerations…

If the corporations have turned to aggressive tactics, governments seem to simply be in denial. They offer few resources to homeless people and the ones they do offer are insufficient to serve everyone. Andreuo continues:

We curse the destitute for urinating in public spaces with no thought about how far the nearest free public toilet might be. We blame them for their poor hygiene without questioning the lack of public facilities for washing… Free shelters, unless one belongs to a particularly vulnerable group, are actually extremely rare.

He then connects the dots. “Fundamental misunderstanding of destitution,” he argues, “is designed to exonerate the rest from responsibility and insulate them from perceiving risk.” If homeless people are just failing to do right by themselves or take the help available to them, then only they are to blame for their situation. And, if only they are to blame, we don’t have to worry that, given just the right turn of events, it could happen to us.

Lisa Wade is a professor of sociology at Occidental College and the co-author of Gender: Ideas, Interactions, Institutions. You can follow her on Twitter and Facebook.

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