Therefore, Do Not Hesitate To Make A Mistake And Continue Searching Until You Find The Right Person.

Mentari samar merasuk ke dalam sukma, membangunkan jiwa yang masih ingin direngkuh oleh malam. Kendati demikian, jejak-jejak jiwamu kembali menyapa alam bawah sadar, menginatkan mata agar lekas terbuka walau sayup-sayup.

Nihil pesan baru tak buat hati jadi masygul, karena yang paling menggubah bahagia adalah menelusuri sajak pesan penuh rayuan-rayuan malu sisa semalam. Sudah pagi, tapi bibir ini t’lah bentukkan sabit senyum, merona-rona pipi mengingat gurauan Tuan.

Maka tenggelamlah dinda ini ke dalam perinduan akanmu, dan rasa ini sekiranya akan tinggal sampai waktu yang tak tentu. Detik, menit, jam, terhabiskan dengan menggoreskan asa tentang kamu, kamu, kamu lagi. Tinta-tinta t’lah warnai kertas, gambarkan rayuan-rayuan lain yang siap memakanmu hingga habis tak tersisa. Kala selesai menulis, rindu itu datang lagi...

Oh, mabuk rindu sudah diri ini...

My Poems Collection So Far (2019-2024)

The Beloved.

It's always been you, these days. The brittle heart of mine can only fit you in there without breaking to pieces. The happiness you infused into my veins, making my whole body throbbing feverishly. Hence, it's your presence alone that can calm me down from the adrenaline rush, just like a pill Xanax.

I am aware of the tenuous string we both trying to hold on, but it wouldn't be a sin to wish that this string can last for a longer time, so that we don't have to say goodbye to each other.

October 24th 2024

Introduction.

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Things to consider before followed her on X (formerly Twitter):

The account is mostly about books, journaling, and cafe hopping related content. Pictures are hers and not for commercial use. Pictures that aren't taken by her would be shared with credit to the owner.

She does soft-blocking almost all the time with accounts she rarely interacted with, to keep her circle small and her timeline familiar. There's no need to take it as offensive action since she didn't put any mind into it.

There would be NSFW content such as interaction, harsh words, profanities, books' theme, so the account is not so much family friend. It's no minor area.

A lot of spoilers, please be aware.

⋅ Isabelle Amanda Hennschen is the name. You may call me with Isa ⋅ A Taurus through, and through. ⋅ Languages spoken are English, Indonesian, High Valyrian (ˢᵒ ˡⁱᵗᵗˡᵉ), German (ˢᵒ ˡⁱᵗᵗˡᵉ) ⋅ Choosing dark/light academia as her aesthetic used avatar: Emily Carey, Kim Dami

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⠀⠀⁀➴ HOBBIES

⋆ Reading ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ I love to read, mostly classics and essays. Not to mention, Indonesian historical fiction too. These are my favorite books from all time: The Secret History, Tetralogi Pulau Buru, I, 1984, The Stranger, Homage to Catalonia, Animal Farm, The Jakarta Method, The Universe of Us, A Song of Ice and Fire, and Gadis Pantai.

⋆ Musics ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ Genre: RnB, Lo-Fi, Classics, K-Pop, Pop, Folk Artist(s): BTS, Claude Debussy, Keshi, New Jeans, Novo Amor, SZA, Summer Walker, The Weeknd, Franz Gordon, KIOF, Rini, Niki, Thuy, Nadin Amizah, etc.

⋆ Writing and Journaling ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ As for me, writing and reading come in the same package. The more I read, the more dying I am to write my abundance amount of thoughts. My writing mostly about yearning, devotion, and infinite sums of adoration toward people or fictional character I fancy. Journaling is one thing, yet book commentary is another thing I did beside pouring down thoughts about life and universe in general.

Pikiran yang Racau.

“Apa betul yang datang padamu adalah kasih setia tak bertepi, ataukah kesepian yang sedang mengerubungi sanubari waras?” adalah tanyaku yang tak mampu dibisikkan padamu, sehingga aku beralih pada mencari ganggang yang tumbuh liar di sungai-sungai kumuh Jakarta. Betul-lah itu, bahwa aku tak tahan dengan busuknya limbah, tapi aku pun tak lebih tahan untuk hidup tanpa menulis tentangmu barang sehari saja.

Dan inilah aku dan rasa tak sampaiku padamu Sang Bintang kecil yang berkelip terang nun jauh di samudera misteri Bimasakti, sungguhlah berani yang bodoh, bagi lumpur di pinggiran Ciliwung untuk mendamba kejora yang cantiknya kekal beribu tahun.

Berduka-lah aku dan hatiku, seketika merasa seperti debuan aspal proyek yang tak kunjung selesai, terbengkalai dan menyusahkan, hanya bisa mengangakan mulut menerima serpihan batu kerikil yang terlempar ke dalam perut dan bertemu asam lambung.

October 28th 2024

I love X (formerly Twitter), it helps find cute things.

Saturday's study log and reflections.

Jakarta on that Saturday was quite solemn, despite the news that has broken so many people's hearts. People—from high school students to middle- and lower-class workers, individuals to organizations and political parties—took to the streets (specifically in front of the House of Representatives at Senayan and the KPU - General Elections Commission - at Menteng) to protest recent political events that felt like violations of Indonesia's fundamental laws. The protests began on August 22, 2024, and continued on August 23 and August 24, although the last two days weren't as massive as the first.

As someone who studies Human Rights and a small portion of international law, what these masses of people did in Jakarta and other cities in Indonesia is solid evidence of how people in this country still love democracy and want it to remain the government's solemn system. The protests they voiced (and will keep voicing until their goals are accomplished) help to restore the checks and balances that the government of Indonesia seems to have forgotten, as they have become drunk with power.

Many protesters were hurt, and some even lost their eyes. It's heartbreaking that the cost of democracy is the blood of its own people who need it the most.

This massive event reflects what I've been studying these past two months in my EDX course: Human Rights, Human Wrong. I've learned how a government can be both the protector and the abuser of its own people. What happened in Indonesia is a clear example. This realization has deepened my understanding of the delicate balance required to maintain a just society and the courage needed to stand up against injustice.

I may not take part in the protest directly, but let me do my part by sharing the stories of people who came back home safely and how they cried about their friends' brutal abductions by police. Let me share the screams for justice of people who are moving en masse to regain the utmost power of democracy. Their courage and determination inspire me to use my voice to amplify their cause, ensuring that their struggles are not forgotten.

Let the government realize how easily they can gain power, and how easily it can slip away from their hands. Democracy is not just a system but a living, breathing entity that requires constant vigilance and care from both the governed and those who govern.

Thursday Study Log

Lucerys wip that I desperately need to finish/edit

Today, I write about you.