Laboratoire 2/n 🥼

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“Letters Never Sent”

In flickering light of an oil lamp’s glow,

A boy bends low with ink to sow

The trembling truth he’s never said—

A name, a thought, a heart he bled.

“Dear Lillian,” begins the page,

Penned with hands not yet of age.

His breath held tight, his pulse a thread,

Words unsent, but fully meant.

By the mailbox in the rain,

He stands alone with hope and strain.

Will it reach? Will she reply?

Or will it fade before goodbye?

But footsteps break the quiet night,

She stands beneath the softened light.

She sees the note, she meets his eyes—

No thunder, only small surprise.

She reads, she smiles—no words are said,

But silence glows where fear had bled.

He sees his world within her glance,

And knows he’s had his one true chance.

The years unfold like folded notes,

Soft creases pressed through all he wrote.

They meet again, and once again,

Beside the box where love began.

A letter passed through wrinkled hands,

A bench, a smile, the same old stand.

He reads alone, though not unblessed—

For some replies live in the chest.

Now rain falls soft on rusted blue,

Where children stop and read it too.

And etched in brass beneath the light:

“May all love letters find their flight.”

— Amal El-Mohtar, from This Is How You Lose the Time War (via lunamonchtuna)

A rainbow… of drugs!

home 🧡

13 March 2025

The crystallochem situation is absolutely insane. I sign up for this class even though I really truly don't want to bc I know how ridiculously hard it's going to be. I only do it bc my thesis supervisor wants me to do it. The class turns out to be even harder than I thought it would be and the professor turns out to be an awful teacher. The first test starts to approach and I'm so terrified it makes me cry and gives me nervous headaches. I've never failed a test and now I seriously begin to worry this one will be the first one, but I still work my butt off studying for it. The test comes, then the results. Over half the group fails. I score 87% and the only person who gets a better score is preparing for an olympiad in crystallography. Absolutely bonkers.

When I tell you crystallo is the most difficult class I've ever taken, I mean it. But now I feel powerful and unstoppable. I got a huge confidence boost! I took myself to my favorite wrap place as a means of celebrating :) 🌯

“Don’t stop until you’re proud” - Unknown. Materials used: Pilot Petit3 Fude Pen, Simbalion Watercolor. Calligraphy by @janedoeph​, on Instagram Supported by CalligraphyLife.org

— Clarice Lispector: A Sincere Friendship

Just because you have to study to achieve your dreams doesn't mean it can't be enjoyable

College has been a whole process for me. I did not know how to study, i did not know how to put effort into the right things, and most importantly, i did not know how to accept that my actions (or lack of) were the problem.

It took me years, but I've learned to accept that it's ok for me to need to study to be good when it comes to a subject, that college is a place for learning, not for being instantly good at something.

And now i can finally say that, without the subconscious frustration, i truly do enjoy learning new things, studying new subjects, and studying for the sake of knowing more, not just to pass exams.

It takes work, but it's all worth it.