@roach-works // Melissa Broder, "Problem Area" // Mary Oliver, "The Return" // @annavonsyfert // Koyoharu

Are you preparing for JEE?

Yes , I'm preparing for jee 2025 and I have my first attempt in january

I've actually started preparing late so idk how my first attempt will be ,but I'm gonna try my best and give both attempts.

I'll also be giving BITSAT :))

(I'm answering my first proper "ask" aaaahhh)

28.12.2024, Saturday

finally... tomorrow is my last exam of this year...

putting an end to this chapter and this year so we can finally move on to a better (academic) year hopefully <3

tomorrow is my math exam, and it is my last pre board , and as I say this I'm hoping that I have passed in all of them and god forbid I don't have to retake them :"")

I've revised all that I know already and I'm gonna just go over calculus again

uhhhhhhh I'm so done with this already I'll wrap it up by 3:30-4 am and sleep

here's all that I'll do before my "last" pre-exam nap (of this year lmao) :-

differential equations important questions

linear programming important questions

integral important questions

yep, that's it , cuz it's already pretty late already and I need sleep to function in a fkn maths exam

wish me luckkk!!!! (pray for me y'all 🩷)

Unloved

As I sit in my room with

books scattered in front of me

My blankets bundled up because I don't bother to fold them

i wonder

What is so inherently unlovable about me

I'm just 17

nobody stays forever ,I know that

but with the fast moving lives everyone from my generation around me is living

I fail

I fail to make my parents proud

I fail to make my friends be there for me whenever I actually need them

heck , I fail to even get a boyfriend

I don't have one

never had one

every boy I have ever talked to has at one point just given up

they do call me beautiful

they do say they like me

but like everything and everyone around me they don't want anything "more" from me

with nothing in my hands

I often believe not even my parents love me

but maybe that's an exaggeration yk

they do stay unlike everyone else who just walks away

But

They don't help either

They do love me I know

They do support me I know

But it's just a rarity for us to just sit and talk

without fights

without my self esteem down the drain

I can't remember the last time I sat with my dad and discussed the latest Bollywood movies

I can't remember the last time I gossiped with my mom about our relatives

it's so funny that even for a family of three lovi under the same roof

we have managed to distance ourselves

so

If even the people i live with don't stay with me

who will?

and As I lay on my bed with

books scattered in front of me

My blankets covering up my face because I fear someone will see the tears swelled up

i wonder

What is so inherently unlovable about me

and i drift off to sleep

hoping to find the answers in my dream

Goddess of Rot

Last one standing

Unique ; is it the new normal?

I was 4 when I first heard the adjective

I was 10 when I heard it being used for me

I was joyous and blushed timidly in glee

I thought of myself as distinctive as the snow that falls on December 1st

I thought of myself as the honey dew that quenches the oak's thirst

i thought of myself as sole as the titanic beneath the sea

I thought of myself as second to noone ; there's only and only me

But as I grew up

I stepped down

I lurched around

I stumbled upon an abundance

Of personalities that strike resemblance

to me , and me to others

"Was it all just a farce?"

Was I not as unparalleled as the striking beauty of marble under moon?

was I not as novel as the trooping of hues paraded across june?

was I not as isolated in this world as i thought I would be?

I wanted to be second to noone; the world to have only and only me

But as I walk through my life I find a piece of myself in everyone I see

some beautiful some horrific

and some beautifully horrific

some prude , some so kind

some weak and some with a sharp mind

some eccentric, some basic

some with witts and some ritz

some ambitious, some unsure

and some who couldn't take it anymore

but one piece that I'd find in them all

t'was their wish to be the last one to fall

that one piece encapsulating everything-myself

a bit of me that made them me

a bit of me that made me myself

no matter who's in the right and who's wrong

no matter whose weapon is feeble and whose strong

no matter who started first

no matter who said more

I'll always have the last laugh

I'll always reach the shore

so I am second to noone

there will only and only be me

because I'll be the last one standing

no matter what the scene

im gonna get back on top. no other choice

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Rainy Night in Tokyo // valvey_film

Letters from Juliet (II)

All the faith I put upon our names

"Jack and Juliet"

I hear it all the time

I hear angels sing

I see Eden's rosemary bloom

They just fit perfectly with eachother.

But did we?

watching it shatter

As if I didn't know it would.

Everybody looks at me in awe

and my heart aches for your glances

It's saddening.

It's maddening

Too less , after all the nights we spent wrapped around each other's fingers

Our hearts beating together

Our souls touching eachother

"Noone understands me better" You said.

I smiled and told you "I like butterflies"

I like you too.

i fixed your place.

between my coffee and sleep

Between dusk and dawn

Between mortal and immortal

between the gods and devils

Was I really meant to be just one of the chapters in your book?

Was Our story only meant to be till here?

Was this how it was supposed to end?

It's funny.

It's hilarious.

I wish for you.

30 years from now ,

just have a hand on heart and

open the lock on our memories once and look at it ,

with a smile

with a frown

with a tear?

If i was destined to be your distant memory then I hope I gave you good ones

Do call me if you remember my name.

Do come over if you have my address.

If I slip away to hell in my sleep someday

just like we talked about , chuckling

Do you promise to bring lilac prints and lilies to my grave?

Which will probably be lost amongst all your other juliets.

But I promise to tell Satan all about you.

only you.

- Agrima Nath

15.12.2024 , sunday

I have my pre boards from 18th and I'm just cramming up all year's syllabus right now...whew

gotta finish entire physics tonight so that I can do maths tomorrow, I'm gonna be more active over here cuz i am in desperate need of inspo

prolly gonna stay up till 4:30 or 5 am

no way out , gotta lock in 🗣️

to be done -

electric charges & field

electrostatics

current electricity

moving charges

magnetism

emi

AC

if I'll be able to finish this by 5 somehow then I'll also complete electromagnetic waves