At 10am Today Someone In The Neighborhood Was Blasting Axé Music Full Volume, So I Stick My Head Outside

—mothers

ijeoma umebinyuo // hyatt moore // class of 2013 by mitski // i, tonya (2017) // ? // gustav klimt // ? // lady bird (2017) // i remain in darkness by annie ernaux

For My Mother, I love you but i do not like you.

For my mother, I love you but i do not like you. You created me, you made me into what i am. I am simply a mirror of you which is exactly the thing tried so hard not to be. I tried to erase every part of you from myself and yet I have still become you. My anger is yours, I hate my father for what he did to you. I hate myself for the words that spill to you when I am blinded by rage. My tears are yours, they belong to you. The tears I cry for what you’ve done are the same tears I use to mourn you, to mourn what you were and what you could’ve been. I mourn for your childhood that was ripped away when you were most definitely too young, all the while mourning myself for you doing the same to me. You tried your hardest not to, but in your own way you have imparted the very same curse your mother had put onto you. You ruined me and made me in the same brush stroke. I cry for the hatred you have instilled in me towards my own father. It was easy for you to make me hate him, because it was easy to see the wounds and scars he had given me. His hate for me came quick and rough, easily seen at the time, but the hate you showed me could not be seen in an instant. You did not cut me but poisoned me, fated me to die in a slow way, a way that i could not see until it was too late to fix, but i see it now. I both hate you and love you for all you’ve done at the same time. I cannot fix what has happened to you no matter how hard i try, i wish for you to heal from what you refuse to speak about. I realise the reason i am so forgiving towards you is because of all that you’ve been through, but now the scales have fallen from my eyes and i know now that these are not excuses but explanations. I pray that my daughter will not fall victim to the same curse that has run through the woman in our family for too many generations to count. I pray I will not turn her into what I have become. I mourn for you, I mourn for me, and I mourn for my future. I hope to one day truly forgive you for all the pain you’ve caused. I hope to one day be able to truly hold a conversation with you without being afraid you’ll say something you can’t take back. I hope one day we can say “I love you” to each other and truly mean it, but for now, I love you but I do not like you.

Houses in Innsbruck, Austria.  From Creative Photography - A Complete Guide for the Enthusiast, 1987

Bones and All (2022) // dir. Luca Guadagnino

FRANCISCO ROMERO ICONS

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Charlie Dalton (the sun)

[maybe someone might disagree with me but that's something I think about charlie]

charlie was like an older brother to the dead poets, he always tried to hide his pain, he had to be strong for them, especially neil and todd (they never asked, but he felt like that. he was trying to protect and help them).

neil struggled every day between his father’s pressures and his true passion, acting.

todd lived in his brother’s shadow and had high expectations behind his back.

the poets thought charlie was the sun, they had seen him cry such little times that they struggled to remember them.

just as the sun, comes the time to set.

the night comes and there is only darkness, the room is silent.

charlie sometimes sobbed wrapped up tight under covers. he was tired of thinking about the life that he was supposed to have, tired of his parents who didn't consider him.

some of those nights were louder, cameron heard him crying, but he said nothing, knowing he wasn’t the person charlie needed.

in the morning charlie's light was shining again, just like the sun rising after a stormy night.

this is how a new day began.

my favorite james potter fancasts

reiky de valk

kevin price

gabriel stewart

dev patel

adarsh jaikarran

jeenu mahadevan

xolo maridueña

bones and all (2022) dir. luca guadagnino / possession (1981) dir. andrzej źuławski

‘know it’s for the better’

regulus joining the deatheaters

‘know it’s for the better’

regulus dying cold and alone in the cave

‘know it’s for the better’

sirius thinking his brother hated him till the end

‘know it’s for the better’

james knowing that it couldn’t have been an accident

RED, WHITE & ROYAL BLUE | Alex & Henry + hands

Alex and Henry's relationship progression through their hand-touching/hand-holding.