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My first official post! I've never used tumblr before, I'm happy to be joining the platform!

I Got my Results!!!

So today I got to leave school a bit early (I had to come back after lunch tho) to hear the results of my evaluation! I met some of the criteria for ADHD and Autism but not nearly enough to get a diagnosis, it’s something I should keep an eye on but not extremely possible from what they’ve seen so far from me. I got a diagnosis of Generalized Anxiety Disorder AND Social Anxiety Disorder, which wasn’t very surprising but I wasn’t expecting 2 diagnosis. I’m now eligible for medication and a 504 plan for my debilitating Social Anxiety, I’m really excited for next year to be able to have accommodations that will hopefully help me do even better and feel more comfortable in school than I already do!

I have therapy after my Driver’s Ed today so I’ll be excited to tell my therapist that I finally got a diagnosis and we can work out how to best move forward from there.

There’s a Difference

I am not a “you’re doing so good” praise enjoyer.

I am a “you’re so gorgeous” praise enjoyer.

Exhausted and Evaluated

So guess who got excused from school today (it was me :))!

I had a neurodivergence evaluation earlier today, it went over the appointment time and I didn't get to do a whole section so I hope that doesn't impact my results.

I get my results in about 2 weeks and I'm really nervous and excited to find out what I have!

I'm really tired cause it was HOURS of testing and I haven't eaten a real meal today :(

I'll update in a couple weeks about my results!! :)

Reflecting

(TW // sexual coercion)

With all of the awful stuff happening on Twitter I recently read an article about sexual coercion on Planned Parenthood’s website, and a lot of the warning signs sounded very similar to something I experienced in a past relationship. There were constant repeated attempts to “convince” me to let them do something to me no matter how many times I said no. There was a lot of “Up-Negotiating” like waiting a year until or just sitting near their face with my legs open. I always felt incredibly guilty and uncomfortable for saying no to them so often and eventually one day I gave in because I had been broken down so much, I thought “I’ve said no so many times, I’m a bad partner, they want it so I can just get through it for them”, and then they proceeded to react with disgust when I finally gave them what they were badgering me for throughout our whole time dating. I’ve never let someone try to go down on me since then and it’s been so hard for me to accept that I was coerced by repeated badgering and pressure. I don’t harbor any deep-seated resentment since it took me so long to realize that this is what happened to me, I had a lot of time to process it and work through it in therapy. I wish this person a life filled with therapy and love.

Relatable

i'm at prom and this is so mid can they play wallows or smth

My bestie just told me I’m in a situationship. Help.

One of my favorite wallows songs, really encapsulates the feeling of wanting someone and not being able to do anything about it.

Outside Lands 2023!!!

I got to see Megan Thee Stallion!!!! :))

Frothing at the mouth….

Need more tattoos and piercings ASAP