Distance

May 30, 2014

I made myself really upset today. I watched the video you recorded of me after I got my wisdom teeth taken out. We were still together at the time and you called me baby in the video. God, how I miss you calling me baby and telling me that you love me in that cute little way you used to… I’m so happy that I still come over on the weekends, that makes me super happy but I just wish we were back together. I get super jealous when you talk to other women because I want you to still be all mine. We were so perfect, well as perfect as we could be together. We never fought, nothing. It was nothing but pure bliss. I still get that same blissful feeling when I’m with you. I may not show you, and I think I should. But I do. I’m doing the best I can to slim down and show you I’m trying. I’m glad you’re seeing that too. Even though we aren’t together anymore, I still fall for you more and more each time I'm with you

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August 3, 2019

Well, here we are again. Another night of frustration and bickering. When is it going to end? I do everything to make sure you’re happy and yet you still treat me like shit. Okay, I’m not SUPER motivated, I agree with that but for fucks sake, I at least try to motivate myself and do better and you know this. I do care and you just don’t see that. I know damn right, you’re on POF talking to other girls while we’re still in a fucking relationship. I ought to leave you for that shit but I love you too much. I just want shit to be the way it was when we first met. I want the old you back. The one who confessed that he was in love with me one night after he drank too much. The one who only wanted to cuddle and love on me. The idiot that makes jokes and tries to play fight with me. Now all I have is a man who doesn’t want to look at me half the time. All you do now is belittle me and make me feel like absolute shit. I hope you know that all of this is gonna make me never want to love again if we do end up breaking up for real. I just want us back. I miss it more than anything. You grabbing my hand and showing me off to the world whenever we walked together somewhere. All the times we used to go to the movies just because we had nothing else to do. The times we’d drive to the beach when we didn’t have the money. I won’t ever forget the time that I begged to have you go on vacation with me and Tyler because I wanted you to be there. You convinced us to go to Miami. I had such an amazing time with you. The time we drove to Key West and then made plans to go back and sell stuff. (Even though we never did it lol) I was still happy about the idea because you came up with it. I miss all the nights we would go for walks just to talk about whatever. I miss everything. Late night drives and talks. Please, give me another chance to show you that I’m better than this. I can’t help but cry and cry now because I’m disappointed in myself that I’m not even good enough for you. I really do love you so much.