The Kiss Of Judas (winterbunny Edition)

Я ненавижу когда в «тихой зоне» люди ведут себя нихера не тихо. Не понимаю почему нужно включать музыку и громко разговаривать именно в месте, где это нельзя делать.

Заебали

I must master myself to tangible resistance against melancholy and degeneration i can catch whenever my brain lowers its standard. I have energy and i don’t have enough time to waste it for nothing than escaping reality in imaginary world. I must train myself to be better.

IM ODNE. (Still doinit)

Kill me I am doing something that is so not related to my studies but I HAVE TO finish it

My brain hates sleeping

Okay, lemme try and answer the question of why Dazai abused Akutagawa.

This is such a debated topic in the fandom sob

Dazai never apologized to Akutagawa, or really did anything to say sorry about how he abused him.

Why?

Well, let's take a look at Dazai's debut.

The answer is staring yall in the face.

Dazai says that he wants a painless suicide, yeah, but there's one part that usually overlooked.

He wants a painless suicide that doesn't bother anyone.

So what if him abusing Akutagawa is on purpose? To make him hate him?

Dazai doesn't want to be missed. That's why he said that he has no regrets when he died in BEAST.

By abusing Akutagawa, he can make Akutagawa hate him, and Atsushi somewhat feel conflicted about him.

That way, once he finally dies, no one will miss him.

Note: Him being the reason that Murase died could be a hing to make Chuuya hate him that failed or smthing... idk...

Headcanon:

Chuuya is an alcoholic and always smells of it, Dazai is a chain smoker and always smells of that, so, during their mafia days, they would always smell of both cause they spend so much time together until Dazai left and someone asked Chuuya if he quit smoking cause he didn't smell of it anymore and he broke down in tears in his room right after

They look so funnysilly in this particular official art it makes me giggle like a little girl

Currently I’m reading the secret history but I’m so excited to start reading no longer human I began to speed ran tsh and I still have upcoming assessments HELP

For a moment I just thought what if I will be dead tomorrow. I will never finish the book I’m reading, I will never know the end of it. I will never get my first job and never earn my salary. I will never even get a degree, not even by chance because I will no longer exist. Death is such an odd thing though it is so “common”