spite is great
cleaned all the dishes, took out five bags of trash and moved my boxes
though also chronic illness and doing all of that is not reccommended -10000/10
somehow i managed to trigger a flare up of literally everything at once and now i cant walk wihtout being in incredible pain, my head hurts, im nauseous af, and i keep feinting and having hot flashes. just hoping the seizures dont start now.
Lets talk about how easy it is to abuse a narcissist.
Someone who's sense of worth is so fragile and dependant on the external is incredibly easy to manipulate and have power over. Someone who experiences being wrong as a threat to their entire being is less willing to admit they are being abused and leave. DARVOing is so much easier when society has decided your victim is the monster and inherently abusive themselves. The reactions of a narcissist to being abused can be of the kind that makes it easy to be labelled as "mutually abusive" (which is a myth, by the way, it is self defense)
There is no reason to think "mentally ill people are more likely to be abused than abuse others)" does not also apply to narcissists.
The future should not be plural.
The future should accommodate for those with dissociative disorders.
The future should have further more thorough research in dissociative disorders.
The future should be more accepting of dissociative disorders.
BUT
The future should not be plural.
That means children are getting repeatedly traumatised at an impressionable age.
That means children don't have healthy coping mechanisms.
That means children AREN'T SAFE.
The future should not be plural, but it should be respectful and accepting to those who are.
Alright a conversation with my friend has led us to a dilemma so:
hey to all my fellow american queers, if you need support dont be afraid to reach out
i dont care if we dont know each other, ill listen if you need me to
i also want to just be direct about this because the community's going to be facing a lot of losses in the next few years and i want to tell you that regardless of what happens to each of us, we wont be forgotten, our community wont die out
no matter what happens and how much we lose, theyll always be at least one queer person out there and if theres at least one of us then the rest of us wont be forgotten
got a job at the hospital
one of our friends works in the psych ward as a nurse (its like a fwbs situation and we may or may not be super into them cries)
finally admitted to having DID today after months of talking and her response wasnt exactly the greatest, she doesnt think its actually fully fledged seperate individual alters and instead just thinks its super intense derealization
so now i just feel gross and like i cant be open about my own personal experience and symptoms i deal with on a daily basis with her
like im not the same person i was earlier and i want to be respected in that and i want to feel comfortable in that and i want to be able to trust them
-wes
man fuck khonshu
all my mates hate that moon bitch
-steven
i literally thought that when marc and steven revived one another through their love and hugged each other, marc was going in for a kiss. i watched his motherfucking neck crane and i was like, oh god. it’s gonna happen. they’re gonna do it. arguably i got something even better!
romeo and juliet /pos