I Often Forget That I Have Chronic Pain Cause I Just Normalize It As Me And Then I Get Angry At Myself

it's terminal.😎

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Thinking About Making A Tik-Tok

Those are four words, no I am not counting the A fuck it, that I never thought i would ever say. I'm said it before I am not a fan of it at all, but watching the compilations that I have seen on the You Tube channels lately I am feeling a kinship that I never felt before. Interestingly my daughter was not surprised or against it. She always said that if you don't like what you are seeing on a platform, create it. I love how she gets me so much.🥰

That being said I am a horrible procrastinator so I have to over come that first. Oh and if anyone wonders it's not about using it as a side hustle. Honestly I don't even think I could make a nickel posting but just having an outlet to talk about things that I want to that I don't see people talking about and being fairly down to earth in my midnight ramblings I think some might find it interesting and maybe helpful?🤔

My second biggest obstacle would be me or rather my face. Full transparency...I hate myself. Have for the past 41 years of my life and can't see it changing much in the near future. This means if I don't want to see my face, why would I want someone else to. This means I have to figure out what to post for a background as I talk cause I don't want to be like those all talking posts while you watch someone else doing things. That's just weird to me.😵

I guess that's it really. I mean i found a vid on how to get started the right way in 2025 so I will know all the button to unclick and I even have something that would let me take vids so yeah...I guess the only thing holding me back is...facing the fact that no one will care outside of me about anything and that it is a a delusion of mine and I should just...😶

Well anyway that's it for tonight I guess. Gonna try and get actual sleep tonight cause I want to get some stuff done tomorrow in house as my fight towards organized clutter continues in 2025. Oyasuminasai Mina.😴

Ever notice that he has a habit of repeating his words? ^0^

Interviewer: How is it like meeting the fans face to face?

This must be where Muskrat got his idea for the Beast from. Either that or this is the future of that ugly piece of shit wanna be car.

Tuesday Anime Line Up

Just one on Tuesdays this season but it just means that I can play catch up with other animes I am watching that are older or rewatching.😉

Hazure Skill "Kinomi Master": Skill no Mi (Tabetara Shinu) wo Mugen ni Taberareru You ni Natta Ken ni Tsuite

So half way through this season and I am still slightly on the fence with this one. They don't really talk about the fruit as much anymore but I'm not gonna lie, I am always there for a trash church/religion cause it has this cathartic feeling for me since I am a recovering Catholic in my childhood.😅

When They Don’t want to Write

Nothing is more frustrating then when the person that you are writing with doesn’t want to write. I don;t mean that they are dealing with life or personal problems, I mean they just don;t want to. No reasons given. 

When I chose to write with someone, I am letting the person know that I put my faith and trust in them to uphold their end of the fic as much as I have to hold up mine. While the ideal is to write everyday, in reality this does not work out usually. Still when a story is lying stagnant cause on of the writers is being stubborn or is just ignoring me, it hurts. I then have the dilemma of moving on without them, but also hurting their feelings for not waiting for them.

Anyone else ever had this happen to them or any idea what to do int he situation?

Weirdly Productive?🤔

I haven't done much today honestly physically cause I still can't, but mentally...yeah I've done quite a lot...if that makes sense.😬

Let me explain. I decided to be part of the low consumer 2025 movement or under consumption core where i only get what I truly need and nothing else. I have been waiting for my taxes to come in order to make this happen and today is the day. 😤

Right away I bought the rolling cart for the kitchen cause I have a kitchen converted from a laundry room...don't ask, and have no counter space to cook properly. Then I got the meat slicer that I needed to buy bulk meat and cut it down to the sizes I need which is gonna save money for sure cause I need super thin meats for Japanese recipes and that is considered exotic or special cut and costs more.🤨

The last thing I picked up was new silverware cause out of three sets i bought in the last three years I have all the knives and nothing else. Yeah...my kids heard it good about that and now it is a $5 charge if I find ANY missing from the new set from everyone. I'm not messing around with this shit.😠

Other than a few used pieces of clothing for my daughter and I from Thred Up and adding three subscriptions for groceries including Costco, I am done. That's it. Also I learned something interesting that might be useful for others. Think about what you make an hour and then think about what you want to buy. How many hours do you have to work afford it? My daughter's sushi plate at Shop Rite is $14.99. That's a little less than an hour of my pay. If I eat my fav at Taco Bell, it's $8.00 and than includes up charge for frozen drink, added rice, and rounding up for charity. That's half an hour of work for me. Interesting huh? Think about that next time you want to treat yourself.🧐

How I handle Rude Ignorant Comments.

Just in case anyone thought about giving me one. ^-^

Monday Anime Line Up

Cooked dinner for a friend of mine today so I was able to watch everything while I was waiting for it to finish. Had to wait to get home to post about it though but its all good. Let's get to it!😊

Zatsu Tabi: That's Journey

Cooking food by dropping a hot stone in it? And I thought Shabu Shabu was cool!😲

Kijin Gentoushou

So we learned about Jinya's foster dad today and it was cute that no matter what the painting was never good enough cause his wife was so beautiful in his eyes.🥰

Vigilante: Boku no Hero Academia Illegals

This got dark real fast.💀

I double checked with my daughter is sword boy was who I thought it was since I can only go by the abridged for myself but yeah it was. She was honestly disappointed in the origin of him but she said it was better than being a hero that turned. I do agree on that.🤔

Man I am tired. Hoping to get good sleep tonight cause I would like to get some stuff done before I go to work tomorrow. He's hoping! Mata ne mina!😊

Goddess how much this is true. “Update please” are my two least fav words right now.

art takes hours to produce and seconds to consume so dont act suprised when artists get upset when their posts only get likes and no reblogs

similarly a piece of writing that takes a few minutes to read could have weeks of work behind it… dont take creativity for granted when ur getting it for free