Eisei: Was Ich Auch Nicht Selbstverständlich Find, Das Ist Mir Auch öfter Mal Bewusst Geworden, Auch

Sooo all of us who are watching this comp today😮

Andi: I'm sitting at the airport right now. The World Cup is over and I slept on it. In summary, it can be said that a lot has worked out. I had a great competition on the small hill and won a medal. Something that didn't seem possible some time ago. On the big hill some jumps were good. All in all, a lot went well. Unfortunately, what happened yesterday has a very bland aftertaste. Because it's not good for our sport that this manipulation appears. There are many questions that need to be answered. I have many questions that go through my head. What would have happened to the other competitions where I or we as a team were close? With these thoughts I fly home.

can anyone translate what Andi said in his last post please? 😭😭

I was just remembered🥳🥳🥳Happy Birthday Karle!!

WE GOT THE PICTURE. I REPEAT WE GOT THE LEGENDARY PICTURE!?

This picture made feel nostalgic and with this song kind of emotional.

This whole story made me think how short life can be. How you really don't know much about somebody. Until it is to late and you asked yourself if you could have done something different. And how you wish to speak to them one last time. Or even get the chance to say goodbye. But this teaches me that you don't always get the chance and we should appreciate every single day that we have with people and enjoy the little things. Going on that planed trip, hug the person you love, do what you love.

That is the key in life.

Being yourself regardless what other people say.

Domen❤️this is why I love youu❤️

Jeyyyyyy Eisei got second🥳🥳🤩🤩in the COC😍

Asked awayyyy

Reblog if you write fanfic and would be totally down with your followers coming into you askbox and talking to you about your fic

Darkness and then there is Stephan Leyhe

shining-glowstick here is the Fan fic you wished for :) I hope you like it.

This plays after the competition.

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He stood there. Feeling empty. He didn’t even hear the hymn that was played for Ryoyo Kobayashi who just won his 3. Golden eagle. His head was empty. Everything felt heavy. After everything was done, he went on with the interviews. He listened to them. Praising him for how good he jumped, what a Tournee this was, and how frilling it had been to watch him. He smiled but it wasn’t really a happy one. When he had his last interview over, all Andi could think of was his bed, a pillow, and some time alone. His teammates waited at the hotel for him and congratulated him again. He thanked them. They knew. Nobody asked him if they wanted to celebrate the victory and he was thankful for that. So, he just walked past them and went to his and Stephan's room. Tired Andi throw himself on the bed. Not even the light he had put on. All he could do was turn onto his left side, facing the wall, and blankly stare at it. His head started spinning. Thoughts came up.

Why didn’t it work? He started so well. Why couldn’t he go until the end? Could it be, that he was too bad? What if everybody started to hate him? What if Stephan started to hate him too?

Stephan was his rock that one person, who he could rely on. What if he thought he was weak? Somebody that can't go through with things. A looser.

Of course, he was one. He lost the Four Hills tournament. He failed. Yes, he was a failure. Nothing more. A failure that is too stupid to win against another jumper.

Andis thoughts were going on and on and didn’t seem to stop. Or maybe he didn’t want them. Maybe he didn’t because they were true. He started to feel the tears streaming down his face. “Stop crying, you idiot”, his inner voice told him. “This is your own fault”. The next voice sounded like Stephans. His eyes got big. “What?”. How could his best friend say something like this? No wait, this was his head telling him this. Why couldn’t they shut up and leave him alone? Everything started to feel more and more chaotic. His head hurt and his eyes were burning.

Another sentence popped up:

How stupid was I to believe I could win?

“You are not stupid”. He jolted and his body spun around to see who just spoke. In the middle of the room stood nobody less than his roommate and best friend Stephan Leyhe. He looked tired and even had a few tears in his eyes. Why he couldn’t understand. Before he could say or do anything he turned around again and stared blankly at the wall in front of him. He heard somebody move closer. Andi could feel the tears that started to come again. He sniffled. “Andi I… Let me help you”. Andi didn’t turn around. “Please. It hurts me to see you like this”. Now he had him. Andi turned around and looked with glassy, red eyes at his friend. “Why do you care. Everybody hates me”. His voice was raspy. Stephan's eyes got big. Very big. “What are you talking about?”. “I lost Stephan. I couldn’t bring him home. My jumps were too bad. I had it right in my hand and I lost it. You must be all disappointed in me. I am a failure. Nothing else”. He turned back around and closed his eyes to concentrate on the pain inside his head. “Andi…”. Stephan didn’t know what to say. He never heard his best friend say something like that before. “You probably hate me too”. Andi's sentence broke his heart in two. Tears started to form and with a shaky voice he said: “Is that what you think of me? That I hate you because you didn’t win? You know I could never hate you. No matter what”. “Why can’t you hate me? I am a nobody”. “You are somebody. Why are you talking so low of yourself?”, Stephans voice was still shaking. “I am a failure. Everybody tells me how thankful they are, that I made it so adventurous and thrilling to watch but, in the end, I was a huge disappointment”. “Stop saying that you are a disappointment!”. Stephan's voice got louder. “Why don’t you hate me!?”. “BECAUSE I LOVE YOU, YOU IDIOT. I love you so much and it hurts me to see you like this. I hate hearing you saying all that. Because it is not true. You definitely aren't. We've known each other for 11 years now and I can confirm that you have the biggest heart of all. You are a good listener, you are always ready to do anything for someone, and you help without hesitation. You are super smart, never stop smiling, always brighten up the room, when you enter, you never lose your nerve, and above all, you never give up. And those are the best qualities you can have. As I said in the interview in Innsbruck: If someone can do this, it's you. Your time will come. I know it”. Andi turned when Stephan spoke again: “Nobody is perfect Andi. Not me, not you. If I know something for sure, it's that you are my world, and that will never change. You are the most important person in my life. I am sooo proud of you”. Andi stared at him and just now noticed Stephan's wet face. He cried. Andi didn’t want to see him cry. He reached out and cupped Stephan's face to dry it off. Stephan leaned into that and before Andi could really think anymore, he grabbed his best friend, over before he kissed him. Stephan eyes got big before he kissed back. He stopped when he felt tears rolling down his cheek. It wasn’t his. Andi had started crying. Stephan laid down next to him. He pulled him next to himself and started to make circles on his back. His best friend snuggled into him. After a while, he heard deep breaths that were Insync. Stephan sadly looked down at his friend, whose face was swollen from all the tears. “I love you so much”. With that sentence said, he slowly and carefully placed himself right before drifting off to a dreamless sleep.