My Grandma Is Dead. It Was My Parents Wedding Anniversary. My Dad Bought Flowers And A Cake. I Came Home
my grandma is dead. it was my parents wedding anniversary. my dad bought flowers and a cake. i came home screaming, "happy wedding anniversary!!" only to be cut off by my dad. he pulled me aside and said, "grandma's dead."
my grandma is dead. it's my mother's birthday february 1st. she's turning 49. my brother was meant to come home and we were gonna plan a surprise for her.
my grandma is dead. ten minutes after i found out, i took my dog out for a walk. i left at 4:20. i came back at 5:30. i was crying the whole time.
my grandma is dead. the grief came in waves. i would remember, then cry, then stop. and then remember, then cry, and then stop. remember, cry, stop. remember, cry, stop.
my grandma is dead. the last thing she said to me was, "stay safe. ill see you next time,". now there is no next time. the next time will be me infront of her grave.
my grandma is dead. i was too scared to talk to my mom. too scared to look at her. i would cry if i did. and i can't cry infront of my mom about her mom dying, that's rude.
my mother's mother is dead. she has no parents any more. when we went to visit her, my mom would tell my cousins and aunts and uncles that her mom was fine. she was bedridden but could still speak, she could still remember everything, she only had trouble hearing. she would tell everyone that that's how strong her mother is. was.
my grandma is dead. and god i miss her. id only ever seen her 12-16 times. me and my family live in the us, but everyone else lived outside the us. traveling home costs a lot, and so we could only go once a year. but i wish we went more. i wish i talked to her more. i wish i sat with her more. i wish she was still alive.
my grandmother is dead.
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yknow college rory may have been stupid but them fits? ate DOWNNNN
YOU KNOW THAT I LOVE YOUUU AND I HAVE A FEELING THAT YOU LOVE ME BACKK <3
WE'RE SAT IN MY BEDROOOOMMM AND I HEAR YOUR HEART LIKE A TRAIN ON YHE TRACKS <3
YOURE EYES ARE LIKE HEAVEN YOUR VOICE IS LIKE RAIN <3
ELEVEN ELEVENS THEY ALL HEAR YOUR NAME <3
IM TOO SHY TO TELL YOU THE WORDS ON MY MIND <3
I HOPE YOU CAN SEE IF YOU READ THROUGH THESE LINES <3
THAT I WROTE THIS SONG ABOUT YOUUUU <3
SOMETHING I WISH YOU KNEWWWW <3
SOMETHING IVE TRIEDDD TOOOO SAYYYYY <3
BUT NOW ILL SAYYY IT STRAIGHTTTT <3
I WROTE THIS SONG ABOUT YOUUUUU <3
y'know what i want?
a girlfriend :D
honestly gilmore girls is pissing me off rn like hello??? logan is a dumbass and cheated on rory and didn't even say sorry to her and let her walk out of the room, lorelai can't use her mouth and talk about what's bothering her with luke, ZACH JUST FUCKING ASKED LANE TO MARRY HIM LIKE WHAT???
i js wanna go back and watch the seasons of chilton rory and (fuckass bitchass pussy) dean and (the loml amazing wonderful misunderstood) jess and friday night dinners and luke and lorelai slow burn and not suffer 😔
dont remind me ðŸ˜ðŸ˜
And just when life was looking good, your favorite blonde dies.
— newt, jj maybank.
as ive said, im watching gilmore girls rn. and she's with logan and jess js showed up again. and OHHHH MAAAA GAWDDDD HES AMAZING??????? HES NOT A DOUCHEBAG???? AND HES SMART AND HE GOT HIMSELF TOGETHER AND FIXED HIMSELF UP?????? AND HE WROTE A BOOK AND CAME DOWN TO HAND DELIVER IT TO RORYY???????
HE. HAND. DELIVERED. IT. TO. RORY.
JESS SUPREMACY PLEASEEE >>>>>
im so sorry for not updating my fic in like two weeksðŸ˜ðŸ˜ im doing my best to get the new chapter out by tmrw fs, and it's gonna be extra long for the wait!!
if you're new here, and want to read my fic - the link to my ao3 is on my introduction post. it's a maze runner fic - the classic, girl in the glade. id loveee it if you read it, and id love it more if you'd leave a comment!!
the wckd suits had me going feral
oh if im not gonna be able to tell people my insane stupid funny stories when im all old and grandma idk what i would do. cuz best believe i am not dying without living a life. i want to do so much i want to have fun. idgaf if i get in trouble or wvtr i js wanna live and live fun.
live a little y'know?
what's my biggest fear? why, thank you for asking.
one day realizing that i don't remember the names of the girls i sit with at lunch. one day realizing i don't remember the names of the kids in my classes. one day realizing i don't remember what my friends really looked like. realizing i don't remember their favorite colours. or where they're from. or what their favorite class is. who their favorite teacher is.
realizing i don't know where the girls i sit with at lunch are right now. if they've had kids. if they've gotten married. what they're studying. what they studied. what they're job is. if they've traveled. if they've left the country. if they've moved streets or towns or counties or states.
realizing that time has drawn us apart. currently we are an interwoven thread, every single one of us so much of the other, every single one of the other so much of us, but in 5 years or 10 or 15 - we might be strangers. realizing that time had strung us together, made us all so important to one another, just to pull us apart slowly. to make us memories. photographs. old texts. saved snapchats. journal entries.
my biggest fear is time - pulling me along a path that i have absolutely no choice but to follow. no choice to stop and change. what i do, i do. what i did, i did.
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