Girl Who Has Only The Most Normal Relationship With Time And Memory And Regret And Grief

Cause you like that shit? You know how disturbed you are, Marie? You may have gotten clean but you still haven’t figured this part out. Why you love being hurt, traumatized and fucking eviscerated? It’s not normal. It’s not healthy, and it permeates every aspect of our relationship. The way we talk, the way we fight, the way we fuck. I’ve dated some damaged people in my life, Marie. But none of them wanted to be debased and degraded like you. It’s nothing to be proud of. So stop fucking smiling because you look like a clown.

only have a couple more months of being a teenage girl so i have to make them count… listening to 19 by adele on loop 24/7

i am having such a fleabag moment (i feel as though i am living my life incorrectly and i need somebody to tell me what exactly to do, how to feel, who to want because i currently feel unqualified and incapable to make any rational decisions for myself)

And you’re in love?

“Ma, we’ve never even kissed.”

And that has anything to do with it?

“Okay, fine. Yes, I think so”

“But don’t tell anyone. Don’t even repeat it to yourself.”

Why?

“Because it’s humiliating.”

Sweetheart, love isn’t humiliating. Hasn’t anyone ever told you that?

“Who would have told me that?”

Do you know the word humiliate comes from the Latin root humus, which means ‘earth’? That’s how love is supposed to feel.

“Like hummus?”

Like earth. It grounds you.

All this nonsense about love making you feel high, that’s not real. It should hold you like the earth.

“Wow, Ma.”

What? I have a heart, don’t I?

- Coco Mellors, Cleopatra and Frankenstein

some art i've made recently.

no bc i love all of these pieces of media sm, i think im sick in the head

i love bitches who’d rather literally die than talk about their feelings

— Franz Kafka, from “The Castle.”

D.W. Winnicott