Seán Everman

Omg

jse theorist: ok but imagine this… the screen glitches, and then -

me, slamming myself on the table: fuckinG SIGN ME UP

Hey there boys… it’s us, ya demons

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@jdc-discord is one of the most amazing servers i have ever been in. Its full of amazingly talented artists and writers and just wonderful people to be aroud. A+ humans. They come up with stupid and funny ideas and have helped me get inspired to go back into a doodle style for digital and start doing trational. Heckin love y'all and im sorry ive already said some very tramatizing things such as “i lost my penid and i was going to draw Ethan” but thanks for putting up with me cndndn

*Breaths is* BOY MY FEELS IF U EVER NEED TO TALK JUST MESSAGE ME

boy

wake up

undress

look down

the stress pours in my mind like water as it trickles down the drain, a pain the main percentage of the general population will never feel.

so how do i learn to deal with this, with this fat hanging off my chest and these curves in places where they’d never be on what’s considered a “real boy”.

but what’s a real boy anyway?

and if it’s not me, what am i?

a grey area, a there she-ah goes again, shopping from the men’s section and chopping off her hair, oh god, why can’t she just be a normal girl?

after all, my version of the piece of paper that they assign to every child does read female.

that and a name that makes me want to scream bloody murder because the pain it puts me through isn’t something anyone should gain if they want to stay sane.

but anyway, going back to my body

well, to put it simply, it robs me of my happiness and i cant tell you how many nights i’ve spent sobbing and screaming and hoping and believe me, if i could make it go away, i would.

but the truth is that i cant stand this voice and its highness, and this face and its roundness, and this chest and its fullness, and everything else about the human nest my xx chromosomes live inside to taunt me with the words of everyone who’s ever called me “she” to hurt me or even just because they saw me and thought i was a she, was a her, was a girl.

but really, i can’t blame them because i don’t portray a him, or a he, or a boy, or a me

so i’m just sitting here inside my house that i can no longer leave because of the fear that someone on the street will see me and read me as what i appear to be.

and i’m crying and shaking and writing some shitty piece about my aching to be called boyfriend by my s/o’s, son by my mother, please uncles. call me nephew, please siblings, call me brother.

i cant change my biology

but you can change the words you use and honestly, i’m fucking tired of pretending that i don’t care what you call me because i care so much that at this point i’m only half joking when i say i’m going to kill myself.

i mean, maybe i’m already dying because it feels like i’m choking on every “she” i’m forced to swallow and pretend that i’m not noticing.

so do me a favor.

remember only this if the words i’ve just spoken are already fading from your mind.

please be so kind as to call me boy.

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Sean changing is never bad

Change in general is never bad, change is mostly for the better and this is what I’m here to talk about.

Sean is changing. Yes he may not have green hair like he used to, and thats ok. Its gonna sound cliche but its whats on the inside that counts. And personally i perfer coffee bean Sean over green bean Sean anyday. mostly because Im used to it. Also not only is he changing physically, he is changing mentally and emotionally i mean look at him and think:

he looks like he has been the happiest he’s ever been. Alot of changes has happened so far in the year and its scary for everyone personally its scary for me sometimes. but know that he is changing for the better and right now he has been the happiest he has been in a really long time. And we really get to see him as a person in general.

and not only that he has been doing stuff that he never thought he would do. And he has met some cool friends along the way. Mark, Felix, Robin, Gab, Vernon, Tucker, Ethan, TROY BAKER HIMSELF, and BRIAN DECHART HIMSELF. I mean he went on a world tour traveling the U.S and Europe.

And all because of that change. He is getting better of not second guessing himself, and not reflecting on the bad things that happened during the year. yes we all have doubts and we second guess, and we reflect on bad things and thats ok we are human the important thing is to get back up and keep trying.

Because if he can do it

so can you

I'm alright, just battling my health while taking a mental health break on Art. Im just vibin best i can 😊

How are you doing? 😊

Hi Love!! Good to see you again!

I'm doing well. Getting by as best as one can. Hope you're doing well!