this is such a cool idea
A boring night......listening to my heart to relax to before bed...... 86bpm
“To know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived. This is to have succeeded.”
ralph waldo emerson
2023 language goals 💗:
I’m gonna be extremely realistic about my language goals because chemistry takes a huge amount of time in my life 🫣
🤍CHINESE ~
my main goal will be study HSK5 and do a huge review
Improve my speaking
improve my writing
do the HSK4 exam and if I can HSK5
🤍JAPANESE~
Finish N4 review (textbooks)
Start studying N3
improve my speaking & writing
pass N4 mock exams with a nearly perfect score
🤍KOREAN~
Reach and finish A2 level textbooks
improve my speaking & writing
maybe do the TOPIK 1 exam in October 2023
🤍SECRET LANGUAGE~
Improve my writing & speaking
learn as many words & phrases as possible
Finish A1 course & pass the course final exam
Start A2 course
pairing: best friend!megumi x gn!reader
warnings: mentions of alcohol, nothing else i think but please lmk if you find something
megumi doesn’t drink, of course, he’s too smart for that. because when megumi drinks, images of you that usually he keeps at bay flood his mind. you, skipping down the little dirt road in the park, occasionally bending down to pick the tiny strawberries that line the overgrown path. it’s you that megumi sees, bravely making conversation with complete strangers and petting their dogs and shaking their hands and megumi just doesn’t know how you do it. megumi enjoys his apathic reputation, he doesn’t care, why should he? but lately you’ve been making him overthink. when you ruffle his hair his usual scowl is usually accompanied by a blush that megumi quickly hides by turning away and pretending to fix up his hair. this mornings worries consist of how to ask you to go to that new restaurant that just opened up in town, without it sounding too much like a date. when he finally pressed send, he cringes at how long it took him to write such a simple message. your reply comes quickly, made known by a soft ping that megumi knows means it’s you because everyone else is set on vibrate only.
sorry gums not tonight, i’ve got plans :p, let’s plan for tomorrow
megumi tries to seem unaffected, though truthfully he hasn’t seen you for a week now since you’ve been studying for your med exam, and he misses you
k. he sends, then winces at how low that sounds, he knows gojo wouldn’t approve. deciding to go on a walk, megumi puts on his jacket and wraps a scarf that you’d bought him at one of the little boutiques in town around his neck. walking around the park that he usually accompanies you to, megumis heart drops into his stomach as his brain processes the scene before his eyes.
two figures are walking in the park, the setting sun casting warm light against their red cheeks. one of the two, tall, taller than he is megumi notes, with dark hair that seems to style itself effortlessly, is saying something animatedly to the other, who slaps him on the head. he immediately recognizes the latter, because it’s you. so these are what your plans were, or more specifically, these are who your plans were. megumis brain immediately begins to compare himself with your new companion, the way his cheekbones sit on his angular face, the way his hands gesture, and most sickeningly, the way he makes you laugh. has he ever made you laugh like that? has he ever laughed like that himself? megumi looks away and heads home, his hands shoved so deep in his pockets he hopes he isn’t pulling his pants down, turning from the scene that he’s sure will be running through his head for the rest of the night. he brushes away an invitation from yuuji for a pizza night, opting to sit in his dark room, periodically glancing at his phone and trying to force the images of you and someone else out of his mind. megumis phone dings again softly, and he is greeted with a picture of you and your companion at a restaurant, squinting at the banner behind you megumi realizes with a sigh that you’ve brought your date, me go mi supposes, to the new restaurant, the one that he asked you to. which brings him to now, sitting in front of the bar, drinking something that the bartender promised was strong. and it is, megumi doesn’t know how long he’s been there, minutes? hours? all he knows is he wants to see you, so his fingers sloppily swipe through his phone until he reaches your contact, pressing it with no second thoughts.
“gumi?” your voice spills out of the speaker and megumi smiles, letting out a little giggle, “gumi are you drunk?”
“nOoOOoO…” megumi stubbornly says, before whispering, “yes, but don’t tell y/n”
“gumi i am y/n” you say exasperatedly, “i’m coming to get you, don’t move.”
megumi stays as still as possible, keeping his eyes open until he inevitably blinks. when your car pulls up, megumi sees you walk quickly up to the door, brushing away a middle aged man that comes up to you doing his best smolder, scanning the room until you see megumi sitting there. megumi wonders how you can be so beautiful and how your eyes are so pretty and how your hair sits perfectly on your head and how nice you look.
“megumi stand up let’s go,” you drag him up from the stool, “a picture will last longer” you add with a wink.
“but you told me not to move?” megumi giggles again, but he’s dragged out of the bar regardless and stuffed into your car.
the ride is silent sans the wind blowing through your open windows and the occasional hiccup from a snoring megumi. the silence is broken however, when you hear the sound of the mirror on the sun shield in your car being opened.
“megumi?” you ask, wondering what in the world could be prompting him to check himself out at this moment. “whatcha doin?”
“figurin’ somethin’ *hic* out” megumi mumbles in reply.
“what?”
“why ‘m not good enough for ya.” megumis voice takes on a pouty tone.
“what? megumi what do you mean?” you wonder because though you know about megumis insecurities he’s always known he’s been enough for you.
“why’d you hafta find that *hic* guy,” megumi continues, “the one you were at the park with *hic* and at the restaurant that i asked you to” this last part is spoken accusingly.
“gums im sorry but we were hungry and it was the closest restaurant, it was really good, we should go sometime too, but you can’t be upset over that?”
“of course i am,” megumi sounds exasperated, “i don’t want some random guy with you all the time, makin’ you laugh and stuff,” he grumbles.
you fight to hide the smirk covering your face, “oh yeah? and why’s that gums?”
“because i love you?!” megumi shoots, and then immediately slaps his hand over his mouth, the alcohol in his system making his eyes open wide like in the comics.
”what did you say?” you ask quietly
and megumis heart speeds up and he’s sure it’s broken the sound barrier
what did he just say
he just told you he loved you
he sits, deathly still, as your car continues down the road
what did he just do
”megumi” your voice cuts through the silence like a knife through the silky tofu you two prepare together for your lazy sunday morning miso soup
”i just didn’t want you to regret…anything” you continue, your voice softer, “i don’t want you to make a mistake.”
megumi thinks this over in his head
does that mean you like him back
what about the guy
what were you doing with him
”we can talk about this more when you’re sober gums” you sigh
megumi looks up to see that you’ve arrived at his house
you open the door with a spare key that megumi had given you and with that the rest of the night goes by in a blur
he briefly remembers you urging him to brush his teeth and you kissing his forehead goodnight
which brings megumi to now, with the morning sun fighting to push through his tightly closed blinds and his head filling with memories of last night
he bangs out of bed, he can’t lose you, he knows he will after what he pulled last night, but he can’t he can’t lose you
changing into his black pants and foregoing a top he starts for the doorknob but it twists open before he can reach it
your smiling but worried face stares back at him
“good morning gumi, i hope you don’t mind i slept here last-oof” you begin but megumis wrapped his arms around you
just as quickly he recoils
“i’m sorry about last night” he says monotonously, his eyes looking anywhere but you, settling on the carpeted floor
you sigh, unwilling to tackle such a heavy subject so early in the morning, but doing so anyways.
“did you mean it?”
megumi feels his chin being lifted by your hands, forcing him to look you in the eye
he stutters, rubbing his hands together nervously
”yes-i mean n-no well yes of course but i’m sure you don’t-i mean” he pushes your hand away and looks back down at the floor “forget it. i want you to be happy, i’m sorry i told you, i’m glad you found someone.”
he notices how you look away and with that he awaits your inevitable rejection, for you to agree with him that while he’s great he’s just not it, just not who you’re looking for, that being megumi is just not enough.
instead, he’s greeted with the feel of your incredibly soft lips, how are they so soft megumi wonders but he’s not surprised, it’s exactly how he imagined them. your hands go up to his hair and all his dreams are suddenly coming true
you pull back smiling and flick his forehead “i am happy gumi, here, with you.”
megumis heart rate slows and speeds up simultaneously
you like him back.
you’re not leaving.
you like him back
“oh and gumi? that guy you saw me with is my cousin makino.”
you smile at his blush and the smile that he can’t keep off his face
he glares at you, “coulda told me sooner,” he grumbles, “would have saved me from this hangover.”
you laugh and drag him back to the bed, snuggling into the blankets and megumi cautiously wraps his arms around your middle, searching your face for approval but your eyes are already closed, your nose nuzzling at his bare chest and your leg wrapped around his.
“don’t worry, i love you too, dummy”
“you’re the only one that makes me Powerless tonight”
“and you can devastate my personal space i never liked it anyway.”
synopsis// alone and lonely were two very different things. gojo was never alone but he was tired of being lonely, at least that was until you showed up.
pairing// satoru gojo x gn!reader
word count// 1.4k
contents// angsty gojo?, gojo never turns off his infinity and never lets people touch him in any context!, ooc gojo probably, angst in general if u squint
notes// yep you guessed it! a waterparks song did in fact inspire this! todays inspiration is powerless!!! wooooooo!!!
Gojo Satoru was by no means alone. Whether he was with the higher-ups or other sorcerers or with his students, he was always with someone, around someone. Gojo Satoru was by no means alone, but he was by every means lonely. There was always a wall between him and everyone, metaphorically and quite literally, considering his infinity. only one person had ever been able to get past it, and that was when he was in jujutsu high himself, only one person until you.
Yaga had called Gojo in one day for what he thought was a meeting, but upon arriving, he was met with you, standing there in all your glory, hands clasped together as you smiled sweetly at Gojo, who could now actively feel his pulse quickening the longer he stared at you.
“Gojo, meet L/N; they're a new teacher here. In fact, they'll be working with you and your first years," Yaga catches Gojo up as he begins walking toward you two.
“Hi! Nice to meet you,” you say happily as you offer your hand out to him for a handshake.
Gojo catches himself about to shake your hand but stops himself before he can do so. That’s not Gojo; Gojo doesn't shake hands, and Gojo doesn’t turn off his infinity, so why was he about to? just for you? He clears his throat and smiles smugly. “Sorry, pretty. I don't shake hands.”
Your mouth forms a slight “o” shape as you retract your hand and go back to clasping it together with your other. “Sorry!” you apologize sincerely.
Yaga quirks up an eyebrow at Gojo in question, having witnessed the whole interaction, and the only thing Gojo can do is flash his signature smile.
Yaga sighs. “Right well, that’s all. They start tomorrow with you, Gojo. Get them informed on your class, yeah?” He says this before walking out of the room.
“Nice to meet you!” You call out to Yaga, who is long gone at this point. “So Gojo, what’s our class like?”
Gojo catches himself smiling like an idiot at your use of “our.” He likes the sound of that; he likes it a lot, a little too much, actually.
“Just call me Satoru.”
Everything after that was history. Gojo and you had quickly taken to each other like no other, catching everyone by surprise. Mostly because Gojo hadn't let himself take to anyone since he was in Jujutsu High, so why should you be any different? Nobody knew why, and he certainly didn't know why either, which is what scared him; it’s what’s made him keep you at arm's length; it’s what’s made him keep the quite literal invisible wall between you two.
But none of that stopped you; you were still just as enticed by Gojo as was everybody else, but you were different. You didn't fall for him because he was Gojo, the strongest sorcerer; you fell for him because he was just Satoru to you; you saw him when he was see-through, and maybe that's exactly why he keeps you at arms length. Because being truly known scares Gojo, allowing someone to truly know him again is what keeps Gojo up at night, even if deep down that's all he really wants.
It’s been about a year at this point of you and Gojo being friends that aren't just friends but also aren't together but also aren't not together. In simpler terms, it's been about a year at this point of you and Gojo being together without actually being together. This isn’t to say you haven't tried; you have, kind of. You’ve never wanted to push too hard, afraid that it would do more harm than good. You would try and plan dates with Gojo, telling him you’d make time for him and that you were waiting on his greenlight, but apparently his light was always red, occasionally yellow, but never green. never.
But now you’re sick of waiting for the right time. You're sick of not being pushy; you're sick of being whatever it is you are with Gojo; you’re either together or you're not. You need answers; you need to know if he needs you like you need him, which is how you found yourself at his front door at midnight. You find yourself hesitating to knock on his door but end up knocking anyway; you didn't come out all this way in the cold only to end up not knocking. After a few moments, you're still out in the cold, so you knock harder, only to end up knocking on Gojo, well—you would have had his infinity been off.
“Y/n?” he asks grogily.
“Gojo,” you reply back flatly, nodding as a form of greeting.
Gojo’s face scrunches up in confusion and slight disgust at his last name coming from you as he moves out of the way to allow you in.
“Did I do something?” he asks curiously as he watches you walk into his living room.
“yes.. no! .. maybe? ugh, I don't know,” you respond vaguely as you stand in front of his couch and turn to look at him.
Gojo now finds himself a few feet in front of you, every part of him aching to just hold you. “You don't know?” he asks quietly.
you groan. “What are we, Gojo?”
Gojo winces at you using his last name again. “Can you stop calling me Gojo?”
You frown. “okay fine. What are we, Satoru?” You purposely draw out his first name as if to mock him.
He matches your frown, his eyebrows scrunching together as he questions, “Where is this coming from?”
You scoff. “You can't even tell me!”
"Y/n no, I'm just confused," Gojo responds sheepishly.
You sigh. “Satoru, I'm in love with you.”
Gojo goes wide-eyed; he had pretty much already known, but hearing you say it outright still takes him by surprise, and suddenly, with the way his pulse is quickening, he's taken back to the first time he met you. “Y/n-“
You don't give him a chance to speak, raising your finger at him as if telling him to shut up, and he does. “I am so in love with you, but I can’t keep doing whatever we’re doing, Satoru.”
“What are we doing?” he asks with a frown.
“I don't know!” you exclaim. “That's the problem, Satoru! I need to know if you’re in because I have been in since the moment I met you, Satoru, so now it’s your turn. Do you love me, Satoru?”
Gojo bites the inside of his cheek, and his eyes are stinging; he might just actually cry. He inhales and exhales deeply. “Y/n, I love you so much that it scares me,” he whispers back because he thinks if he talks any louder, his voice will crack.
Now it's your turn for your eyes to sting, along with your lips starting to tremble. Scratch that—every part of you is beginning to tremble as you watch him step closer to you. “Then prove it,” you reply meekly yet sternly.
Gojo doesn’t say a word. The way he wants to prove it doesn't involve him speaking; it involves him wrapping you in his embrace, which is exactly what he does, and you go stiff at feeling him touch you for the first time. You blink a few times in disbelief before grabbing whatever part of him you can get your hands on—his back, shoulders, arms, neck, hair, face—everything and anything. You’re trying to memorize his body whole in case this is the first and only chance you’ll get to ever touch him.
He stifles a laugh at how your hands won't stay still on him, and he kisses your forehead, and the two of you stay like that for a few moments, his lips against your forehead, while you try to memorize Gojo whole. Eventually, you finally stop and wrap your arms around him just like his are around you; your heart is about to practically jump out of your chest with how hard it’s beating.
Gojo is the first to break the silence. “So, I was thinking maybe we could get away? call it a date?” He mumbles against your forehead.
“Is this real?” you ask breathlessly.
Gojo laughs as he pulls away slightly, arms still around you, in order to look at you face-to-face. “Of course this is real. Am I just that amazing that you can't believe I'm real?” he asks as a smirk tugs at his lips.
Despite the grin on your face, you roll your eyes at him. "Oh, shut up! It's just... does this mean you're in?" You ask nervously.
Gojo hums before he leans in and kisses you passionately, yet keeps it short and sweet by breaking the kiss just to mumble.
“Yeah, i'm in.”
© LITTLEXBIMBO
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