It's Midnight, And Here I Am Awake With Endless Thoughts. The Weather Here Been So Hot That I Swear I

prague, march 2022

— Paul Guest, from “1987.”

how does the odyssey begin? 

what can you say to someone who feels utterly alone and unloved?

your feelings are valid, but not a mirror of reality. you are neither alone nor unloved; the fact that you feel unloved reflects your ability to love, so why not pour your love into yourself and be your own companion? you are your highest priority

You need a rest. You need empty moments in which you tolerate your anxiety and circling thoughts until they slow down and stop circling. You need slow, quiet activities that ground you and remind you to accept yourself in spite of huge obstacles and bad thoughts. You need to put solutions out of your mind for now, and engage in activities that have nothing to do with your ego. You need habits that strengthen your patience and focus, but also feel real and not arbitrary. You need to abandon your glorious future and build your imperfect present instead.

Ask Polly: “I’m Lazy, Reckless and Addicted To Social Media. Help!”

31.03.2023 I confessed I did something reckless to my health (mentally and physically), need to remind myself and you (my fellow reader who work so hard for themselves) to not let yourself be too exhausted doing your academic. :( I spend from 8 pm till 4 am managing individual paper and groupwork paper, and it wasn't healthy to do so. I skipped my suhoor and the morning, I felt so drained mentally that I wanted to cry but your girl had online presentation in the afternoon 2 pm. It wasn't rewarding feeling. Won't do it again.

After the class, I just laid down in bed and read. The reading calms me down a bit and yay, to slowly reaching my book goal.

(MAKE SURE YOU TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF, READER, OR ELSE I WOULD MAKE YOUR ICED COFFEE MELTS FASTER OR YOUR HOT DRINKS BECOME COLD FAST. Maybe worse, it spills) 💕

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It can be really hard to learn to engage in positive self talk, but sometimes it's easier to start by pretending it's coming from a friend, first 💜

Salted toffee latte (with oatmilk) and new book.