2.45 Am - Had Such A Cozy Study Session After A Whole Day Of Melt Downs

is it just me or does anyone else feels like studying and being much more productive when they start using a new pen/refill

11 may 2025

(a post without todo lists)

hello, it’s been long~ it’s been a week since neet.

i have another exam tmr but i’m not studying for it cus well- i packed all my stuff anyway and idk, i can’t get myself to study anymore. the burn out is intense- like 2 years of burn out waiting to crash so wellll

i’ve been getting back to my hobbies for now !! more indoor hobbies cuz i still don’t have the energy to step out a lot but we’ve been drawing and reading again - i drew the mandala piece for my mom for mother’s day and the demon slayer piece- well just like that. also started reading bell jar by sylvia plath 🌸

my exam centre tmr is pretty far away and i have to be there by 8 sooo i’ll leave around 6.45-7 ;( (gotta sleep early but we know i wont)

anyway, i think im slowly gonna get back to going out too- for some reason crowds have been overwhelming and i get this random pang of guilt and sadness which makes going out really overstimulating :(( but we’ll get better.

also been reducing the amount of coffee i drink - i only drink one every two days which is a huge huge improvement and does make me sleep quality better but not by a lot. also gives me a lot of headaches :(

changed my desk set up and brought out my laptop so i can edit easier and do a few courses online cus too much free time :( i was thinking of doing this one neuroscience course but let’s see :) i also had to make a new yt account cuz my old one had nothing but neet on it and i was too overwhelmed to unsubscribe so safe choice- used my new mail id 😭 (ive had this mail id for a long time, the yt was on the mail id i had when i was in 7th) so yes okay, enough yapping for now

i hope yall have a great day and stay hydrated

💌

damn.

aaj kyu aa rhi hai construction ki awaz, mei kud jaongi 🙏🏾 in bkl ko koi aur time nhi milta kya

i am not spiralling, i am just following a suspiciously curved path 🤡

couldn’t sleep until almost 5, woke up so exhausted too. i hate insomnia.

everyday is a never ending loop of i can’t do it -> i have to do it -> goodnight i give up

21 may 2025

hey loves, it’s been long since this kind of a post :) it’s been such a cute day today <3 my lec’s normally start at 9 am but i skip my first lec cuz im not a morning person and my brain genuinely doesn’t work in the morning and i’m not tryna work against it so i just work later into the night but make sure to get shit done :)

anyways - i watched my physical chem lec 1 (recorded) and botany lec 2 (on cell - live) - this went on until 3 pm - then took a long ahh break until 6 ✋ and went on a really cozy 2 hour walk around the neighbourhood and got my mum some flowers 🌸 came home, washed my hair at around 9 and i do feel pretty sleepy rn so i made a small cup of instant coffee with extremely little coffee cus i need to do my zoology lec 1 (i have lec 2 tmr so i don’t want the backlog to pile up)

anyway- really cozy day since it’s been raining throughout the night and into the days so the evenings have gotten really cold and pleasant and i function a lot better and am more productive in general when it’s cold so yippieeeeee <3

i’m having so much fun studying all this now, makes me realise how much i truly do love the subjects, it was just the exam stress and repetitive schedule that made it seem so nauseous. anyway - i’m doing my best to take it slow and breathe a little more to avoid burn out <3

i hope you all had a lovely day too 🌸

💌

3 days in and i have backlog cuz i hate physical chem and refuse to wake up to attend live lectures for it 🌸 good morning gang

will this final last exam prep sprint end or will i end myself before that ? stay tuned to find out 🫶🏽

so so so goddamn exhausted.

also i have viteee on 21st so im prepping for that now