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I often analyze the Life Series through a lens of personal agency because I think it's a broadly applicable theme and it's also a theme that matters to me personally, so it's always stuck with me, maybe more than a lot of the fandom, how little agency Grian had in Third Life.

Scar and Grian's deal was in of itself was wildly unhealthy for Grian, I think. Obviously Scar didn't go out of his way try to make things hard for Grian, in fact, a lot of the things Grian did for him because of their deal were things Grian decided himself were his responsibility. But unconditional servitude is a very limiting and possibly even dehumanizing thing to agree to, and it clearly got to Grian. He frequently spoke about being unhappy, about wanting to leave, about how much he hated having to do what Scar says. And while some of that was for show, I also think there was a lot of very real regret over being caged, over giving away so much personal agency in a moment of guilt and obligation.

The first real choice Grian made was to stay with Scar, despite whatever resentment he'd built earlier, despite how much part of him wanted to leave.

This was punished quickly when Scar betrayed him, and possibly in the worst way possible. He tossed out a piece of paper, said whoever catches it lives. Grian couldn't catch it before Bdubs did, Grian couldn't convince his one ally not to help stab him to death, Grian couldn't fight back when it was two against one. He was helpless, in many ways in that moment. Nothing he did meant anything, nothing he did could have stopped it, Grian's first act of personal agency after so long being caged was to choose to stay with Scar, and Scar stabbed him for it while Grian tried (and failed, because nothing he did would have stopped it) to convince him not to.

Scar tried to make up for it (well, depending on whether you view scar's "you may slay me" as genuine or strategy) in a way I think is pretty meaningful all things considered. Scar kneeled, and he gave Grian the power to do what he would, let Grian choose. Which is possibly the best thing Scar could have done, when I see Grian feeling robbed of personal agency as such a big Thing in his Third Life pov.

But it didn't matter in the end. The spectators wanted a fight, and for one reason or another, Grian felt bound to their wishes. Maybe he would have wanted to kill Scar, or maybe he would have wanted to go home together and keep living, or maybe he would have wanted a fight if he could have chosen it. But Grian couldn't, he didn't have a choice. Grian was forced to kill Scar, and then he threw himself off the cliff, because there was no other option, nothing else to do.

I just feel like Grian is robbed of agency at so many turns in Third Life in a way we don't think about all that much.

Look at the sillies

Watcher: Origins

I really need to work on that title lmao

A little sneak peek of what (is possibly) the origins AU prologue.

Still need to work on the cover page but yeah here

Official tag #w!origins au

Heres another silly little grain fanart for funzies

Oh wow the quality is sh-

@project-lumen

This is how everyone is about maomao and I love it

Life Series Potential angst HeadCanon

After 3rd Life Grian doubled down on the rule that once someone goes red they cannot maintain their allies.

As far as I can remember, this rule only was only enforced in Last Life. SO what if Grian introduced this rule to prevent anyone from having to betray their closes ally from the beginning and suffer what Grian when through with Scar, but the rule backfired and Grian ended up having to kill Jimmy and Mumbo. He's forced once again to kill his closes ally from day one.

And so, after double life, were people only really had their soulmates for allies and so the life difference wasn't really a thing, the rule is lost. Grian goes back to assisting his red allies in getting kills and red kills begin to help give red's a better chance at survival, evident with both the Bad Boys and the Spanners, but its never enough.

grian they could never make me hate you (part 2)

So I've been getting into lifesteal recently and so far the most intriguing thing to me is the sheer difference of perspective on clownpierce.

So for starters to most players he is known as one of the most dangerous players in the smp. A cold and merciless killer, leading him to be villainized by most. He plays into these views very well but in stark contrast,

There's him with kaboodle. If you look at him through her eyes he's js a silly goofy man with a hint of murder. And we love him for it. Not to mention their dynamic is so sibling coded it's so fun. Very giving grian and jimmy where grian is clown without the whole murderous tendency and jimmy being kaboodle getting the brunt of their loving bullying.

With rekrap however, I saw his video on the soft locking with sand. Over there he was pictured as this very skilled yet short tempered man with a fragile ego. He held his grudge from the whole -5 hearts and killed rek after a bit.

In jumpers video summary of s5 he was seen to be a puzzle solver of sorts and actually shown care for the server. Working to help save it with the foundation.

I haven't seen him with Branzy however but I have heard from folks that his dynamic with him is equivalent to a yandere partner so that's interesting lmao.

Alright thanks for coming to my rambling quick session folks