"life Is Beautiful, But You Don't Have A Clue"

i'd rather lose somebody than use somebody

"you'll always be a dumb blonde."

i always tried to fit in but was always rejected. In the end, i decided on my own to make my decision, a symbol of my rebellion, to conform to the norms. i was pressured to fit in and had deviations from my individuality. despite my new self, i chose to continue to feel anguish and loneliness, perhaps because i had given up on something special. i am trying to accept myself as i am, because it is better for me to accept myself as i am, regardless of the social pressures to conform.

don't put kids in hollywood

the amount she was sexualized and became a new sex symbol for hollywood saddens me. unlike her partner who was her abuser in the movie, she had her career destroyed by a role where everyone became disgusted with her. this shows that men, despite all the atrocities they can commit, will never be judged as much as women are when they make mistakes. whoever sexualized her is sick.

prologue

the twilight prologue really gets me, the melancholic and reflective way bella describes her trip to forks enchants me, she always seemed unwell, i believe she was always like that

about this week

i'm feeling super fat, i want to go on a diet and fast, but my mother won't let me, it seems like she wants me to get even fatter, an ozempic or liposuction would save me so much, i'm arguing a lot with my mother because of my sexuality, it seems like it doesn't bother you that i'm fat but it bothers you that i'm gay, go figure, i missed a lot of classes, i barely saw my friends at school this week, which was also exam week, i fought with a standard boy and had a date, i don't want to go into too much detail about this, but anyway, it was a very intense week, i missed a lot of classes and fought a lot, i hope next week will be calmer.

bad mother

talking to thayla was so therapeutic

going to school now

are you ready to cry?

my last summer

this summer i traveled to northern italy, spent a few days there and learned a lot about the culture, saw several tourist attractions and learned about the local language, there i met a beautiful blonde Italian, i approached him but in the end nothing came of it, unfortunately, i wanted to try the local food but i promised i would lose weight so i ended up not enjoying it much, but it was cool, but next time i wanted to go alone, going with my mother didn't give me the opportunity to enjoy it as much, i wanted to have more freedom...